Falling Into Your Trap
Bro Time: One-Sided Feelings and Decisions (Return to Those Times)

Warmindo Ko Akoh is the most high-class warmindo with a very affordable price and nurture the boarding children. Actually highclass itself is the nickname given by Fajri when Alpino invites them to try eating there at the end of the month from the recommendation of his internship friend. You could say, their special mandatory hangout that is set directly when they sit in the most strategic and comfortable place in one of the rooms provided there, is a treasure trove of boarding children who want to eat well but are hindered by economic problems, usually at the end of the month and cause misery because they cannot eat well even though the stomach screams to ask.

Warmindo Ko Akoh itself, if seen from the outside is the same place as other warmindo, but somewhat wider than most, and very simple. The wall color is a light blue color that does not hurt the eyes and is filled with tables and chairs that are quite enough for students and other teenagers to chat with each other and one table can be filled more than 5 people. The place is often crowded with visitors and has certainly become a favorite for teenagers who enjoy good food at low costs. But uniquely, this warmindo is divided into 3 parts, and it is a fact that until now is still a admiration for Alpino.

As said before, the first room is a regular hangout filled by teenagers who just want to eat and do chores not for hours, or just eat there with a duration of time that is not so long. Filled with food serving place and Bandung batagor booth that is very popular and always run out even before the afternoon.

In the second room is a lesehan place lined with soft carpets and several long tables. Usually this is used for teenagers or students who want to mabar or just do the task with more focus only, enjoy free wifi provided there. Or often a place of mojok for some teenage lovers who do not want to be disturbed by noise outside or mosquitoes in the back room. And in fact, the facilities provided by Ko Akoh are not very playful. In addition to a soft fur carpet that stretches a full room, the fan is placed in two corners and provided some toys to fill the boredom, such as jenga, gaplek or UNO.

Then the third part is the most favorite hangout according to Alpino itself. Despite being an open space, Alpino feels more free to breathe and more free. Even the place is a free place to smoke, so there is no limit when he wants to whip a little to relieve his feelings if the day is very bad. Alpino is actually not a heavy smoker, it's just that he did it when he was really upset. So, yes, today is the day that she will take some nicotine suction to relieve her feelings.

This third open space was a place decorated like in a cafe, there were two small pavilions in the corner, but more lesehan places with walls carved like wood, which were carved out of the ground, but some are left plain like ordinary walls, and most unique, children are free to cross anything there, creative anything, but if there are scribbles with harsh words that are not nice to see, Ko Akoh or his workers will clean it up soon. It is usually done per week and Alpino will never stop being amazed by what all this place does.

To be honest Alpino himself will not believe if this is warmindo, but in the name of cafe also can not, the wide-mounted banner clearly says that the place is warmindo and the outside really looks very simple and nurtures the tough economy class teenager, but when it has ventured into, it is very difficult to, simplicity is like lost in the swallow of the earth Well, actually not so luxurious, it's just that, with a spacious place and facilities that make comfort the number one factor, the food there is very varied and diverse, it's just that, and, very cheap.

He could hardly believe that there was no food over twenty-five thousand, except alcohol, which is provided there but can only be ordered in a certain rate that has been set by Ko Akoh himself. He said, so that no one is really drunk in warmindo. That is why also, the price of alcohol there is memorized so that no one wants to buy and be satisfied with what drinks are served there.

Alpino has also met Ko Akoh himself. Typical Alpino that is easy to blend might make Ko Akoh become excited when telling this story with him. And he even remembers the first time Ko Akoh himself sat down with the three of them and talked about the business run by this generous Ko Akoh. He had even asked if there was no loss in the cost he had incurred for this place but sold the food back at a cheap, festive price, but Ko Akoh just said with a wave of hands and eyes narrowed with a big smile that, he had also been in the period of being a boarding child with a difficult economic case. He made the warmindo to help the boarding children can eat with variety. Cos-friendly child, he said.

The meeting itself became a free meal for Alpino, Hexa and Fajri. Who doesn't love eating for free? Be that since then, they always visit to be a warmindo regular customer. After all, good food, affordable prices and a comfortable atmosphere to complain or han loya to rest for a while, who does not want, ‘kan?

So here he is. Sitting in the place they had claimed to be from the beginning, leaning against the rough wall behind him, enjoying a little genjanggan guitar kid tongkrongan in the corner pavilion singing a song that was somehow like testing the water, the, learn a new song to sing together in their troupe. Alpino was a little calm, his breath was not hunting like before. His eyes he closed for a moment, still waiting for his friends to arrive soon. Alpino decided to order a plate of batagor without bitter melon and a can of cola while waiting.

Not until twenty minutes later, after his order had come up and was about to run out in half, Hexa shocked him with a pat on his shoulder, leaving Alpino aghast and almost cursing harshly. The perpetrator laughed at Alpino's strange surprised face before putting himself in his place and seizing the menu lying right at Alpino's feet.

“Quickly lo datengnya? Speak for sure” Alpino commented when he saw a small humming Hexa flipping through the menu paper. Hexa's eyebrows shot up, glancing at Alpino for a moment before returning to choosing her own food. “Neither, anyway. I was just around here so the samples were quick. Uh, this is what you pay for, right?”

“Iya, pesen aja as you like, I will have said earlier” Cengiran given Hexa wide when he giggled and stood up, walking with enthusiasm to order some more food for him. Alpino noticed when his friend left and returned not until five minutes later. Heksa sat down with a satisfied sigh before grabbing an Alpino cola can and chugging it fast.

“Pesen food anyway pesen, but do not have me also load embat, nyet”

Hexa rolled her eyes before putting the drink back in front of Alpino. “So much you swear, I'm thirsty to drink a little. My drink was so fresh in pesen” Alpino blinked fast, his lips were pulled into a thin line before hitting the head of Hexa. The boy if left alone usually always makes him just want to throw Hexa away from his eyes right now. But unfortunately, or unfortunately, Hexa is needed by him here.

“Emang has a very monkey friend, dog”

“Monkey or dog? Consistent dong”Heks mocking back. Alpino let out a heavy sigh before kicking off the waist of Hexa who had just pulled out her phone. Nearly falling out of hand, the Hexa swears back at the Alpino.

“Dog!”

“Gotty mouth lo, Sa. I am aduin my mommu tau rasa”

“Same with you, motherfucker”

“Astagfirullah, I shouldn't have brought you here, lo. I am good rukiyah all”

Hexa rolled her eyes lazily. He leaned his body against the rough wall behind. Secure himself there before putting the phone in front of the two of them, next to Alpino's own cell phone. Bro time they do usually collect mobile phones and focus more on their conversations. This is what makes them comfortable with each other, because they understand each other.

“Honey, immune me mah if in rukiyah”

“Yes because the demon, lo, right, Sa?” Alpino chirps later. Hexa wettest, “Tau aja, uh, the more satan”

“Bjak”

Comfortable is probably the thing that Alpino can say a thousand times. During his friendship with Hexa and Fajri, he finds it among the three of them. Not with Lisa. It's just that there are separate and different things in a friendship between a man and a woman. And clearly, she would not be able to tell her feelings to Lisa, someone who would be the main object in their conversation tonight.

“Ngapain lo around here, Sa?” Alpino has reopened the question. Heksa shrugged his shoulders while stealing Alpino's food back which was only glared at by the master. “Nemenin Hala nyari ate earlier. He wants more, so what time should be followed”

“Emang babunya Hala ya lo, can not say enggak to doi” Alpino interrupts. Hexa laughed, she waved lazily. “Ga can say 'not my mah. The reality is that. You also realize yourself, yes, nyet. You're Lisa's baby, right? His personal ojol as well, tuh”

“Sesama babu don't have to point at each other, ya”

“Sial, Fajri, Lo make me shocked swear!”

Alpino rubbed his chest as Fajri suddenly came between them. He patted the shoulder of Hexa who was next to him before pulling out the phone and putting it between the other phones, looking more prepared than the other two. Heksa patted back Fajri's shoulder as a welcome greeting. Let Fajri find a comfortable place to sit.

“Sorry, sorry. Not meant, I. I guess you guys already realize the presence of I” Fajri gives a distinctive grin that shows his teeth.

“Yes where we are aware, you also come as a devil, no sound at all, I swear” Hexah chimed in.

“Yes when I come must really use new, or the concert title so that you both realize?”

“Oalah emang asu”

Heksa deftly changed positions when he would be dealt an affectionate blow by two other people. Self-conscious because he is always flippant when swearing. “Once again out the word rough from your mouth, I mute pack his cigarette Al, lo, Sa”

“Yee, I mulu di soin victim even though the mouth of you two is the same just no filter” Hexa sneer. Now he had secured himself to his right of the quiet Alpino, facing off against Fajri who was laughing with satisfaction. “Yaudah now we focus on the main star first here,” Hexa pointed at Alpino who choked on his cola can, making a lazy face on Hexa.

“Si Fajri lo bargain pesen eat first, Sa” Alpino offers.

“No need, I was pesen in front earlier. Let it be better to talk about your problems, Al” Fajri offers a smirk. The boy was really prepared for his best friend's night curses and Alpino couldn't be more amazed. “Partially I can't go home late today, tomorrow I'm morning. Now try your story again is there the same problem Lisa?”

Alpino laughed.without him complaining a single word, Fajri and Hexa could have guessed it exactly. The man who now broke his own hair sneered at the question Fajri asked. “Kok you know this about Lisa? If the problem isn't about how I feel about Lisa, no shame, lo?”

“Oalah is Dog”

“Lo mouth has no filter as well, yes, Jri!” Heksa pointed at Fajri with satisfaction, who was appointed to brushed off Hexa's hand with a spiced plot from Fajri's own cynical eyes.

