Love In Silent's
Hope

The morning had gone and the sun had disappeared and was no longer shining, this silent night I sat alone gazing at the beautiful moon in the darkness of the night, if a quiet night like this could talk maybe I wouldn't be lonely by myself. the loyalty I have will never fade by time and this longing for him will never cease because this love is infinite by time, perhaps there will be no one else but him who can fill this void again, as a river that is dry and not the slightest water waiting for the rain that falls from the sky to wet the ground, once I was alone with no one to call me.

now I finally realize that he has left me here alone, is there a story of my love that like before will repeat itself, this heart cannot lie if it is only hajunlah that I love and I will always remember in the heart.

how much I love her with all my heart, and how much I love her more than she knows, I still want to be happy with her every moment with me, like my promise to him and I will never be able to deny it, then I will always be around him and I will always accompany his day.

but all those promises ran aground when that woman was present between the two of us, why did all this have to happen to me, I still can't believe that she was double to that woman, should I leave this world so that she can live happily with that woman and so that I can forget her completely.

I don't know how long I have to keep remembering him, and when that happens I can just keep quiet and hold on to this million yearning that keeps calling his name every night, I want him to come and be in my dreams because I miss him so much, even if it's just a dream or an illusion can it all happen ? I don't know if I don't know myself either.

and maybe time will answer the meeting of me and him, because until now I am still here, my heart does not move at all even though my body has gone far from him.

and the shadow will always rest on my heart even though I have closed my eyes from all my eyes, and perhaps when I look back at both eyes, I'm sure there must still be a love of sincerity that flows gently, if I could be fairer to her and her love, then I want to let my life be like this, because my love's destiny has to be like this, it's you and he's not me who wants it, then why should you let go of me and choose him who only comes and damages our relationship like a pest who comes to destroy crops.

life is sometimes very difficult to guess where to take my destiny and where to go, if all the plans go as they are, although it will not be easy to survive, I will still refuse to lose the situation, even though no one will guarantee me here, tomorrow I will definitely still see the sun and hope will not die, because I believe that even in the dark the light will light up and hope will surely be there.

as long as the rope of hope is bound in the heart there will be no way I will stop wading through the swiftness of this life.

for now I have come to realize that love can be present at any time unnoticed and slowly but surely pervaded in my soul, had this love never happened, there will probably be no tears flowing and a painful heart hurting.

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I do not feel the time goes so fast that I did not realize it had been more than three months I settled in this city, my daily life is currently selling herbal medicine in the market every morning, every morning, with the state of my stomach that began to look clearly enlarged due to his age that has entered 4 months and 5 months of road, not one bit reduce my passion peddling herbal medicine around the market until it runs out, sometimes people buy my watch just because they feel sorry when they see me, but not infrequently also some people who have become loyal customers I buy herbal medicine that I make every day, but not infrequently also some people who have become loyal customers I buy herbal medicine that I make every day, no wonder that the herbs that I sell every morning are always used up in the assault of my customers.studying and practicing the knowledge of herbs that I get from my grandmother is not as easy as turning the palm of the hand, it took a long process for me to be able to mimic the same taste and aroma as the legacy of my late grandmother, although my efforts were not in vain, because now I have found many of my customers in the market, and the plan is I still raise funds to pioneer a simple store or stall for the herbal medicine business that I have made.

"alon alon zinc sink, mewele lunyu ntesan udan !" said one of the market traders who tried to greet me

"yes ma'am !"I said to destroy it

"sampeyan iriku wong wes meteng gede lha yo mbok ng umh bae ora rang dodol jamu ider koyo ngunu !"rejoicing

*you are still pregnant and your stomach is also enlarged why not just at home, do not need to sell herbal medicine around like that !

"can't be ma'am ! I still have to work to save my labor costs later !"

"ora's worried about your baby mbok mko kenpo kenpo pie !"

*are you not worried about your baby, afraid of what happens later !

"god is safe !" repay me

"lha bojomu neng ndi tah nduk ?!"

*wasn't it "wes blonde zuine nang kene nduk ?"

*how long have you been here son !

where is your husband, son ?!

as soon as I fell silent and could not reply to the words of the mother, now all I could do was smile faintly at her, but amazingly the mother immediately knew even though I did not say anything and just expressed with a look at my face.he could immediately guess that I had divorced my husband, indeed, the words of people about Javanese people in the village are true, most people in the village are more sensitive and very sensitive to the feelings of the heart or the life of others.The proof is now that I have just felt it, I have just felt it, I met my mother for the first time and just a few minutes I had just talked to her but it felt like she had known me for a year when we were chatting. although I am not good at speaking Javanese, but I can already interpret if someone talks to me even though the pronunciation is still quite low, too, but a little bit I can for easy vocabulary.