Falling Into Your Trap
A Place of Escape; A Candidate Home Where the Heart is Directed. Part 1's

Sinar knows that his decision is impulsive. He should not have urged others to be by his side when he was feeling half dead. But he couldn't help himself or he was just going crazy with all the feelings that were blowing like turbid dirty water and also his head full as if he just wanted to hit him with something very hard one. For this time, he hated it because he could not think clearly.

The only way is that he doesn't want to be alone. She can't ask her sister to be with her because her main problem is dragging Lisa to this. All sources are with his sister and he doesn't want to feel more guilty if he sees her. For his crazy time like this, he just wanted to get away from his sister. Not wanting to show how bad he was to be a brother who could not protect his own sister and not wanting to show how weak he was as someone who was always considered cheerful and strong by the people around him.

The light has no one to call. He only has Noren and Wildan, and of course his little sister. As long as he grew up and developed into his current figure, the people who were sincere to him could only be counted on the fingers. He has no decent friends, even if you could say, Noren was now unable to say whether he was still his sincere friend and was always there for him after what the man had done to him. Humiliate him and disparage him so blatantly. But who is he to avoid because the words that Noren gives are in the form of facts. And of course, he couldn't share with Wildan because the man didn't have to take care of most of his life.

So, with his mind already filled with stupid things that caused him to not be able to breathe properly, he chose the only person who could calm him down. What she desperately needed and she was sure to give her the calmness and warmth she was currently so looking forward to. She misses so much to get a place to lean back and go home. Home was the only thing he had thought of calling this person, but he did not know if Hala would be happy with that nickname coming from him.

Hala gave him a home six years ago. Her sister's best friend had given her the warmth and strength to stay afloat until now. To keep believing that he can do many things that are beyond his reach. Hala was the only person who saw her at the lowest point and even saw her weakness in shedding tears. The only woman who settled in his heart and did not change until now. The person he would call as the place to go home and comfort even though he knew that he could not label Hala as such by how the relationship they were building now. It was even far from what the Rays could have predicted.

But the fool with it, he just needs Hala to be with him. He wanted the woman to be there for him even by getting the woman to skip work when he forced Hala to accompany him because he needed her right now.

Driving with a raging mind, she did not even realize since when she could reach the basement of the office where Hala and her sister worked. Quietly, when he parked the car on the side of the road front yard office building that could not be said to be small was not so big -, Sinar immediately contacted Hala right then and there.

He doesn't care. Sinar is ready to enter and ask permission to release Hala from the second job also to Leo or anyone who has the highest position in charge of the Hala division of work. Although he did not want to make a fuss and provoke the attention of his younger sister who also worked at the same place, but if Hala really could not be by his side at the moment, he would be reckless to do so. Nothing will stand in his way. He would handle the trouble from the commotion tomorrow if he had recovered completely and did not feel as crazy as that day.

Grateful for him, there was no commotion that he had to handle today. Hala picked up her phone on the fourth ring and said that she would ask permission and then dropped off a while longer. Sinar had to stay in the car because Hala promised to get freedom for the reasons he had prepared. So for that, Rays according. He leaned his head and back against the soft seat of his car. Closing his eyes while neutralizing his breath that felt tight.

Waiting there like forever when he still didn't feel calm. Looking towards where the transparent doors of the company building would display Hala, she was agitated like a hot worm in a low-temperature car. Still unable to stand still, he cursed inwardly why the woman took such a long time just to get down and approach him.

When Sinar felt that his head was about to break, he managed to see the figure of Hala descending in haste. Wearing a dark green hoodie, with a small tote bag and quickened footsteps as if running when the woman found out and memorized the vehicle that was being driven by Sinar, the man immediately opened his car door to get out and approached the woman who was looking around as if she was testing the water on the surroundings.

Foolish, you, he immediately widened his big footsteps and was faced directly by the sight of round eyes that were shocked by his presence and also the panic that Sinar could register when he had already pulled Hala in his tight embrace like a single koalas. The light with a heavy breath he let go, drowning his face in the recesses of Hala's neck. Finally, he felt his breathing begin to regrow when he inhaled the same scent as home. Like when he was always around Hala at certain times and the aroma is still the same as six years ago. The scent of calmness he got from everything that made him fall.

“Life!!” Hala sounded a sigh. His hands froze to push Sinar let go of his embrace, at least staying away for a while and not doing such a thing in an office environment that could still be seen by anyone passing around there. “Kak, let go first, ouch. Not here.. Brother Sinar I again panic, but not gini as well. Off, yes?”