“My order. I told you I can't go home late. If for example you have already rebuked gini and call us to treat gini likes especially if not Lisa the problem? How would you like to argue if it wasn't for your problems with Lisa. Even if you are frustrated with the most work lo malakin both of us, not even loyal gini. Dog, we already know how long, nyet?”

“Monkey what is a real dog? Lo both are not very consistent, anyway so people” Hexa sneered while stealing the last one from Alpino plates. Aware of the consequences, Hexa looked up to find the dissatisfied gazes of her two friends. His snort expanded before he sat up straight as if without sin. Hexa only complained as Alpino hit her back on the head with a slight annoyance.

“Gue forgot that we're in serious mode, you're the most rese, Sa. Pesen again batagor me, this time many years, sono!”

Hexa rolled her eyeballs lazily before jumping to her feet and wordlessly waltzed forward to order again as ordered. Alpino only snorted when he saw that Hexa had disappeared from view and began to struggle with her cigarette again. Fajri still silently watched his friend who was like he was having the hardest day.

“Lo really nothing nemenin me tonight? Excitement tomorrow, no?” Alpino again raised his voice after he exhaled his cigarette smoke.

“Nothing. For the rest of my sleeping hours, I” Alpino smiled a little, took back the nicotine suction he needed.

“Partially I already know sooner or later you will also call us - we make a discussion about your feelings the same Lisa. I just didn't think it would be this long. I thought you would be stressed like this when Bang Noren was known to us as his future husband Lisa. But apparently you last long also”

Alpino was silent for a moment. His eyes looked at Fajri who was now resting with his hands supporting his body behind. His short hair this time was allowed to fall near his eyebrows, usually Fajri is a slightly fussy person with his hair even when he just wants to go outside for a while.

Perhaps before Alpino sent a message to the group, the man was preparing for a break considering it was ten in the evening. Alpino who understands the routine of Fajri when going to teach in the morning always sleeps not past ten. Again, Alpino becomes a bit of a bitch to ruin his friends' night. But who is he, if Fajri does not want to come then he does not. So knowing Fajri still comes must even take his rest time, who is he to not feel a little more valuable in the eyes of his friends.

“I told you, I'm the defending champion if this problem. Yeah, maybe not as good as you, Jri”

“Well, I'm taking with me” Fajri sneered, knowing exactly where the conversation path thrown by Alpino.

Alpino chuckles, sucks his nicotine again, he blows it away from where Fajri is. “Lagian I also already know that sooner or later the candidate Lisa will come too. I've lost the start, Jri. I know myself I can't do anything from the beginning. I have my warning, given the line far from the beginning I began to understand my own feelings”

Fajri was silent for a moment. His eyes shifted from Alpino's calm face even though he knew his friend was keeping a lot of things behind the mask he was wearing, which he gradually collapsed, he released tonight. Fajri understands what will happen, what Alpino will spit out about his feelings. He's been preparing since Noren was introduced on that day - ah, errat, introduced himself on that day, a few weeks ago. Fajri is already preparing for the Bro Time request to be submitted. Therefore, he did not complain when he was even ready in his blanket to sleep, he instead moved to leave when Alpino sent a message in their group.

“Gue knows you have the same feeling Lisa had even before you started opening up to us-us. You didn't say when and how. Lo also just nukahin said that you can not go forward to fight your feelings without any clear reason. You often say that you will not be the same Lisa, there is already a barrier or line whatever it is. But you never tell us exactly why. Now, try to be honest with us, tell what makes you stuck and even look pathetic gini because your feelings will never go anywhere”

Alpino smile. His gaze was straight at the scribble on the opposite wall that this time was already full. In Fajri's eyes now, his friend had completely crossed the line he could bear. Her feelings had been buried for a long time and it was time for her to let go this time. Fajri just wants Alpino to be more relieved and open to them. Perhaps it could help Alpino to breathe more lightly if he dropped everything just like that. Although all the problems required no solution or anything, he just wanted his friend to throw away most of his pain to make him feel that he was not alone. Just telling stories, that's all. Toh Fajri is also not an expert in chiming in stories and giving advice, but at least his ears are wide open to listen.

“Yeah, Jri” Alpino finally opens voice. The look of my cute eyes that made the joke caught Fajri's serious gaze. “How should I do my job first? ask me what was it today before I said something like this? Ah anjir, I guess you have to say something really dark tonight?”

Alpino tried to tear down the atmosphere too seriously, he might want this to be a talk to listen to, but he suddenly became awkward in this atmosphere. He's not very good at expressing his feelings out loud, that was when she said it first plainly and clearly that she had feelings for Lisa because Fajri first opened up about the man's relationship with Jihan.

“Nnothing, if it's dark later let me tell Ko Akoh masang many more lights here, if not later hp-nya just a flashlight, res” Fajri nagged under his breath, join in trying to make Alpino comfortable with the conversation tonight.

“Crazy with lo, Jri”

Fajri laughs, “Newly know lo?” his breath was a little hunting for laughter before he added, “Lagian if you work smoothly will not be as frustrating as this I see. It's so sad to be lo, Al. Udahlah work is not smooth, see the love of your life the same way with her future husband. It's getting crazy going. Hadahh”

Alpino was flattered, coughed from the smoke he inhaled, his head whipped looking towards Fajri with a look of horror and disbelief. Dude, man, he says nothing to Fajri or even anyone about the events of today where his work is not smooth and in the end finds Lisa and Noren being together in the square as if he is enjoying the time just just two.

“Jri?” he began, his hands hugging himself and rubbing both of his elbows wrapped in his checkered long-sleeved thin shirt. “Cenayang lo? I swear I got creeps, Jri. Swear not lie I”

Fajri himself was silent, he was surprised by the reaction given by Alpino. Though the boy just guessed the storyline that suddenly appeared in his head. Fajri wasn't even so sure it was happening, but he guessed right on target and all he could tell Alpino was, “Oh, so really?” issued with a curse of disbelief.

Alpino sighed before finally nodding weakly. He switched off the finished cigarette before re-chugging the cola in one gulp and instantly crushed the empty can. Just now that Alpino wanted to speak, Hexa's voice had already interrupted the two of them.

“Oh so that, chat important things do not wait for me?”

His voice is a little jutek. He carried a tray of drinks and snacks that were ordered, next to him who walked along with him was Ko Akoh employees who brought some of their orders. Hexas put food between them quickly, helping others put their leftovers on the mats they sat on. Heksa put a plate of new batagor and two cans of kola in front of Alpino on purpose before thanking the employees who delivered their food before letting him return to work. Alpino looked at Hexa in surprise, who was now casually sipping her happy soda milk before returning to reward them with a betrayed look.

“Where is the story? I swear this I left?” His face again made a strange annoyed expression.

“Ya is not it, this is me with Fajri again doang pleasantries. We also play guessing. Where may I chat important things without lo when I did not reach you also at the beginning” Alpino explained. He laughed a little at the change in mood. Heksa is usually stupid and indifferent, but if in serious circumstances, he should be included and can be a thorn in the flesh, annoying and sometimes makes Alpino and Fajri want to be angry. “Lagian also very long. This is also what do you mean I kola sampe two gini seeds?”

Heksa grinned a little before picking up the fries that were right in front of him. “Nothing, mending drunk kola instead of drunken liquor, right? Just drink to relax and tell a story. This I am ready, the food is ready, Fajri is also ready to be born. Now what story should be mentioned and do not let anyone hide so you do not look like a tangled like a depressed person who just broke up, deh, Al”

Alpino gritted his teeth. His eyes were trained to look at their full food order. Alpino grimaced, this could have been a warmindo at a cheap price, but seeing the number of dishes and various kinds of snacks ordered, he felt sorry for the contents of his wallet. His money must have cried when he handed over the total amount of food ordered at the cashier later. Alpino forgets that his friends who sometimes do not know in this profit eat like a cow that has four stomachs.

But get rid of it, though, where he knew that it would be the last thought that had to come to him because the consequences of offering to his friends were something he had to take into account with his sanity next time, he preferred to go back to the core of what he was going to spend tonight, his feelings of wanting to be released, so he forgave his friends for emptying his wallet tonight. It was fine if it was worth their effort and time to accompany her.

“Lo too, Sa. Why don't you ask me about my job or my day? Even talking about my love problem” He raved back, trying to let himself relax to start telling stories about his feelings, taking more time to feel a little more comfortable.

“Had,” Hexa pitting with a little dramatic. Fajri next to her who was stirring spicy noodles with her favorite egg giggled a little in between bites. “Lo is very happy to know, Al? you will not dare to pay us - we eat if you are not really scared anymore. I'm sure today your work is not okay anymore and there must be a problem with your own feelings. How do you know today you have work that makes you angry, you even meet Lisa again streets with Bang Noren, right? Yes surely the result is a frustrated and depressed lo lo kayak lo now”

Heksa laughed afterwards, punching Fajri on the shoulder to support the argument he had issued. Fajri choked on his food and Alpino gave an incredulous expression before rubbing his face with resignation. Maybe Hexa is also part of a psychic like Fajri. Yes, they were just as crazy, but Alpino himself did not believe that the original guess of the two friends was exactly punching himself because the fact was as clear as it read all over his face. Or indeed also because he gave such a real expression, describing what happened to him all day.

“Emang lo same Fajri equally crazy. Both of your psychic descendants. Horrified, perah”

“Well, I really?” Hexa was stunned for a moment. His hands actively hit Fajri's still-coughing back who was looking for a drink to relieve the heat of his throat. “Gue think you'll be ngomelin me again. Anjir” Hexa laughed with satisfaction, her hand that patted Fajri's back with no mercy immediately on the edge with the master, who was now the only one who cursed Hexa herself.

“It looks like my life story is very predictable, yes?” Alpino. His hand rubbed his chest slowly. Pretending to bemoan her transparent life and the pain that easily reads like an open book.

