IT'S NOT MY FAULT TO LOVE YOU
You're my life

That morning Tristan's eyes darkened for a moment. His jaw hardened, his hands clenched ready to punch anyone who was nearby at this moment. His eyes continued to stare at a picture frame he accidentally found in the bedside nightstand drawer.

Damn Kimy, you still haven't forgotten it.

Kimy came out of the bathroom still wearing his bathdrop. He was a little surprised because Tristan was still in the room. Before the shower, Tristan had gone out of the room and said he would go to the office.

"You're back, didn't you just leave?.." Kimy tried to be relaxed, he walked to the dressing table and sat there. The woman glanced at Tristan from behind the glass, because it was unusual for the man not to answer her question.

Tristan turned around, walking closer to Kimy. The woman could see through the glass in front of her.

Why with this bastard's face, why is it so creepy.

"What is this?." asked Tristan flatly.

Kimy turned to look at Tristan's hand holding a picture frame. Yep.. That was his picture and Gilang first. A photo depicting happiness and love. Both men looked very happy. She was seen hugging Kimy from behind. Kimy's heart stopped like an instant. How could he forget the photo he put in the nightstand drawer next to his bed. Kimy should keep it in a safe place or throw it away.

"i.. That's..."

Brakkk

"Damn you still thinking about it?.."

Kimy's eyes glared instantly as Tristan slammed the frame of the photo to shatter into pieces.

"Tristan I forgot.."

Tristan's eyes were reddened with anger. He approached Kimy slowly. Kimy was terrified, those eyes were like the eyes of a Tristan who beat him up first. There were no more shady eyes that he had gotten lately from the man.

Kimy continued to pull back, until he finally hit the dressing table behind him.

"I can explain tristan." he said in a trembling voice.

"Explain!! cepet explain!! .." Tristan's voice boomed throughout the room. Kimy closed his eyes for a moment. His mind drifted, what if the papi heard?

"ii.. It's a photo of a long time ago and I forgot to throw it away.."

"Dammit!!! you want me to kill him?.."

"Tristana.." Kimy flinched, then he shook his head with tears.

"Damn it, are you crying?.."

"No. No Tristan, I didn't cry, I was just scared." replied Kimy stammered.

"Fear. You're scared of me. I don't need you to fear Kimy, I want you to love me fucking.." Tristan's voice is getting louder. Kimy saw the man's jaw harden, his hands clenched tightly. Kimy was really scared.

"Please, don't hurt me.." I don't know why that word came up Kimy's mouth.

"Damn it.."

Braakk

Kimy lowered his head while closing his eyes. That woman was really scared. But what is this, why is his body fine, clearly he saw Tristan raise his hand ready with his bogem. Kimy slowly opened his eyes. He could still see Tristan's body still in front of him. He looked up, saw the man's face and what happened. Tristan looked at him with anger. His hands spread behind his body. Kimy followed Tristan's hand. And then he shut his mouth. Tristan hit the vanity glass behind him. The glass was cracked and Tristan's hand was still stuck there with blood flowing profusely.

"Tristan what are you doing?.." Kimy grabbed the man's hand. He was horrified to see the back of the hand still covered in blood and there were small pieces of glass attached. "You're crazy, you hurt your own hand?.." Kimy said as he looked at the man. Tristan did not budge, he still looked angry by tightening his jaw. Kimy waited for the man's answer but was not heard. Then he took Tristan to his bed.

"I'll take the medicine box for a second.." Said Kimy who also got no answer from the man.

Slowly Kimy swept the wound with water, cleaning it to avoid infection before giving him medicine. "Why are you doing this, you know it's hurting yourself?.." Ask Kimy slowly. "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. It's not like you think it is.."

"do you fear me?." replied Tristan flatly.

Kimy looked at Tristan's face for a while, but he refused to answer.

"Why do you say, don't hurt me. You think I'm gonna hurt you again like I used to? You still don't trust me, Kimy?.." Tanya Tristan.

"I.. I'm.."

"I'll hurt myself if you're still thinking about that man.."

