IT'S NOT MY FAULT TO LOVE YOU
Traumatizing

I went down the stairs to the dining table, behind me was Tristan following me. It's like a newlywed isn't it. I saw that Papi was already at the dinner table reading a business magazine while waiting for me.

Hearing my footsteps made Papi look towards us. Papi smiled happily to see us together.

"Morning pi.."

"Bag darling.. Morning for Tristan.."

"eehmmm. Morning.." replied Tristan with a slight throb.

"When did you come, why didn't I know?.."

"I came in the middle of the night. I'm sorry I came straight here without notice." replied the man looking awkward.

I saw Papi chuckle "Please son Tristan don't be formal like this. I was awkward too. We will soon be family. Call me papi like Kimy called me.."

Tristan was a little surprised "Sorry I'm not used to it yet.."

"You can call me om, be more familiar. Maybe papi's call made you awkward.." Tristan did not answer he just nodded.

"You didn't bring a change of clothes? You can wear my clothes if you want. Kimy you should pay more attention to your future husband.." I didn't answer, I just rolled my eyeballs lazy.

"No, thank you. Dony's coming to bring me a shirt. I'm not going to the office today.." Papi nodded in understanding and the three of us had breakfast quietly without any meaningful chatter. But suddenly papi said something that made me and Tristan both surprised. "When are you going to propose to Kimy?.."

Tristan and I immediately stopped our chewing activity. "Pi's.."

"Why dear, is there something wrong? Wasn't it before the wedding that the men had to come here to propose to you. Right, Tristan, am I wrong?.."

"Pi, Kimy told you.."

"Fastly." replied Tristan briefly, as soon as I turned to the man.

"alright. I'll wait for that day. All right, you guys continue the breakfast. Papi has to go to the office.." Papi prepares to leave, before leaving he kisses me on the forehead and pats Tristan on the shoulder.

After the papi disappeared, I looked at Tristan with a look of killing me. Tristan didn't care about me, but he continued his breakfast leisurely.

"Why did you say that to me, papi?.."

Tristan didn't answer and it pissed me off "Heyy.."

Tristan turned to me "Say what do you mean?.."

"Why did you say you were coming to propose?.."

"Wouldn't it be.."

I gulped my saliva "You know coming to propose means you didn't come alone. You should come with your family. Youunderstand?.."

"Yes." she replied casually.

"Do you have a family?.."

Tristan looked at me. "Of course I have. I came out of the rock.."

I really don't understand this guy's mind. Which family he meant. What is Nek Inah? Or Dony and Mario? Or maybe... I shook my head rejecting that possibility.

"Don't think shit. Everything is set. You take it easy, baby." she said, looking me in the eye.

I turned my gaze "Then why don't you go to the office now. You don't intend to be in this house all day, do you?.."

"I even intend to move here.."

"What!!! Don'tcrazy. We're not married, what people say.."

"behold what people are, have we not lived together before.."

"it's different Tristan, it's different. That's when you held me in your house. But it's in my house and there's a papi.."

"Then let's just say that now you're the one who kept me.."

"Gilaaa.." I shouted, I saw Inah who was in the kitchen until he glanced at me because of my high voice.

I stood up and pulled Tristan's hand, I took the man to the room. Only there's the safest place to talk to this one creature.

"Why did you take me to my room?.."

"I don't want our conversation heard by others.."

"What do you want to talk about?.." Tristan walked slowly towards me. His eyes look so deep. I think I want to run. I can't see those eyes. I'm afraid I'll get entangled again in her charms.

"Stop there..."

Tristan stop. She clasped her hands and continued to look at me.

"I don't want you to stay here before the wedding. I want to spend time with you before I become your wife. Please please.."

"All right.." Quickly answer.

"That means get out of here.."

"Who said I was leaving today. I told you I'm not going to the office today. I want to spend this day with you. I miss you.." somehow, right now Tristan's hand is on my waist. It all happened so fast. Our bodies are stuck together. I felt his breath hit my face.

I just kept quiet, not daring to raise my face to look at her. But his hand pulled my chin to look at him. Slowly the hand caressed my lips with a slow motion. And damn it I closed my eyes, enjoying the touch of that crazy guy.

Slowly her lips kissed my lips gently and I felt like I was floating. Why can I enjoy this? I don't know.

Tristan continued to kiss my lips, curl her tongue on my tongue and slowly her steps led me to the basket. The man laid me down and locked me up.

"Mkhmmm.." I moaned as Tristan sucked my lips. I opened my eyes and I realized that our position was very intimate at this time. Tristan took off her kiss, but she wanted to kiss me again.

"Don't." I whispered slowly.

"Why?.."

"We're not married yet.." Answer me origin, the important thing is I have a reason to refuse it.

Tristan chuckled "Didn't we do it a lot.."

"I'm scared.."

"Sst... Close your eyes.."

I follow the man, I close my eyes. I'm enjoying Tristan's kiss again this time. As she continued to fondle me, suddenly a shadow as she hit me appeared in my memories. The kick in my body, in my stomach, even I could still feel what the pain was like. My breath was tight, my tears were soaking in my cheeks, and I felt a great fear, I was confused as to what I was doing. I've never felt this way before.

"Please, no, I'm afraid, don't hit me.." Tristan stopped, she looked at me who was crying with her eyes closed.

"Kimy, open your eyes. I'm not gonna hurt you. Kimy.." I opened my eyes, and I pushed him. I hugged my own body. I fear. My body trembles. Cold sweat soaked my body. "sad you're fine.."

"Please don't hit me.."

"No kimy, I won't.."

I'm getting my body back. My body was so limp, it felt unable to move. My chest is so tight. My vision was so blurry and afterwards, just dark and dark, I saw nothing.

Tristan pov's

I was so scared to see my girl close her eyes and unconscious. Not this one. What happened, what happened. Why is it that when he accepts my touch, his reaction is like that. Why is she afraid of me, why does she think I'm going to hurt her. Instantly I hugged that helpless limp body.

I reached into my pants pocket and I called my personal doctor. The doctor treated Kimy in the hospital. Moments before the doctor arrived, Tony had already arrived. I told him everything and he looked confused and anxious.

Two hours after Kimy passed out. I'm still sitting next to Kimy. Look at the girl who still closed her eyes. My heart is so broken. I just closed my eyes for a second, and felt what Kimy was feeling.

An hour ago the doctor came. He checked Kimy's situation. The girl was traumatized by the torture I inflicted on her. The doctor also showed me a scar on Kimy's back waist as a result of my actions. Doctors say that trauma can only be cured by the patient's feelings.

Don't let him get hurt again, it will take time to remove the trauma. Depending on the patient's condition. You have to keep entertaining him. As long as he's scared when you touch him, it means his trauma hasn't gone away.

The doctor's words continued to linger in my brain. Kimy's scar and everything about the girl made me feel a deep pain.

"I'm sorry.." I kept holding my girl's hand. My woman, I won't let you go. I promise to always keep you, to love you. My life will be the bet.

"Boss.."

"I'll accompany Kimy until he recovers. You set everything in the office." I replied with a nod by Dony. Right now I don't care about anything. Only this weak girl in front of me was on my mind. Before, work was my world. Now I don't care. My world is in front of my eyes. I wouldn't be able to lose him because of my bad deeds. God is my law now, I'm willing.

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