“This is serious?” Hexa called, trying to be calmer than before. “Pantes lo have not been helped, Al”

“Damn lo, Sa” Alpino raised his hand, trying to hit Hexa's head again. The one who was about to become a victim, dodging the grin on his face, saved himself for not a single hand would touch him again dishonorably and inflict pain. It was enough that he was mauled this afternoon when he picked up Hala and just a moment ago when he was getting enough punches from Alpino and Fajri.

“Today is like a damn life I” Alpino started. He did not want to spend much time Fajri again because he remembered that his friend would go to work early in the morning. While Hexa did not seem to care so much about time, she also entered work around nine in the morning, so Hexa who used to stay up late did not bother with her sleep time.

“Maybe can not be said to be very unlucky, but it feels like a jumble, understand not, anyway?” He's trying to pin down. His empty hand moved through the air as if describing something, but ended up with his fingers breaking his hair in frustration. “Gue guess today the work will be smooth-surfing, after all our clients are not too much talk about the service message time we make a prewedding session. But I swear, I was wrong when I thought everything would be smooth like usually”

Alpino chose to spit out his frustration from the start about his work to make it easier to express why he is becoming so emotional today. Why his feelings as if he could not be invited to cooperate to say that he is fine and will be fine. So, when her hand itches to hold something and her mouth feels bitter, she again picks up her pack of cigarettes and begins to sip back the taste of nicotine itself in her mouth.

“Their formula is very complicated. I've taken many times to stay this less, less of it. Though clearly before we have clearly defined the concept as how and the result is like how. The deal too. They are really stubborn and even make their own poses, do not want time in set. I was very emotional at that time, but Kina nenangin me and we who initially thought only work until the afternoon ended about eight hours ago. What is my emotion, where my team also has no lunch, just a little snack that Kina thankfully prepared for us”

Alpino sighed, knowing he was going to regain the emotion of recalling the incident earlier in the day, he lowered his voice and tried to breathe even deeper. The cold drink that Hexa prepared might be something she was currently grateful for. So, drinking her colleague back so her emotions subsided a little, she felt a little better then.

“Manalagi wear event her wedding dress wet spray fountain in the square. I said I would not be able to if there, for fear of damaging the same property clothing. But it's still a guy. Manalagi head of my team who initially did not want to bicker for ngeiyain, finally our team was asked for responsibility, yes we insist do not want because it is not our fault” Read back what happened, yes we insist, she really wanted to drown the bride in the city fountain if she could and did not have compassion.

“In the end, there was that bickering between my team head and his bride saying it wasn't our responsibility. After all who change places suddenly and stubbornly it's them, so yes it's the consequences. So, after having a row for almost an hour they finally felt guilty too and asked to continue for a shooting session. So, yes, until eight o'clock we finally finish the prewedding session work is just a person. I want to go there, but where can. I have to be professional, right?” He sighed again, his hand he tapped on his knee wrapped in his black jeans.

“Moreover I dianehatin this is the same head of my team to be more patient. Yes, how to be patient my people see my team already pity there, hot and trying to do the best for the client. It was even treated like that. What's not emotion, me?”

The smoke of his cigarette blows more thickly. Both of his eyebrows this time frowned in annoyance making his expression so tense. Hexa and Fajri are trying not to cut anything that Alpino is pouring out this time. Because of course, as far as Alpino's work was piqued into them a while ago-then, no one really made it that emotional. Usually Alpino will rush and ask them both to buy something because he is not in the mood with his job or invite them to go play in the arcade until they forget time.

“Actually I'm done,” Alpino sighed. Silence for a moment when his fingers flicked cigarette ash into the ashtray that had been provided there. “Gue is fine because I think I can just go to sleep without taking care of anything else. My emotions subside when I think I can immediately rest and fit really tomorrow my team is released”

“But?”

Fajri spoke up. Alpino turned to the origin of the voice and found Fajri's expression that he couldn't read right now, and maybe he didn't want to because his feelings this time made him nauseous. He couldn't even tell if he was fully relieved, sick, or could even point to one emotion that described him so much. He could only tell that he was in the phase of being under a gray-colored cloud with a description of strange and mixed feelings. Alpino is just confused, and upset, and sad, and sick, and everything he can't determine is where he actually feels. That's very complicated.

So all he could do was a small smile that even felt very bland. His head he clashed against the wall behind quietly, but many times with his eyes closed.

“Gue met Lisa and Bang Noren in the square. I just finished keeping my camera and saying goodbye to the team kids. I was so tired, so tired. You guys must understand what it feels like” He again sighed before smoking back his cigarette. He silently watched as Hexa vaped, quieter to suck liquid than directly on a nicotine stick.

“I didn't want to start with them both. Bang Noren is like a really cool thing. Where she laughs and smiles so much when she seduces Lisa” She shuts up for a moment, remembering how happy expression Noren offered to Lisa. Though earlier from their meeting when Noren said that he was Lisa's future husband, Lisa, Noren looks like he is looking after himself and does not show much expression other than being a little arrogant and looks very prominent and dominant with his aura. But when she meets the two of them, Noren looks very relaxed being just together with Lisa. He looked free and like a very satisfied man.

Lisa looks funny there too. Alpino believes that Lisa still wears her office clothes with the usual heels she wears for work. Maybe Noren picked up Lisa and took the woman for a walk before they were finally in the square. Alpino understood, he knew that Lisa's expression looked frustrated after some temptation thrown by Noren. Her friend who she secretly had that feeling whined and almost threw a punch at Noren, just like what Lisa used to do to her if she was overwhelmed.

So with that in mind, looking at Lisa who was frustrated herself, Alpino did not realize that she herself had already walked up to them both. Calling Lisa seola as if she had been programmed and had no idea that she herself did just that.

“But when I saw Nalisa was overwhelmed and seemed really upset, I reflexed to deketin them and I also did not realize that I even called Lisa. I know Bang Noren really sprained my existence and fitting Lisa to hug me, Bang Noren face really asem. Yes, I understand why he is, but, I swear to God, I feel so superior there. I want to say that, this is me, I know how Lisa is. I can remember him, I can make him spoiled in front of me. This is my loh, which has been the same Lisa and I who already decket same him first”

“Gue seems to want to show that Lisa has me. I'm the only one who can explore all the things Lisa does, all the feelings Lisa has, and all the things Lisa needs. Only I can make Lisa relaxed and comfortable”

Again he was silent for a moment. This time, Hexa who glared at him in a small voice, did not want to offend him. Although it was undeniable, there was a bad sense of unease in his heart, which he brushed off as quickly as it came, There was no way he would make trouble here and vent it all on his friends. He should be able to control and not let bad emotions rule him.

“But you feel guilty afterwards, right?”

A tired slanted smile is unleashed by Alpino on reflex. He subconsciously turned to his friends who listened to all his complaints and their entire focus was on him. His upright shoulders were now sagging, as if he just wanted to lie down and close his eyes there. When he opened his ears wide, he heard another guitar drumming that this time chanted Rossa-Too Love's song, making Alpino just want to groan in frustration. Although Lisa also did not want Noren's presence in her life, she also could not do anything about it. And who can understand the heart and the feelings, Lisa could have been devastated one day and would have left Alpino far behind with a pain that would never go away and be confined in time.

“Gue feels really bad about Bang Noren all of a sudden. I shouldn't have been like that in front of him. I can't squirm as if Lisa had me, yes even though in reality Lisa is not mine” Alpino grimaces with her own words. The pain inside was truly over a thousand times he felt, but still he kept it deep in his heart and he could not say out loud or even step over the lines and bars that had been set for him to stay away.

“So I stuck myself there to go far. But Lisa suddenly made me eat with them. Yes, of course I want to refuse at first, but Lisa maksa and in the end Bang Noren agreed to make me eat with them. And I swear, I can see her forced face when I'm among them”

Is correct. He could remember how Noren's smile didn't reach his eyes and how Noren let Lisa chat with him as if Noren wasn't there. The man just kept quiet and enjoyed his meal which Alpino could even tell that the man was not enjoying himself at all. Lisa does not even seem to realize that there is a Noren among them. Lisa always invites Alpino to chat from start to finish. And Alpino remembers how Lisa wanted to be ushered in by him to go home.

“Gue is like a madman inside. Feeling really depressed, Sa, Jri. I am very happy because Lisa just squirms me there, but I feel really bad because I destroyed the night Bang Noren. I am happy because Lisa's attention is always directed to me, because Lisa blinds me, but I feel guilty about Bang Sinar for violating what I promised him with her”

“Gue also feels like an antagonist who destroys people's relationships there, when I should be hurt because everywhere, I will not be able to step to get Lisa in my life more than a friend. I wanted to hit myself at that time, too”

Alpino put his cigarette that lives half in the ashtray. His two fingers were now scrambling his already tangled hair, just like a completely frustrated person. He was silent for a while, the group that sang the song in the end pavilion was getting excited to give him the chaotic songs as if supporting his current feelings. This time they play is a song from Judika-I Am The One Who Is Hurt, and Alpino really felt like he wanted to flip the pavilion with the fucking people who had been contributing to make him incite pain and frustration inside. If only the fresh breeze of the night had not blown and refreshed himself so that he could be sane a little, perhaps the crazy thing he would have really done if he had not been soothed by something.

“Gue original know very well why I can lose control gini. At first I had a great emotion of my cooperation, coupled with my meeting with Lisa with Bang Noren. What else could make me explode other than those two things? I tried to make it all up but I felt too weak. I want to be angry but I can't. Because, what do you do? I have no right to be angry but to be angry with myself"

Quiet again. His face was drenched with the cold night wind. It refreshed his hot head. His eyes fell on the tin of kola in his hand. Shaken her a little before her lips opened again to whisper her faint feelings.

“Lagian, why should I have feelings, anyway?” His sigh then before finishing off the remaining half-can of kola in one gulp. Grimacing afterwards when the hard soda hurt his throat. “Sometimes I wish I had no feelings. I'm more likely to be a heartless person than to be sick as a gini. I used to think I was just her best friend Lisa doang would be fine at me. But it turns out that when someone else shows up and can fight his feelings for Lisa freely, I know the pain is like this. I feel eaten from the inside out” he added in a soft voice.