Hala's voice, though panicked and perhaps relieved by the sudden behavior of the Rays, remained soft in Sinar's ears. Ignoring the request, he instead tightened his embrace on Hala. Trying not to escape the warmth of the house he was looking for. From where she leaned. His lost energy slowly began to replenish even in terms of the minimum. The light feels calmer.

“This need..” His murmur was right in Hala's ear as a whisper. “Mau takes a moment of tranquility, La”

He knew Hala was goosebumps with what she was doing from how the woman's body was tensed for a while where Sinar could continue to take the opportunity to peel off her madness which slowly made her lighter. The clogging of the broken threadbars began to loosen little by little.

“Kak, this is still in the office environment. I'm a pain permit, this, seriously. Later what would be said to be the same person who was horrified if I permission to get sick but instead did the scene start in front of the office” Hala whining. Even so, the woman's hand that was on her back was confused whether to pat her with a tranquilizing clap or instead push her away. The woman seemed to want to calm Sinar as well, but she was more afraid of his position in an inappropriate place to show physical touch that might lead to misunderstanding.

The light that had started to feel bright, smiled with affection. He reluctantly let go of his embrace at Hala, but still held both of the woman's arms tightly. Still want to linger calm down and he is still not satisfied to be able to breathe better again Madness because Noren is still attacking, and he is still not satisfied, but he knew it was better not to make Hala take back the woman's good decision to accompany him and be by his side.

“Gue is tired, La. I need to be hugged for a moment. Can't do it, huh?” Sinar knew he shouldn't have pulled that rope, but he needed to reveal it because his lips were already itching to ask and he still did not want to let Hala off just like that when the woman had surrendered herself and her time willingly.

“Gue usually will not want to be hugged so. But because you seem to be stressed again, I, as a kind and not arrogant person decided to give a golden opportunity to you, Kak” His face was serious when speaking. The woman lowered both hands of Sinar on her arms gently before finally pulling Sinar to rush into her car again.

“But not here. You know, this is my work area. It would be crazy if later many misunderstand and think that is not easy. Mending we get in the car now and you can talk a lot about me. How do you know I can help anything that makes you stress so brother. Or, if for example you want to pinjem my ear to dengerin curhatan lo, I can be happy to help lo”

“Lo's bay, can?”

The eyes that had been round like marbles were glaring at him in response to the request he threw. Smiling that he could finally feel the corner of his lips drawn to give a beautiful curve in the realization of a small calmness, a grateful ray that he chose the right person to slightly heal him.

“Diem and quickly enter the car, Brother Sinar!”

Her lips advanced in a funny strangle. The rays felt his body being thrust lightly. But whether she felt mental fatigue making her weaker than she should have been, she fell quickly onto the steering wheel. Letting Hala close the car door with a loud slam that made her shake, she waited for Hala to re-enter and fill the seat next to her. Of course it did not take long, but when Hala had already entered and was in position, Sinar with his madness that was still not lost, pulled Hala's hand for him to hold with both hands. Trying to stay grounded again when he tries to breathe well to the normal rhythm of his breath he's trying to find his beat.

“Not able to breath?” Hala asked worriedly. “Lo finished what, anyway, Brother? until like? Try to follow the tempo of my breath. Take a look here” Hala by slowly pulling the face of Sinar to face him. The man who was now smiling wide and a bit hard to breathe strangely smiled silly in the fatigue that seemed real.

“Pull... discard. pull.. discard... slowly..” Hala guiding and Sinar who still need air and tired to catch his breath like an insane person follow the directions well. Quite some time was wasted so that he could find his breath better and not think that he would have to breathe manually again for the rest of his life.

“By a hug?” again, the question this time made Hala pull her hand and give her an unimpressed facial expression.

“Mending go from here and find a good place so you can tell, deh, brother. don't need to weird” said Hala quickly ignored the request from Sinar. The woman somewhat blushed from what the observation beam was trying to do. Losing out because the option to get a wider and free place than in the car was the best, he according to the advice given by Hala.

“But.. I don't know where to go.”.

That is what Sinar realized when he stepped on the accelerator and mingled with vehicles passing by on the highway. Hala shut up for a moment. He was sure that she was looking at him strangely. But Sinar said honesty, he did not think at all what place could calm himself just like that. He has a place to be an option, but he doesn't want to be there. Nalisa's house isn't the best one for her to go to at the moment either because after all, it's her sister's house and everything reminds her of how incompetent she is as a big sister. He wanted to stay away from things that reminded him of the current failure. He still can't survive the fall that Noren gave him.

“Lo has lunch, sis?”

Instead of giving the answer and the key to what he should have gotten to the goal, Hala pulled him in an off-topic question that caught him off guard for a moment.

