IT'S NOT MY FAULT TO LOVE YOU
Dinner

Right now everyone was still cluttering in his place. Kimy chose to stay away. It just so happened that the vip room was on the second floor and connected to the balcony of the restaurant and that's where Kimy is currently. From a distance Kimy saw once again those people. Papi, his mother who still looks familiar with Teddy and Sinta's mother. Surely they were not there as parents of Gilang, but parents of his lover Tristan. And also Nadine who looks blending in between them. Kimy has a hard time understanding this situation. Speaking of Nadine, whether there is Nadine as what but Kimy ignored the woman. And also seen Tristan who talks seriously with Mario. Kimy looked at her lover's face. He had given up on his revenge. Although inside he did not see the interaction between Tristan, Teddy and Sinta. But really Tristan has forgotten that grudge. And once again Kimy's heart seemed to wonder, if Tristan had made up with Teddy and Sinta then what about Gilang. Where is that guy now? Is he okay at the moment. Is he willing to share an old man with Tristan who is very hated first. Kimy's little heart can't lie that he still cares about Gilang. He cares even cares a lot. Maybe love has indeed changed hearts, but his care for Gilang can not be removed just like that.

"Where are you?." he said softly. Kimy turned his body. He looked at the street in front of the restaurant which was quite crowded.

"You must be surprised I'm here." The voice ripped Kimy's daydream. Kimy turned his head and saw Nadine standing next to him. Kimy smiled cynically at Nadine.

"It's normal.." The answer.

"I also didn't expect to be in the middle of your family when my boyfriend wasn't here.." Kimy was a little surprised by Nadine's words. Girlfriend, who is Nadine. What is the current position of Nadine as Gilang's girlfriend. He represented Gilang to come. Kimy is increasingly curious about the topic that Nadine will discuss.

"Kimy we can talk together." a voice made Kimy and Nadine turn. Sinta smiled at Kimy.

"Mama Sinta's.."

"Dear, mommy wants to talk to you?.."

"Yes can ma.." Kimy and Sinta looked at Nadine, as if giving a code so that the woman would immediately get out of the place. Nadine nodded and left the two of them.

"Mama's happy to see you happy as you are now.." Sinta approached Kimy again "He made you happy?.."

Kimy nodded, assuring.

"It turns out the boy didn't come. He doesn't have the guts to face you.."

"Who do you mean, Mom?.."

"Say.."

"Say you know I'm coming ma?.." Sinta nodded. Where's she? Nadine's here why she's not coming with him.."

Sinta laughed softly "You think Nadine is here because of Gilang?.."

"Who else is it for?." replied Kimy in surprise.

"Gilang never expected Nadine. Nadine's here because she's Dony's girlfriend.."

"Dony??.." Sinta nodded. Kimy is amazed why Dony is in a relationship with Nadine. Whereas in the past Nadine was the most expecting his separation with Gilang. Why Nadine is with Dony.

"Where is Gilang ma now?.."

"A lot has changed Kim. He no longer wants to be a public figure. He'd rather stay away from the crowd.."

Kimy looked at Sinta, waiting for the answer where the man was now "Lost open a cafe.."

"Cafe, then what about ma's company?.."

"Still on the way, Septian takes care of. He's staying away from the Kim family. He's really aloof.."

Kimy's heart was slightly touched by the circumstances of Gilang's former lover. After all, he felt the cause of the chaos in Gilang's life.

"Mama was hoping you'd see her.."

Kimy was slightly startled and looked at Sinta with a gaze asking "Mommy meant just to motivate Gilang kim.." Kimy did not answer, he looked the other way Tristan looked walking towards him.

"Why here, it's so cold in here.." Tristan who just came just pulled Kimy's waist to stick to his body.

"I had a little chat with Mama Sinta." replied Kimy who glanced at Sinta, Sinta looks not at Tristan at all. He chose to see the crowded street in front of the restaurant.

When the passerby came home, Kimy ventured to ask Tristan about his family "You're better with Teddy, Sinta's mom?.."

"As you can see." replied Tristan curiously.

"I saw you guys together, but you're not inetaraksi at all trist.."

"That's better than I don't see it at all.."

"May I ask, but promise you don't get mad.."

Tristan looked into Kimy's eyes "Say?.."