“Dog really isn't, anyway? So sad my love story”

Alpino laughed incessantly, sounding deeply hurt as he reopened a new tin of cola. He's gonna brush with his stomach tomorrow morning, he doesn't care. Most important was his feeling of being let loose amidst the roar of the night wind and the pitiful conversation he had to let out or else he would explode at any time if held back any longer.

Alpino's ears buzzed as he realized the desolation created between them. There was no longer a guitar drum as if the people in the pavilion there understood the pain and did not want to make it even more frustrating. He secretly became a little self-conscious, somewhat panicked if others heard his crucial and depressing story. A little embarrassing himself. So, he sat up straight and his head whipped towards the group in the pavilion and found them engrossed in playing there with full concentration as if indifferent to the surrounding atmosphere.

There was a clink of glass cups clashing against the plate all of a sudden and he turned his head quickly to find a grimacing Hexa when he was caught off guard almost spilling the contents of Fajri's food that stayed a little with noodles which looks like it's expanding.

Alpino chuckled as Heksa raised both his hands in the air as if he were resigned if caught and charged with damaging the atmosphere that had been created to silence the pain. Alpino who knows it by reflex kicks the knee of the nearest Hexa and carefully does not nudge any food around it.

“Fuck, lo, Sa. Ngagetin I aj”

“Hehe, Sorry. Last time I was dry, finished drinking ga accidentally nyenggol his plate Fajri” The boy rubbed the nape of his neck clumsy, which was given a gift of elbow and Fajri who was careless but grateful for being able to at least melt the atmosphere back.

Alpino shook his head, understanding the behavior of his friends who actually wanted to make him calmer. Alpino could feel a slight shift in his emotions, and he felt like he could really breathe well this time around. No one was hidden, everything was out. All are worried about his feelings. About how much he wanted to finish with his own feelings but deep down he was even afraid to lose.

“Actually anyway, Al. I wonder” Fajri spoke up when he was in the second feed of his batagor. Taste the spicy flavor and typical peanut seasoning she likes and nods later to tell Fajri that she is listening.

“Lo make a promise what is the same bang Sinar until you really can not say about your own feelings? Anyway, yes, the name of the feeling can not be controlled. You want to try not to like anyone, if for example your feelings say like, yes where it can be banned, where can you control. Which there is a feeling you even bigger until finally you yourself feel pain like this, right?”

“Partially too, yes, here I say. There are a lot of sick love stories out there. You can't judge your own feelings and your own sad love story. Falling in love, there must be a pain. Everywhere whose name falls there is nothing that does not make you sick, right? Especially when it comes to feelings. Ngobatin his wound can not use physical medicine”

Alpino smiled as he watched Fajri nag him with a frenzy, looking so serious. His teacher mode when teaching was issued by him now right in front of the eyes of Alpino and Hexa. Alpino sighed, this time even deeper.

“Sick yes, Jri. You also remember, yes?”

“How come back to me again?” Sensi Fajri suddenly came to the surface. “Gue again talking lo, nih. Not my love story. We are no longer fighting the fate of the sick. Crazy lo”

Laughing, Alpino was amused when he heard Fajri swearing him again. His face was bent more annoyed with the circumstances.

“Iya, sorry deh” He made a sound when he felt that Fajri was more than ready to nag again. “About my appointment same Bang Sinar.” He paused for a while, weighing. “it's been a while actually, but his name is a promise, I can't escape that. That's when Lisa came back from Japan, when we want to go to college if not wrong”

Alpino recalled, trying to estimate when Sinar made him promise with her about his feelings and of course about Lisa.

“Eh bentar deh” Hexa interrupts. “Lo has been from a very small yes met Lisa? So you like Lisa from childhood? If so, anyway, crazy times you are forced to make an appointment at the age of lo who is still young-” There is an amused ringisan from Hexa when she mentions the last word before continuing. “And keep your feelings until now. Very strong lo heart, made of steel?”

Alpino was surprised, laughing with satisfaction as he looked at the grimacing look on Hexa's face, looking at her in disbelief. Alpino shook his head, waving swiftly in front of his two friends.

“Oh yes, you never tell us the beginning of your friendship with the love of your life, nih, Al”

“The love of your life is very lo language, anjir” Heksa hit Fajri next to him who complained, Anjir, rubbing his arm after throwing death gazes at the man with resolute jaws and dimple lines were visible as the man grinned amusedly.

“Rese really swear, lo, Sa. I want to sell it, but not sure how to sell on the market”

“Satan, lo!”

There's nothing more soothing to Alpino than seeing his friends swearing at each other. This feeling of relief and safety led him to believe that telling anything with them was the right thing. His eyes were trained to move away from the conversation of his two friends who this time threw various counterattacks to each of them and preferred to turn his memories back to those moments. Where she finds Lisa in a deserted playground in the afternoon, it's almost dark. And after that, they were close and became inseparable until this very moment.

Inseparable, it was probably a word that felt terribly wrong on his tongue this time around.

“If said from small, anyway, not really. How is the story.” He muttered, rubbed his chin and glanced at his two friends who had now refocused on him despite still being seen the elbow of death between the two.

“Gue met Lisa when I was seven years old, and initially because I found one of her earrings missing..”.

“Cinderella really, Anjir!”

Alpino laughed, grinning as he returned that day, a few years ago when he came across a strangely shaped earring that glistened behind a terraced cube-shaped climbing pole in the park.

The earrings that bear witness to the beginning of their humble encounter.

...…....

City Park, Wednesday, April 27, 2005. Alpino Hussein Adithama (7 years old)

Actually, it was a normal day. Where Alpino prefers to seclude themselves waiting for an invitation in the city park. As usual when he just got home from school. His home and school are half an hour away by motorbike, and the school is close to the city park. Compared to her mother waiting to pick her up in front of school, she prefers to play alone in the city park.

Walking approximately ten minutes, he was rewarded with various games provided there.

His favorite place is a cube-shaped climbing place that is quite high for children his age, but he enjoys hanging there and sitting at the top of the pole waiting and maybe seeing the city atmosphere and the crowded motorways with the peace he has. Rewarded with an orange afternoon atmosphere and a gentle breeze that disappeared into the sultry, it was one thing that he was happy to get rid of the boredom of waiting.

His mother was too late to pick him up. She did not comment on it, nor did she complain because she knew her mother was a busy woman. He was one of the teachers at the kindergarten, which was far away from his school. So, waiting for her mother who would come for half an hour of travel if it did not get stuck, was a natural thing and she did it every day.

Actually, the lesson time is only until three in the afternoon, but sometimes he follows the extracurricular and spend until four or five. Be she asks her mother to pick her up at such hours. If it is not four o'clock, then five o'clock he is finished and waiting for the presence of his mother in the city park. Sometimes if he doesn't want to do anything and just wants to go home, he would ask his teacher to call his mother to pick her up sooner than he should and the next to pick her up was a neighbor or aunt in the same compound.

Today was a pretty tiring day, but it was more to his satisfaction after being hot on the pitch to kick the ball and score. He exited the school gate at four o'clock past fifteen before walking cheerfully towards the city park. Before he got there he stopped by the stall to order ice to quench his thirst.

Alpino thought it was a normal day. The day he just watched the children play there, scream and laugh, sometimes there were crying and accompanied by their parents. Play there until tired and until their parents decide to end their playing days. He himself likes to enjoy the activities of others. Sometimes a calmness with just being a spectator is enough for him and it makes it easier for him not to feel twice as tired after studying and doing field activities.

But today seems a little different. The hot weather is now replaced with dark clouds that flock above his head blocking the sun that stings the skin even though it is late afternoon. The wind was blowing louder than usual and the bright atmosphere was now fading into some dark and shady spots. The rain seems to be coming soon. He raised his hand and looked at the watch, finding it still showing at four past twenty. Hoping with misgivings in his heart, may his mother pick him up sooner this time. If not, he must return to shelter in one of the rides of the game that has a roof for him to shelter.

Entering the city park, he saw that there were only a few people there. Choosing to ignore him, he walked towards the playground that was already claimed to be his own place alone, because every time he was present there, he was there, he was the only one who managed to climb to the top. Make other children envious and prefer to play other rides.

This time when he placed his backpack on the back of the pole, his eyes caught something glistening in the sunlight still trying to infiltrate. With high curiosity, he crouched down to get what caught his attention. It was small, barely visible under the covering sand. But when Alpino wiped the dust and sand, he could see one piece of jewelry his mother often wore in the ear. An earring shaped like a dog's bone. Alpino frowned, who wears dog bone-shaped earrings like in cartoons? It was silver and felt a bit heavy in his hands. Shrugging his shoulders, Alpino chose to put it in his school uniform pouch before opting to climb up later.

No one needed to make him complain, because by lifting his body up the poles, it made him feel lighter than anything. He even swore he climbed it up without throwing any sweat at all. Her lips involuntarily muttered the song in the tv commercial she listened to the most. And that's how he can lose time by climbing and singing as he pleases. Nothing is in the way.

It took him twenty minutes longer as he looked towards the surroundings. Where people choose to go from the park when the wind is blowing more and more. He himself felt so cold by wearing only short sleeves and of course his red shorts were already a bit dirty due to dust and some rust on the pole where he hung.

Alpino himself clucked lazily as he finally wished that his mother had actually come to pick him up. A huge pout was present on his face as the wind grew louder destroying his hairdo. Lazily, he chose to go down because the temperature above felt to make his fur rise because of cold goosebumps. He was already thinking of going up to the slide combined with a room that had a roof over it to shelter just in case the rain suddenly came.