“It's only half twelve.. According to lo, have I had lunch?” The light turned the question with a small voice.

“OK if so” Hala is breathing quietly as if he didn't just throw an oddity at the Rays a moment ago. “We went to my house and had lunch together. I cooked this morning for breakfast and some of the ingredients and food that I cooked most of it. Maybe, you can be a bit quiet in my house after eating and my same story, sister?”

“OK. Thanks... Hala”.

“Gue hasn't done anything yet, Brother. Same focus street”

“Colls, can?”

“Gue said, the same focus of the road before my hand floated to harm both of us, Brother Sinar”

That light of laughter was the one laugh he let out today. His eyes were already hot, it felt so heavy to just drop water inside. But he blinked to keep his weakness from falling. Not now, maybe later. He just had to be strong for a little longer.

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Light doesn't know how it happens. Everything felt like he was just blinking and he was moving in one place. Flashing once more, he had already eaten the food he chewed for longer than usual. Flashing again, he had already gotten an isotonic drink and fruits in his hands. Blinking a few times, she was already on Hala's lap in the soft cradle of the woman's fingers playing in her hair. Massaging the part of his head that feels a little dizzy, more stinging than what he could say when his mind wandered about in painful things that tried to gush out from his lips capable of spilling many words.

Rays try not to overshare and spit out everything that happens in his life. His feelings were soaring, with his head clad in Hala's soft thighs, ignoring the growl of the woman's black cat who whined dislike because the owner had something else in the fur boy's favorite chair, everything felt more like it was surrounded by a warmth that he did not know he needed for the years he lived for himself.

Closing his eyes, Sinar tried to recall why he could be in the position he is in now. He remembered that he enjoyed the food that Hala made, whining on one side about hugging the woman and on the other he was just according to how Hala treated him like a baby who could not take care of himself. Then, when they were done with the food, Hala took her to a lounge with a lower temperature stinging the skin due to the expanse of air conditioning, but it was warmer and reassuring itself in all sorts of aspects. He could really tell that he was safe anywhere that Hala was also present by his side.

She also recalled how Hala complained about having a big baby that she had to take care of and why she was destined to be the mother of big babies that troubled her just like that. Oh, if only Hala knew that Sinar would rather hear that Hala would be the mother of her children and of course, that she would be the mother of her children, as someone who will take care of it and make it happy also removes the entire burden of this joking universe. However, it could be at another time. He should not think of strange things. The rays should focus on the healing and calming stage with the method used by Hala now.

He had just remembered that this position was a position in lieu of a hug that he had held for a while at a time where it might have caught Hala off guard. But instead of widening her arms to embrace Sinar, the woman chose to rest the head of the ray on her lap. The light may cry for it.

“Udah is quiet enough? Did you get his head? You can breathe properly, right, now?”

The sudden question, made Sinar flinch and opened his eyes quickly in a faint vision of how eager he was to examine Hala's worried expression.

Feeling too dizzy to open his eyes, Ray just nodded. Ah, she only realized that she was back in her difficult times in regulating her feelings and shocked body. His head hurts and he may have caught pain due to weakness attacking his immune system that was not awake. Hala might have already realized that so she allowed Sinar to rest with the comfort he could offer.

“Lumayan. Thanks, yes, dek” he muttered. Still reluctant to open his eyes because it will make him dizzy and nauseous at the same time.

“But lie, lo, Kak.lo pale that when he finished eating. Did you sleep last night?” Hala asked softly. Trying not to make the Light too surprised.

“Sleep, but not so soundly. Awakening several times” On one side, Sinar could feel that he was babbling. His consciousness was suddenly drawn deep in unconsciousness.

“Lo why, anyway, Brother? what's the problem until you do this? I'm so scared, I swear”

Ah, the light feels stupid. He shouldn't have made Hala worry more about him. That's very unnecessary. However, his feelings were stirred up in the attention he had all this time needed. Let it. Let him enjoy the very rare things he gets as long as he always strives to be a tiring adult figure.

“Gue was tired, La” he muttered, shifting to get a little more comfort while Hala was getting more active with her fingers in the hair of Sinar. The warm blanket that shifted on his body that he had just felt made the man complain in a fond chant.

The light gets more unconscious, but the thing that drives him crazy and overwhelmed in many negative aspects always gets the best of him. So, he was unconscious when he muttered something else where when he woke up from his unconscious one day, Hala must have demanded an explanation from him stubbornly.

“Gue feels failed. I failed to be human.I failed to be a good brother. Never, really, lo.. feel like useless garbage at all?”

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