IT'S NOT MY FAULT TO LOVE YOU
gold cage

I started to feel dizzy in my head. It was so heavy I could hardly open my eyes. I slowly tried to keep my eyes open and I vaguely felt my hands so warm. My eyes began to appear even though it was still a little blurred. I looked to the side and found a sleeping man scratching my neck. Her body was still sitting on the chair, with her hands clasping my hands tightly. I felt her warm breath hit my neck. He's that psychopath, Tristan.

I tried to get up, but my body felt weak. It turns out my movements woke him up. Tristan shuffled and opened his eyes. The man looked tired, his eyes were red and his face was wrinkled.

"You're sober, baby." Gentle, so gentle as to say it while stroking my hair. I just stared at him flat. Either this is Tristan which part is it again. I think this guy is always changing.

"I why?.."

"You passed out earlier, you forgot?.." I tried to remember a little bit of what happened before I fainted. I looked at his face. Yep.. I remember when he kissed me, exactly me and him kissing each other. He kept on poking me until my breath was tight and the shadow appeared in my brain. I remember now, then what that meant. Me why? Why did I faint.

"I remember.."

"What do you feel now?." the man was very gentle with me.

"none. I don't feel anything. Just a little limp and a little dizzy.."

"That may be the effect of the drug that the doctor injected earlier.."

"You called the doctor?.."

"Yes I'm very worried.." Tristan approached me and kissed me on my forehead.

"Then why me?.."

"Is your body feeling pain?.." I shook my head because my body was fine all along.

"Kimy we're gonna speed up our marriage? Next week I'll propose to you and then we'll have the wedding.."

I just cengo hearing Tristan's words. What does this mean, why so suddenly?

"What's wrong, why so suddenly? Is there a problem.."

"none. I just can't wait to be your husband. Ilove you.."

Deg

This damn man why suddenly said the word love.

"Now you must eat. You haven't been conscious for too long. You missed your lunch.." I saw Tristan stand up and grab the plate on the table, he came back with food for me.

**

Papi was surprised when he came home from the office and he told me I was sick. Soon he approached me in the room.

"Dear you why?.."

Papi suddenly walked into my room without knocking on the door. Right now Tristan is lying next to me hugging my stomach. The man closed his eyes, but I'm sure he wasn't sleeping.

"Fire.."

Tristan was also slightly surprised by the sudden arrival of the papi. Tristan opened his eyes and sat down without moving from beside me.

"Sorry.. Sorry papi didn't knock on the door. Papi was worried earlier.." papi's face did look worried.

"Kimy was okay pi, Kimy was smitten and passed out.."

"Fainting, how can. You've been all this while not easily fainted, baby.."

"I called the doctor. He's okay just need a break.."

Om. Hehe.. This bastard called papi om. Just this first I heard him calling people right.

"Good, you need to rest. All right, I'm gonna get bi-asih to take your dinner to the room.." Papi came out of my room afterwards.

**

My application will be held at a hotel. Of course, it is impossible for papi to hold a proposal event at home. Because papi colleagues are very much. He wants to announce to the world that his beloved daughter is getting married. All online and print media have reported it. I can see it from the phone I hold every day. Yep.. I can already carry a cell phone, even if it's just Tristan, papi and kak lexa. I can't do much, Tristan is always watching my movements.

I came down the stairs looking for papi. From the morning after breakfast I didn't see him. Papi and Tristan are on leave from today. Tristan is out with Dony he said.

Where is papi then?

"Bi pasih see papi?." I asked bi pasih who was busy in the kitchen.

"In the park behind non, already from earlier. Looks like mister again a lot of non problems.."

The trouble? What's up again?

I walked towards the back garden. I saw the papi sitting alone in the gazebo, the papi looked pensive.

"Fire.." Papi looked at me with a slight smile.

"Dear, Here.."

"cook papi sitting alone here, papi what's the matter again?.." My toot. Papi nodded with a smile. She stroked my hair softly.

"Batan is only sad soon you leave papi dear.."

"It might not be that, right? Papi kangen mami?.."

"Darling, somehow papi feels your mama hasn't left. Papi feels your mama's coming back.."

"Piii.." I hugged the body of the papi that started to shake.

"Kimy, you promised me you should be happy wherever you are?.." I nodded at the papi's words, holding tightness in my chest.

"Tristan is a good and responsible man, he can definitely make you happy dear.."

Suppose papi knew what the bastard was doing. Suppose papi knew he was doing this only for revenge.If papi knew the most likely thing that hurt mami was the man.

"Kimy promised.." I replied slowly.

"I'm glad there's one more thing you should know. Tentemu siska, she's gone.."

Deg

"What does papi mean?.." I was so surprised, I held my body for a moment. The wind started to thump.

"Three days ago, Joseph called papi. He said Siska disappeared, been searched everywhere not met. They also reported to the police. Until semalem papi Contacting him also no development of the case.."

"Why did papi just say to Kimy?.."

"But don't want to make you sad, baby. You just healed.."

What really happened. Why do the people I love go so mysteriously. Aunt siska.

"They can't come at your engagement, baby.."

"Let's just tell papi early. We can postpone the show pi first.."

"No dear, Tristan wants this event to be fast-paced. Papi's sure this is best for you.." I just nodded in response to the words of the papi.

The day felt so fast. There's a lot going on in my life. Even until I was pinned down, it felt like I still could not believe everything I had before was slowly lost one by one. Happiness, career, love, popularity, all are lost in the earth. Now I'm just a Kimy, living in solitude, living in a golden cage. Is there any hope of happiness for me.

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