Just now that he had taken his backpack and wanted to drag it to a place where he wanted to rest, he found a child his age. With her hair tied in two that extended beyond her ears, the girl looked very worried. She doesn't wear a school uniform, and alpino believes although she doesn't notice hundreds of children at her school, she hasn't seen the girl until recently. The face looked very new, and it was not like he had ever known others like that.

The girl looked confused. Her hair moved restlessly in the wind and part of her head movements were like being trained to look at things meticulously. His eyes moved to and fro. Surely the boy was looking for something precious that he could not just leave behind.

So, given that there was only Alpino himself and the girl there, only those who lived there and looked like she wasn't going to leave in a short time, Alpjno without further thought approached the woman. Which suddenly made the woman look at him with a doubtful and worried look.

“Halo, again find something, yes?” with the capital of hospitality and courtesy taught by parents and schools, Alpino said hello. The girl looked somewhat hesitant before giving her a smile that looked a little sad.

“Iya. I'm looking for something that looks like it's falling around here. I did not realize, and realized when I went to the toilet next door” He pointed towards the public toilet that was built behind the playground area. Alpino nodded later.

“What's day? How do you know I can help you? Soon it rains, can't you get some rain?” Alpino. Although he was somewhat doubtful that he could help the child well.

“Oh? Seriously want to help?” The girl's eyes looked extremely sparkling as if she had found a savior. Alpino with a big smile on his face nodded with great confidence.

“Iya. If two people run faster than one. Besides, I'm also waiting for Mama to pick up” Alpino shrugged his shoulders, too, her eyes were trained to look around and her feet were already kicking a nearby rock to find out if something she was looking for was there.

“There are many, yes” The voice of the girl sounded so cheerful. And Alpino can't be unhappy to hear it.

“I'm looking for something valuable. My mother gave me a fifth birthday if not wrong. I wear it until now because I love the gift” he sounds excited and sad in one word. Alpino listen.

“Oh if that means to be found as soon as possible dong. It was worth so much” Alpino turned his head in time when the girl nodded strongly. “If you can know what shape, yes?” ask again later. Hope it's something easy to find.

“Anting” the girl muttered. Alpino stood up for a moment, gnawing there. Suddenly the uniform felt heavier than before. “His shape is like gini” He showed one earring swaying in his right ear. His face looked sad, and Alpino was surprised that what the boy was looking for was one of his inventions that he had accidentally stumbled upon.

“Oh.” He muttered for a moment before his hand reached into the pouch where he placed the strange dog bone-shaped earrings. “Maybe this is what you are looking for?” He held it in the pointed part, making the pendulum sway in front of the girl's sparkling eyes.

“IYA!”

It was a slightly painful scream in Apino's ear. He rubbed his ears that felt buzzing, while the girl in front of him looked apologetic as if she understood that he was hurting others.

“Thank God that so” Alpino offers a smile when he gives the earring to the owner who looks very cheerful. His face was radiant and very bright in such a dark and cold weather.

“Still yes! It's worth so much to me. Thank you so much for finding this earring” Alpino nodded, waving in confusion when he was reviled by many thanks. He also discovered it by accident.

“Iya equals” she replied later. “But I'm curious, why would you wear dog bone earrings?”

Alpino was silent for a moment. I felt bad when I asked that question. Maybe the girl was offended by his words, maybe she shouldn't have said that clearly. People have their own taste. He didn't want to sound like he was judging the girl.

“Bone of the dog?” The girl repeated, and inevitably Alpino felt a little embarrassed.

“Eh, yes?” he shouted in a small voice to answer the question. He scratched his nape clumsily.

The uneasy things around them suddenly left Alpino perplexed as the girl laughed in satisfaction. Holding his stomach that may feel amused because of the funny thing that heard his ears. Alpino feels twice as embarrassed as anything.

“this is not a dog bone” he waved both hands in front of Alpino's face with trembling the rest of the laughter. “This is the lock of England. It looks like an English key. You can't see the difference between a dog bone and a wrench?” The girl laughed again. Closer, he placed the earring pendulum on his palm and made sure that Alpino noticed even more clearly.

Alpino reddened. His face was hot with embarrassment as he took the brisk-like aim of the earring pendulum shape displayed right before his eyes until he could finally see the difference between the two objects mentioned. Alpino rambled under his breath for the apology and shame that ruled him.

“Nothing” The girl pulled her hand again. Looks happier than ever. “Mama love this for me because at that time Mama and Papa were serious about the sparepart business that, I do not understand. Mama said my earrings as a sign that it was luck for my family business. As a reminder also he said because it is not easy to start a small business. But I'm happy because finally now Mama's business with Papa started the road well”

He told me stories as if Alpino was his old friend that he could tell me anything. Alpino nodded. Secretly happy to listen.

“But why does it look like a dog bone? I just wouldn't have realized if I hadn't seen it near”

“Not a dog bone!” The girl whines. “That's the key to england” a big frown is present on his face and Alpino is happy with the reaction. So, he again flirted with the girl excitedly.

Just now the woman wanted to refute the temptation thrown by Alpino, raindrops fell as a warning. Before finally the circle gets bigger and Alpino reflexively pull the hand of the perpuan to be taken to shelter in one of the slide rides with a roof on it. Try as much as possible to keep them both dry and not catch sick by the bacteria that the rain brings.

There was some scolding thrown for myself. The girl looked so saddened by the rain, but thanked him later because Alpino quickly brought her to shelter.

“By the way I don't know your name” Alpino turned quickly from his activities that held rain water with his hands. He also realized that he had not been acquainted since. So, with a big grin, he rubbed his wet hands into his uniform pants. It doesn't matter, because he has more than one uniform, so one dirty and wet uniform doesn't matter.

Alpino's hands were slightly dry in front of the woman's face. Alpino offered his best smile when he mentioned his name.

“Alpino Husein Adhitama Hotel. You can call me Alpino, or Al, or Pino. It's up to which one”

There was a laugh made by the woman before welcoming Alpino's hand.

Alpino nodded. Wiggling their hands before he took back his hands. Alpino, who had other ideas, spoke with a reflex that made him laugh when he saw the others were ready to deliver a warning blow to him.

“Greetings know too, dog bone earrings!”

And with that temptation, they became close. They met several times in the park and eventually visited each other in their homes. The open arms, the earrings that brought them closer together bear witness to how their friendship formed so well.

...….....

Cakrawijaya Residence, Sunday, November 11, 2007. Alpino Hussein Adithama (9 years old)

To say that Alpino is jealous is something less than enough. He only felt a little, envious, a little left out. It is not that he has no friends at all. No, he is a fairly active child and is probably known in almost all schools for his silly behavior and achievements in sports. Nor does he lack the affection of his family or his close friends at school and his playmates.

However, what to expect from a nine-year-old who still feels that his world is currently being deprived and is having fun with new people?

His world in this context is his closest friend. The only person she would not let go of in her entire life. For in the last two years these have been the most pleasant and most complete times he has ever asked for. Alpino and Lisa, from that day on, were two guys that were sticky like glue. Where there's Nalisa, there's Alpino. And vice versa. Alpino himself has determined that Lisa and she are completely inseparable even during their two years of friendship.

This time, she was at Lisa's house after Lisa invited her to stop by. They are not one school, but they can have time for each without ever being absent at all. Now the park is not the place Alpino will visit after school, but rather Lisa's house is his destination now, or vice versa. Lisa's house was apparently not far from the city park, so walking twenty minutes longer didn't make Alpino complain. That's also if they stop by his house is when Alpino's mother quickly picked him up. They will stop at Cakrawijaya's residence first to pick up Lisa who just came home from school and then they are stranded in Alpino's room to play a playstation together.

But this time, no, these few weeks, they're rarely together. It was because Lisa had a new friend. Actually Lisa also had many close friends, but the presence of this one person who was so suddenly irritated Alpino half to death. Name's Hala. Alpino can't remember the other girls' names very well because of how hard it can be said from her tongue. The girl's name was strange, and Alpino didn't bother to memorize it at all.

It's been a week Lisa's been talking about this girl named Hala. Lisa will have more topics to talk about her new friend. Sometimes it irritates Alpino because Lisa is fond of telling how they became close to each other. It started from Hala who likes to draw something unique, he said. And they can even tell you anything, strange things that other kids can't think about their imaginations. Lisa even said that she learned a lot about this strange world of imagination as well as some basic drawing. They even designed each other's clothes together on the sidelines of a conversation about whether fairies exist or just the incarnation of winged insects.

Lisa says that it's cool to have a wild imagination as a girl. About Disney fairytales and some of them talk about unique children's cartoons that they will watch each other and tell each other stories when they have lunch breaks together, and maybe a joint class together. Lisa tells him that they will secretly go to the cafeteria to buy some snacks and sit near the basketball court while watching some players there. Sometimes become a reporter and comment on the way basketball players throw the ball into the basket. They will pretend to be the judges judging the game show.

Who does not envy when a nine-year-old who is not a schoolmate with his best friend, can not spend much time with a friend he keeps close to his heart, listening to every babble that came out of his friend's lips about another person who was even present suddenly in the midst of their friendship.

Alpino is obviously jealous. And that makes him the most annoying kid when Nalisa is around.

One day, Hala stopped by while Alpino was in Lisa's room. Play games from a cell phone that Lisa herself lent him. The usual routine is when the boy lies on Lisa's bed and waits for Lisa to bring food back to her room so they can play together. Or he's playing and Lisa's doing her homework. But this time it was different because of an unwanted guest trailing Lisa from behind. And of course, it was Hala who Lisa always told me about and became the source of her jealousy.

The first Alpino impression of seeing Hala was annoying. Girls with round eyes and long hair that is stretched to the top of the waist are too annoying for him. Even when she manages to take on more of Lisa's attention. Alpino doesn't like it. So there he is, acting obnoxious by making fun of a new girl who turns out to be over her by one year.