"Regarding Gilang.." Kimy asked with a bit of hesitation. She checks Tristan's face, Kimy wants to know her lover's reaction. Tristan did not reply and his expression was also mediocre. "Have you guys made up?.."

"Ck. Come on Kimy, you're not expecting to have a loving sister-in-law, are you? I don't want you to say his name in front of me.."

Kimy breathed a rough sigh, he was confused how to explain to his lover. Kimy knows that Tristan has a high temperament and is also jealous, especially when it comes to the name Gilang. Kimy grabbed Tristan's hand, grasped it tightly, looked him in the eyes of the man in "Tristan listen to me. I know this is gonna be hard for us. But the fact that Gilang is your sister is inevitable. Inevitably, his name will always be there and mentioned by those closest to us. You have to learn to control yourself. I can't keep getting away from him either. I know him and I care about him." Tristan's eyes sharpened at the CARING word Kimy said. "Don't get me wrong, caring what I mean isn't what you think. I just feel responsible for the destruction of Gilang's life. I just want to fix my broken relationship, as a friend.."

"You don't have to take responsibility for what happens in other people's lives. I don't want you to say his name, let alone meet him. If you don't want any trouble don't act Kimy too much. Quite quiet beside me. I'll handle everything.."

Kimy couldn't believe what he had just heard. Kimy feels like a puppet who should do nothing, should not decide anything and should submit to the rules of Tristan. Kimy's chest rumbled. That's not the life he wants. She does love Tristan, but that's not what she expected from her lover. "I can't believe you're talking like that. You don't trust me?.."

"I don't believe that bastard.."

Kimy tightened his jaw, no longer strong it felt to hold back the anger that was piling up on his chest. Kimy from the past was a woman who could not be easily beaten. Even Gilang always succumbed to him. But whether it's with Tristan, Kimy is always under him. Kimy always loses. "Who's the bastard you mean?.." Kimy asked in a mocking tone. I don't know, Kimy felt he couldn't accept that Tristan was making fun of Gilang by that name. "We know who the only bastard in this case is." he continued.

Ciiittttt

Tristan braked suddenly his car, lucky the road was quite empty. Kimy tiptoed in shock at what Tristan was doing.

"You're crazy." shouted Kimy staring at the bitch Tristan.

"You tested my patience Kimy.." Tristan said softly but with great emphasis, as if still trying to contain his anger "Even when you are with me, you still defend him. I don't know how important I am in your eyes. Aren't you able to appreciate and keep my feelings.." Kimy was silent listening to Tristan. Kimy starts to think if he's overdoing it, if he's hurting the guy. Kimy started glancing towards Tristan. Tristan looked straight ahead, with a hardened jaw. Yes, Kimy knows that right now Tristan is angry. A few minutes of silence, Tristan finally runs his wheel again. Shut up, that's what happened on their way home. Kimy occasionally glanced at the expressionless Tristan. Kimy's heart pounded hard, he felt guilty times iki already made the man angry.

The luxury car went into the yard of Daniel's mansion. Tristan was still in his place, while Kimy was already taking off his seatbealt preparing to descend. Kimy was holding the doorknob but he didn't see any movement from Tristan. Kimy turned to his girlfriend, "You didn't come down?.."

"Come down, I still have business.." He answered without looking at Kimy.

Seeing that Kimy did not come down, he turned his body to face his lover "You are angry, sorry I did not mean.."

"No. Come in tonight, you catch a cold.." He answered without looking at Kimy.

"Tristan, please don't do this, I know you're angry. Speak, but don't silence me.."

"I said come in.."

"Tristan!!.."

"Come on Kimy, why is it so hard for you to come back to me once.."

"Why should I obey, I'm not a puppet. Why don't you listen to me. Why do I always have to follow you.." Kimy shouted like an infidelity man. Tristan turned to Kimy who spoke with excitement with his anger. Once again Tristan tightened his jaw.

" It's up to you!!!!." Kimy snapped roughly and got straight out of the car and slammed the door rough.

Tristan looks at Kimy's back as he walks into the house. Tristan's eyes turned red, no, he didn't cry just because of that trivial quarrel. What makes him sick is that Tristan finds out that the woman doesn't love him as much as he thinks. The woman never thought of him, did not appreciate him. Tristan still lost, even though Kimy's body was with him but the woman's heart could not accept it completely. Blame it if now Tristan loses, he loves Kimy more than his own life.