Deg

Kimy looked at Tristan in disbelief "What do you mean?.."

"If you still think about it, it's not you who will get hurt but me. You'll see how I can hurt myself. You can even see my corpse if you still love her.."

"Tristan what are you saying?.."

"I'm not kidding Kimy. You still don't believe me, do you? You still think I'm gonna hurt you again? I'll prove how crazy I love you.." Kimy quietly did not answer, he was really confused about how to deal with the man. He was being threatened by that man.

"Say something.."

"I'll really kill him if you think about it. You mine. These eyes, this nose, these lips are all mine. Don't try to run from me again. Unless you want to see me die, I'll kill that bastard first.." Tristan cupped Kimy's face, looking at him sharply.

Is this how you love me, is this love or just an obsession?

"Tristan can I ask you something.."

"Say.."

"Where's Laura, did you finish her off?.."

"hey.. Why'd you ask the fucking woman.." Tristan moved from his seat. Her jaw hardened again remembering Laura's name in her brain. Because of that damn woman she almost killed Kimy and also lost her baby.

Kimy was standing following Tristan, he was standing right in front of Tristan."Tristan please tell me is he still alive? I have long wondered about his existence. I just feel guilty. Because of me he's been through all this.."

Tristan stared at Kimy's wonder "Just think of yourself baby, have you forgotten because of that damn woman you almost died in my hands. I hate it.."

"Isn't he my girlfriend?.." Ask Kimy plain.

"Heh.. Fucking lover. Don't you say those disgusting words, Kimy.."

"You admit it yourself at the time. You brought him to your house.."

"****!!! Why do you remind me of that incident, Kimy. It was the dumbest act of my life.."

"So you did that on purpose?.."

"You already know the answer.."

Although I know, I really want to hear from your own mouth asshole.

"You love him?.."

"Sial Kimy, what a joke is that. I told you I'm not interested in any woman but you.." Tristan stroked one of Kimy's cheeks.

"Then why were you always trying to push me away from you?.."

"I'm sorry, it's because of my stupidity. I have not realized my feelings. I didn't realize I'd die without you by my side, baby.."

Kimy was stunned for a moment, his cheeks slightly reddened. "So you really love me?.."

"What do you want?.."

"You will fulfill all I want.."

"Of course, just so long as you believe me.."

"I want to know where Laura and my mom are.."

Deg

Tristan pecked for a moment. "Why silence? I want proof of that. I want to know what happened to Mom. I'll forget about your mistakes all along for me as long as you tell me where mom is. I still can't believe that mom died. At least if mommy dies her body must have met. And for Laura, I just feel guilty. He just meant to help me.."

"Why are you so sure I know where your mama is?.."

"Because if you love me, you can't hurt my mom and you already love me, right?.."

****. God fucking. You don't know me very well Kimy. I even killed your aunt. How can you believe that back then, I was a man who could submit out of love.

"I really don't know where your mama is. So don't ask that again. As for Laura, you don't have to worry, that woman won't appear in front of you again. So you don't have to feel guilty.."

"no Tristan, I'm sure you know where Mami is. Justjust please. Mommy and papi my happiness. You said you wanted me to love you, right, just be yours. I'll really give up my life and my heart only when you tell me where my mom is. Whether it's life or death.." Kimy sobbing.

Damn it, where should I look for the dead woman. It had been a long time, it must have been destroyed by a savage beast.

"You know, every time I look at my heart, it's sliced. Papi looks strong, but he is also very weak. Mommy is her strength. At least you should know your mom's alive or dead.."

Tristan hugged Kimy's trembling body. Somehow his heart also felt pain to see the woman crying, pouring out the contents of his heart to her.

"Don't cry. I told you not to cry in front of me anymore. I'll have my men track down your mama's whereabouts.."

Kimy flinched "Really, you promise.."

Tristan nodded, Kimy hugged Tristan's body tightly. There was little hope in his life. His smile was etched sincerely this time.

You don't know what mistake your mama Kimy made. If you knew, I'm sure you'd hate that woman.

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