Lisa scolded him. Sure oes. They held a rambling contest with each other and in the end did not meet for nearly a week. Alpino is very sorry. Where else when in the end Hala visited his house that he did not even know where the girl knew his residence, to apologize if he made a mistake, he said, and the completely innocent ten-year-old brought her a pack of yupi candy and asked her to make up with Lisa at the time.

Of course, the arrogant attitude that Alpino has disappeared just like that and he eventually apologized again and said that he would make up with Lisa as soon as possible. He also said that he was guilty and told shamefully that he felt like Hala was seizing his best friend with his presence. Hala laughed right then and there, and said that why did they not become friends with each other. Hala will try to make Alpino and Lisa okay and of course, will keep the line between the two of them.

At that time, Alpino was just excited to see Lisa, but he did not have time to carry out his wishes because he had a severe cold and fever. He can't see Lisa until she's fully healed, and Alpino becomes a really sad and increasingly sad child.

But the thing he realized was, Lisa's sudden presence and guarding him. The girl went to her house to see if she was okay. To take care of it as best as possible when even Alpino does not need it. Lisa may be more mature than she is in the context of a nine-year-old. That was why he became self-conscious, ashamed of his behavior that was still like a child.

The presence or absence of new people among them, Lisa's attention to her is always constant. Lisa never left Alpino and she never forgot the boy she was friends with. Alpino really feels guilty.

He apologized to Lisa. Saying that she won't be too jealous of the new friendship Lisa has. And Lisa, with a happy smile said that it was good for her and made Alpino to apologize well to Hala.

And of course he did.

“This”

As Alpino completely recovered from her bouts of fever and fever, Lisa who was present in her room handed her something that left her frowning in confusion. Lisa's hand was already floating right in front of her, with an open palm and showing an earring with a British key that bore witness to the beginning of their friendship that had run until two years later. Alpino is suddenly afraid of losing his best friend.

“Why?” He asked again, but Lisa only smiled and pulled Alpino's hand to receive a small gift from him.

“Create Alpino that has healed” Lisa announced. “Iya know, this is valuable to me because it is from Mama. But Alpino is also my precious friend. I want to give it to you so you want me if I'm not tired of being Alpino's friend. I also want to love it let you know that you are valuable and can not be replaced with any”

Lisa's smile brightened. Alpino silently smiled.

“Thank you for wanting to be my friend until now. I'm really happy to have Alpino in my life”

Alpino couldn't be happier than this.

Perhaps, at that time he felt happy when Hala said that he would keep the limits of his encounter with Lisa. Perhaps, she became superior because Lisa said that she was very valuable and gave something very important in her life to an Alpino. But a few years later, after puberty struck him, he knew that there was a difference between male and female friendship. And it made her feel even more guilty and ashamed.

...…....

Adhiyaksa State 11 Secondary School. Alpino Hussein Adithama (12 years old)

Alpino would never have expected that he would continue his education in the same place as Nalisa and also Hala. Of course, he did not even lie when he was shocked when they met in the same one class. Himself, Nalisa, and also Hala. It was not that Alpino was unhappy with it, he still felt guilty about Hala. And of course when seeing how Lisa feels comfortable with Hala being with her is a factor that makes Alpino inevitably have to step in to let go of his guilt and really apologize with Hala.

One day, when Lisa resigns from a meeting the three of them after school come home because her mother suddenly picks her up quickly and unexpectedly, Alpino was left alone with Hala alone who said he was still waiting for someone to come home together. There, they were a bit awkward, but Hala seemed to be easier to let the atmosphere around them become less tense. Alpino could also see, he could clearly see how Hala behaved around Lisa so carefully when Alpino was around them. And inevitably, Alpino has to scold himself about it. Though it happened when they were in the fifth grade of Elementary School and now they were already occupying the First High School. They should have forgotten about those things.

Alpino quietly said that he apologized for his unrighteous attitude. And she tells Hala to be as she wants to be and as comfortable as she is around Lisa, even though there is herself around. He also said that he was not a nine-year-old Alpino anymore who was jealous because his friend was snatched away by a new person. And to be honest he himself was embarrassed by his attitude back then.

Hala replied with a satisfied laugh and as many temptations as ever before successfully thrown by the woman around him. He looks more relaxed when dealing with Alpino as he attempts to open his eyes and realize.

“I guess you like Lisa”

That made Alpino choke. His eyes were strangely rounded and he was sure that it became the real mockery of Hala for him. Alpino shook his head strongly, refusing about anything that was said, perhaps haphazardly by the woman.

“I'm the same Lisa just temen deket. Little friend aja”

It was a rebuttal that he issued firmly. Alpino knew there was something that made Hala distrust him. There was a fire in the woman's eyes which showed that she did not believe it at all. But everything he tepis and reiterate to Hala, that he is in the most serious mode he can show.

“There's nothing between the two of us. Me and Lisa are just little friends, you can trust me”

Oh how wrong he was when he said that word with all the burning confidence of his twelve year old.

...…....

7 Taruma Nagara State High School. Alpino Hussein Adithama (15 years old)

Boomerang, or maybe in fact so. Lisa said that she will study in Japan, following the steps of her brother who will be crowned as the successor to her parents' growing company there. They were just about to discuss high school together, but Lisa came to him saying that she could no longer accompany Alpino's school days because she had to go abroad for demands from her parents.

She knew that Lisa's parents were entrepreneurs whose business was now in the middle of a forward-looking and highly developed business, but she could not think that her best friend would leave her very suddenly. Sadness was not the thing that could describe him now, he felt extremely lost.

Lisa was only five days old before her departure. And Alpino feels that his world is not okay. Everything that was being spent by the two of them and was inseparable became something that made him very lost. Although he can contact Lisa with a phone call or video call at certain hours, still a sense of emptiness and loss always come and haunt him.

He has a lot of friends, of course. His friend is growing by the day the more he grows and develops, the more he rises in level and the more he begins to master the extracurricular of the sport. But still, there is no one like Lisa. No one can replace Lisa. The empty things in her life can only be where Lisa is, and she doesn't lie when she's unhappy living her present life.

He started going to High School without his best friend. But again, she gets even more clueless when Hala becomes the one to accompany her while she feels sad about not being able to play and being together again with Lisa. Yes, he's one more school with Hala, who brings Hexa into his life and becomes something fixed and synchronous in his high school life that he suddenly steps into.

Before he knew photography, he was an ace in sports. He meets Fajri who takes Jihan as a permanent complement in his circle of friends when he manages to score a homerun at a baseball game held at a school introductory event.

The circle of close friendship that starts from Lisa, brings Hala in his life. Hala then takes Hexa with him when Lisa goes to study abroad. Which then makes him spend his day at a sports club, meeting with Fajri as his teammate, and Jihan who always makes him want to break the neck of the chatty and annoying woman.

Although Lisa brings many good people into her life, it still feels hollow when the woman is not around. The first year was the hardest. Although Lisa still entertained him through calls. He felt that they were really far away. And then there's that, a photo Lisa sent him. With the focus of the woman who was coupled with the newly blooming cherry blossoms but not expected, the woman instead showed off a dandelion benjh that was ready to explore in her hands, instead of the beautiful petals of sakura that fell.

Lisa looks so soft there. Very beautiful and very amazing. Alpino doesn't know how he says things to compliment the beauty Lisa gives. And even when they called at night with the time difference adjusted, Alpino felt his heart beating in an ungodly fashion. The strange thing she suddenly felt when she thought how soft and beautiful Lisa's voice sounded in her ears even though the woman sounded very sleepy.

After that night, he secretly picks up his father's old camera and begins to capture many of the places he remembers having been with Lisa. A place that bears silent witness to their laughter and petty quarrels.

Look back at the photos taken by him. He was sitting somewhere near the lake where he drove almost forty minutes from his house. Realizing something that she misses Lisa, very deeply this time. Recalling all the things she went through with Lisa and remembering the words Hala had said to her as they resolved the issue of friendship boundaries.

“I guess you like Lisa”

And that was the thing he was thinking about when he was about to fall asleep, when he would raise his camera to aim for something he could send Lisa and get excited when he got a reply from Lisa in the form of a voice note or just a few bubble messages sent to appreciate his work.

And that's what he was thinking about when he quit the sports club and chose the photography club. About how she feels for Lisa. About the jealousy she felt, which she always tepis when Lisa became the person many other men always admired in their school before she moved to Japan. And about the pain she got when Lisa chose to leave and was no longer by her side.

The feeling that scared her to death until that night when Lisa called her, she pretended to fall asleep and not let the ringing of her phone make her more aware of what she was feeling.

“Gue.. like the same Lisa..”.

His murmur in between his feelings that made him nauseous.

She spent the other two years without Lisa with strange, yet longing feelings. There were many stages that he got on the way from year to year, and the last thing he stepped on was the receiving stage.

“Gue likes you, Lisa. I fell in love with Lo and I miss you. Please come home soon. I want to squirm lo again, next to I”

...…....

International Airport, Friday, September 15, 2017. Alpino Hussein Adithama (18 years old)

“Al, I'm home”

I don't know since when their call changed from me-you to me-lo. No one noticed it even when Lisa gave a message saying that she was going back to Indonesia. They didn't talk about it at all. As long as they can communicate with each other, that's not a problem. Alpino had no idea how long Lisa would be with him again, but the day after she got such a message from Lisa, she felt so happy and light. He doesn't even remember humming while working on a photography club assignment with a theme of freedom. She doesn't even remember that she greeted Jihan when she took a photo of the experiment on the archery field at their school. But usually he and Jihan do not get along at all.

The incompatibility started from him destroying almost all the arrows that had been prepared by Jihan himself for the trial for the club boy who had just joined. Jihan was not even out of thought and did not expect how the man could crush his efforts just from a ball kick that shot into the club arrow area. That causes them to be tom and jerry in their small group.

Jihan alone had to resuscitate herself twice when she realized that Alpino was not throwing anything at all that made her want to kick the man, even Alpino himself offers Jihan whether the woman wants to be his model for the theme of his photography assignment. Jihan initially refuses, but with Alpino insisting on letting her photograph Jihan who is doing an activity she enjoys doing, inevitably Jihan leeps and lets Alpino do whatever she wants as long as she is not disturbed. So, with pleasure, Alpino photographed the activities that Jihan was doing.

At first, Jihan was confused and confused. But when Alpino approached him to show his photos, Jihan inevitably felt amazed. Though it was a very ordinary photo, but Alpino photographed it amazingly as if he was digging up Jihan's personality and liking in just a beautiful shot that made Jihan feel amazed. He even wondered what Alpino was thinking when he left the sports club that the man had a soul in and was so talented.

However, just from that shot, Jihan can understand what Alpino does and chooses. Although he did not know there was any other meaning behind Alpino's desire to take this trail after his exit from the sports club.

Of course, other and not is because of a Nalisa Rebulan Cakrawijaya. Which in the end set themselves back in the city where they could regroup. Alpino felt very excited when he picked up Lisa at the airport. Of course with the presence of Hala and Hexah with him. Fajri and Jihan are sidelined as they are still struggling with their own sporting club which has a schedule, so Alpino himself has been quite satisfied with just bringing in his other two friends. After all, Lisa would also be happy if Hala also picked her up.

The time felt so long as he waited for Lisa's presence. But then it paid off when he finally managed to see Lisa, standing for real and not from his phone screen or laptop monitor. Waving at him with a carefree and wide and beautiful smile. The woman ran towards them and hit her body with an Alpino for the first time. And Alpino doesn't know, he can't describe how much he misses Lisa and feels that Lisa in the end, is real in her arms. He hoped Lisa wouldn't go anywhere else.

“Oath, Lis. You are getting more beautiful!” It was Hala's shriek that had already pulled Lisa in his arms. Leaving Alpino with a million warms that he felt back. He could see the joy and beauty that was before his eyes. Presented without any obstruction.

Her heart, which had originally been lightly beating on her chest, was now moving even faster as Lisa laughed with satisfaction. Hearing him so close to himself, Alpino felt his entire body become relieved and relaxed.

“Oh, this is what is called Hexa, yes?”

This time Lisa managed to see the presence of Hexa among them. True, he only knew Alpino and Hala, he had yet to meet their other small group children. They only often reply to group messages in the same group, and this is the first time Lisa will meet people who are present riot in one group.

“Yes, I'm Heksa. Finally met, yes, we” Hexa took a helping hand of Lisa and shook her to get acquainted. Lisa sounds very friendly and Alpino just wants to let go of that clasped hand. But he wasn't here to let an ugly monster rule him. So she just smiles and decides to take them all home, especially Lisa on the grounds that Lisa should rest.

“Then, the day after tomorrow to my house, yes! I also want to know Fajri and Jihan. I will celebrate my return later. I made a small party”

It was Lisa's invitation in the middle of her carefree laugh when they were in the car. Lisa excitedly says that she brings a lot of souvenirs to her new friends and of course, to her old friends, Alpino and Hala.

...…....

Nalisa House, Saturday, September 25, 2017. Alpino Hussein Adithama (18 years old)

It had been more than a week that Lisa's return was back by her side. They returned to their routine three years ago. Everything was still the same, they were still fighting about which game they would play. About why Alpino became more good and Lisa accused him of cheating even though the woman saw that Alpino did not do any cheating to win the game.

They still often quarrel about the small meals they had to eat that day, or the menu for lunch because they were already hungry. Yet they are still just as fit when they choose to tell a story about this and that, appreciating each other and listening. Support each other and do not make fun of each other in a serious story that requires a lot of attention.

A week after Lisa came home, Alpino realized that they were getting closer. That he's getting sticky. The different one now looked very prominent on his side. He became more sensitive about everything that was related to Lisa. About how Lisa prefers apples to oranges, about Lisa who prefers muscular male characters in all their game play, about how Lisa will tell stories when she is overzealous. She can even tell when Lisa is sad and lonely.

The more her feelings open up, and the more she realizes that her feelings for Lisa have changed to become more distant, she becomes more sensitive about Lisa. He becomes more fond of touching Lisa in terms of providing comfort to the woman. Lying together in the room and watching one of the Korean dramas with a sad scene that was booming at that time felt more intimate than usual. But maybe it is only one side that is felt by Alpino itself. Because she knew, that Lisa was more spoiled than usual, it was still Lisa who offered her a valuable earring pendulum for her. It was still his best friend who treated him like a very precious person.

The more Alpino is aware of his feelings, the more he realizes that what Lisa did to him, is still the treatment of a sabbath. Same. Everything is the same as when they first met, when they first decided to make friends, when they first decided to strengthen their friendship bonds. Everything was still the same, only Apino herself felt a flowering and thumping feeling.

However, there are still many paths that he has to take. There are still many roads that he has. The future is still long, he still has over a thousand hours to move Lisa's feelings in order to see her. He still has plenty of time to fight.

That was what he thought until the incident left him unable to do anything more. The one promise he had agreed on made him wither inside.

The goddamn promise that made her cry for the first time in her teenage life.

All because of that, Sinar Adibima Cakrawijaya.

Bang Sinar, he called her that.

It was a Sunday night when he paid a visit to Lisa's private home. He had already moved from the Cakrawijaya residence to the house that belonged to him since he was in Japan before. The house that was already in his name was the place that he occupied now. Alpino did not bother to help Lisa move because all her belongings had been put into the house gradually during the three years when Lisa was still in Japan. So, when he came home, his private home was ready for him to live in.

The plan for that night was to watch them. As usual, Lisa invited her to watch in her room. Ordering food together and even promising to hold a game show and tell her about it no matter what. And Lisa has asked Alpino to show her photography duties during her time at the club. So, Alpino certainly willingly agreed to it.

About Sinar himself, Alpino rarely met the adult man. She almost forgot what the first child of the Cakrawijaya family would have looked like if Lisa had not put her sister's photo around her house. Family photos or just his picture with Sinar. As long as he was close to Lisa, the man was truly like a shadow. Very difficult to meet, but when met, Sinar is a friendly person, although tucked firmness in the look of his face that looks very trained and educated since he was a child. Alpino already understands about it and the burden of the first son of a businessman's family.

So, Alpino himself did not expect to meet with Sinar on that day. He behaves appropriately, of course, even though he has more feelings for his best friend, he will never want to hurt Lisa or make the atmosphere uncomfortable between them.

But the incident came suddenly. They are not watching the movie they specify, but rather is a horror film that suddenly played on the big screen in Lisa's room. He had proposed to change the film, but Lisa seemed so excited to watch the horror show.

Things are going well and relaxing, but when Alpino feels something crawling at his feet, under the blanket they share together, he reflexively screamed and smashed into Lisa's body next to him in focus. She herself was unaware that she had even toppled Lisa under her panic. His own feet were shaking the blanket. He was sure that his voice was very ugly. Not to mention being offset by Lisa's startled scream.

His hands hugged Alpino's shoulders for protection while Alpino himself tried to save his life about what was behind the blanket. But when the lizard's head emerged from under the covers and crept quickly disappeared from the top of the mattress, the adrenaline that happened to him suddenly receded and relief overpowered them.

Alpino turned to Lisa, to his surprise, their faces so close. She was unconscious when she even looked like she was hugging Lisa, caging her body with her body that had been fully awakened for the past three years she took good care of her body. Lisa herself, with both her eyes set in shape and her hand held onto Alpino's shoulder, made it seem like she was in a scene that could not be said to be appropriate.

Their position is very unlikely to allow others to call it as two friends. Of course, with such an indecent position, between a woman and a man, it would naturally create dirty speculations about them. But in the ridiculous bubble they created, Alpino and Lisa burst into laughter about their situation. Lisa even had time to pinch Alpino's shoulder in an unchanged position.

But unfortunately, the light came at that very moment.

The man looks red. Angry at what she finds in her only sister's room and her favorite. The man's jaw hardened when he saw them there. Alpino, with its heart pounding like crazy quickly justifies their position. He sat up tensely next to Lisa who was trying to sit properly.

“Loh kak Sinar has arrived?”

Lisa only greeted in surprise, there was nothing that frightened her as if they had done nothing to make others misunderstand her.

“Bang, I can clearin-,”

“Lo come with me downstairs. Natisa, you lock the door and don't leave the room tonight.”

The man's speech was final as he stared at Alpino with a murderous glare. Lisa who does not understand the situation whining says that they are in the excitement of watching.

“Gue says you lock the door and don't leave the room tonight. I want to talk to Al”

“Kak Sinar, lo nyebelin oath!”

“Gue doesn't care. Now Al, you listen to my word, get down. I want to talk to you both lo”

Alpino. This is not what he should have spent the night with his best friend. The light must have been furious with him. That's definitely happening. So, with a heart that seemed to be coming out of his ribs, he descended obediently. Pamit on Lisa quickly before passing through the Rays that were in the doorway to go down. He believes tonight he must have died at the hands of Sinar. Not realizing that since that night, his hopes had been dashed and lost, leaving the pain lingering in the box that the key had thrown away and disappeared into the deep dead sea floor somewhere in his heart.

“Kak, you know we're not doing anything? Do you know that I have nothing at all? We're just doang's best friends, brother. And you know that, right?”

The light has not yet moved. She just closed the door with a warning that Lisa shouldn't be out of the room tonight. The deal with Alpino is long.

...….....

Alpino felt that he would not survive this time. He knew that Sinar was a strict man. But on the one hand and in many other stories that Lisa has shared with her, Sinar is a friendly and funny person. The man is considerate and even looks like a big baby who likes to scowl and frown most of the time.

But Sinar, it is undeniable is an older brother who is protective of his only sister. Alpino was sure he would turn into mush when Sinar talked to him about the matter. However, Alpino understands that what happened earlier is very unjustified.

What if a demon passed by and he was tempted to do something he regretted? At this time Alpino feels so dirty and hateful about what happened a while ago.

His eyes were trained on the steps that connected the lower floors with Lisa's room. His ears become so sensitive to hear the sound of footsteps belonging to Sinar who will execute him tonight as well. He wanted to be prepared with everything that happened, but in the short amount of time that Sinar had given him, would not be able to get him ready that quickly.

He still needed some time to breathe, but when he had just wanted to take a deep breath in his first, the sound of heavy footsteps made him hold his breath quickly. He could see a dark aura around the tired and angry face of the Rays. Alpino, run out tonight with no rest.

The wordless ray sat before Alpino with the firmness he had. There was a moment of silence that felt very long, where Alpino even almost forgot to breathe if only the tightness did not make him realize that he needed oxygen. Even though it felt wrong to breathe around an awakened lion, he still needed air to keep him alive tonight.

Feeling that Sinar would not make a sound, he volunteered to defend whatever was caught by Sinar earlier.

“Bang Sinar” he started timidly. “Bang, that was my oath there is no element of intentionality. I was just shocked because there was motion in the blanket and it was my reflex that made it happen. I don't have any bad intentions to Lisa-I swear, Bang”

He took it out in one breath. Strive to dilute the atmosphere of tension that is too thick around them.

“Bang, you know yourself, right, I'm the same Lisa already together how long? I can't possibly admit anything bad to Lisa, bang. I took care of him all this time, and I certainly would not want Lisa why-why. Trust me, bang. What you saw was nothing, it was just a mistake doang, bang”

He tried again to defend himself. What he said was completely true. Even though she has more feelings for Lisa, she won't be as happy as she is with that woman. She still has her limits and she's not crazy to do indecent things to Lisa. A friend and a woman who has all her heart.

“Lo should stop, deh, Al”

Alpino. Surprised by the sudden utterance of the Rays. The man looked panicked with a strange intention thrown by the interlocutor.

“Stop what, Bang? I did not say anything, I swear”

If Sinar's intention was to stop being Lisa's best friend, to get out of Lisa's life, he wouldn't be able to do it. Lisa is half her life, and someone who controls her heart when even she realizes it when Lisa is not next to her. His chest rumbled, he did not know what to react to while Sinar looked at him with the most serious gaze.

“Stop making a feeling the same adek I”

Alpino. His heart suddenly stopped to beat in a split second.

“Ap-,”

“Do not think I do not know how you feel the same adek me, Al” Sinar suddenly said.

His voice split through the air, along with the cut in Alpino's own heart. His tongue was now coming out to wet his suddenly dry lips. “Gue understands your feelings are the same as mine. I know how other people fall in love. And you alone, not a year and two years is on Lisa's side. Even though I rarely meet Lo, the three years I spent around the adek I can make me understand the actual behavior of you who feel you openly for adek I”

“Bang-,”

Alpino's voice shakes to just call. He didn't know to say anything more when even Hala herself, who said that she liked Lisa at the age of twelve-years-old, never even raised the conversation again. He believes that Hala himself understands the feelings of Alpino who says that they are a pair of friends only. Even up to this second, Hala did not suspect anything that was between her and Lisa.

“Lisa tau?” Alpino whispered, asking what scared him. If Sinar alone could tell that he was in love with his sister as clearly as the morning sun, would Lisa also have understood about his feelings?

“Unfortunately, enggak” Alpino does not know if he should be relieved or cry hearing this narration. But for now, he will take the first option. She's just afraid, if Lisa finds out about her feelings, she has a huge potential to lose that woman.

“She is too affectionate with you as her best friend. He also never showed interest in romance as long as I was with him, so, he menggeliat lo as his best friend who he loves the most, like”

Promiscuous. His feelings felt like they were poured in a bowl and stirred to a level so he did not know how to sort out the right feelings and emotions to describe how he is now.

“Gue is actually angry because of that. I don't like it when I squirm in a bad position like that. You guys and she's a girl, you're in a room, a closed room where there's nobody here but you two. I'm angry because you guys casually assume it's nothing. Although this time you can design yourself, you will not know if suddenly a demon passes and you dark eyes? My grandfather who I've been keeping from small and the only one can be damaged in the hands of lo”

“Gue apologizes..” whispered, feeling guilty and stupid. He should be more aware of what he's doing. No matter how close he is to Lisa, he should still have a boundary between the two of them. He should understand that better than anyone.

“Lain times, please do not let this incident to repeat again” Sinar sighed. His body and his tense posture were now slightly falling behind him. The light rested his elbows on both knees and he rubbed his tired face.

The man had just arrived here from Japan to catch up with his sister in order to have a vacation given by his parents. Of course Sinar is also tired of everything and he has to rest.

“Iya Bang, I'll understand my limits as Lisa. I need to keep this from happening again”

Alpino squeezed his wet hands. He was not even aware that he was sweating, even though the room temperature was low due to the cooling that was turned on.

There is a long silence. Alpino could hear the sound of a heavy ray of breath as if he wanted to convey one more thing, which this time might be the second death for Alpino.

Oh, look how true he is.

“Al,” His head whips towards the Rays when his name is called.

“Gue actually does not have the heart to say this to, lo. I know this will be hard for you. But I hope you can promise me this one thing. The most important thing you have to hold. A promise you have to keep for me. Make Lisa also”

Alpino silent. He could not make a sound because he did not even know what he dared to say in such a situation.

“Gue is serious about what I said earlier. I'm serious about-,” Rays are silent for a moment before sighing deeper and looking at Alpino with an unreadable look. Maybe it's kind of pity, but it's deeper than that. “Gue is serious about you have to stop, Al”

“…”

“Lo should stop hoping and put your feelings on Lisa. You should be able to move on and finish your feelings right now. You can still find other people who can love and love you. Other people who can love your precious feelings are now aimed at me. I'm asking for help, make stop hoping for Nalisa”

Destroyed might not be an easy word to say. But this is where Alpino, hearing a fragment of his feelings that broke into pieces and scratched the fragile wall around him until it bled. The sound of blood rushing over sounded loudly in his ears. And he endured to hear whatever else the Light said afterwards. He tried.

“There was this one guy” Sinar said again, Alpino almost missed that sound in his church. “Someone who has made my family believe that she can be happy with Lisa. One person who has promised to give Lisa everything and promise happiness for Lisa. This one person who has gone further than you imagine, Al”

Alpino jerks a little. His head he set up not to let his tears just come out right in front of the Rays.

“Gue.... Not even allowed to fight, Bang?”

The light cast off his face, looking guilty with the words he had let out earlier.

“Al, can you promise me?” He switched the conversation, making Alpino feel claustrophobic inside. “Promise not to expect the same from me. Promise to take care and happyin Lisa only as friends and close friends only? Promise to make, move on and meet other people besides my sister?”

“Bang Sinar”

“Promise with me, Al. You can get all of that right?”

“Lo why is so evil with me, bang?” Alpino whispered softly.

“Gue can't move on that fast even when I can't fight for Lisa. You can't make me like this, bang. Lo mean really same I”

The light was silent for a moment. He knows that he's outrageous. But what else could he do? He was in the middle of two sides. To plunge into one of them would make a big impact, and to plunge in the other direction is to make him a bad person even though Sinar himself seeks to protect the two lines himself.

“In that case, the same promise I made did not expect Lisa and promise to keep and happy Lisa only as friends and close friends? Can, right?” Sinar repeated it again, a promise he urged for Alpino to agree. “Gue ngelakuin this to protect your heart too, Al. I know you sincerely same adek me. But you can't move forward at all. I wish you the best, too, Al. You should understand about it also”

“But, do you have to gini, bang? Emang Lisa has done everything and is sure that she will be happy with that person? Are you sure that person is the right person for Lisa?”

“Al, horrifying me. This is best for lo also”

“This is just a one-sided decision from lo, Bang Sinar!”

Standing light. He knew that this would not just end. The stubborn Lisa will come down and wonder why Alpino or Sinar did not return to her room. Lisa was worried about her best friend's condition and here she was, still arguing with her sister's best friend.

“Lo has only one option in this case, Al. Please horrify me and promise me”

“Feelings cannot be forced” Alpino to argue.

Groaning light. It won't be easy, but he has to make sure this will work.

“If you can not I work together, I will take Lisa home with me and I will not be here again until anytime. I said, I just don't want to get hurt. You should have understood from the beginning, Alpino”

Alpino's gaze fell onto his trembling hands. He did not know what was happening, but the ugly feeling of mastering it became his own fear for him.

“Lo ngancem me, Bang?”

“Promise with me, Al”

Alpino breathed deeply. He stood up, his eyes were already glazed over and he was already disheveled inside. His teeth sank down on his lower lip, certain it would inflict injuries when he felt a taste of blood rust on his tongue.

“If I fulfill this promise, you can also promise not to me if Lisa can be happy?”

“Alpino.”

“OK. I promise”

The final. His sigh sounded rough in the air along with the shards of his heart that had not been saved anymore.

“Gue promises I will try to stop wishing Lisa and I promise I will take care and happy Lisa as much as I can as friends and close friends. But I can't promise to move on from him and find a replacement for him in my heart”

A ray, with a forced smile, and relief, approached to clench Alpino who looked utterly destroyed. Sinar's hand patted Alpino's back fondly, strengthening the man even though he himself had destroyed whatever the teenager wished for.

“Still, Al. I'm sorry I made you this way. But with this, I only wish Lo” all the best

Alpino would not have expected that he, at the age of eighteen, had his first heartbreak. A promise that shattered her romantic hopes, and the pressure of feelings she had to keep deep, deep in the depths of her heart.

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...Bro Time: One-Sided Feelings and Decisions (Return to Those Times) – End....