Love In Silent's
Emailing

when night began to cover the earth, everyone seemed to have fallen asleep, clearly visible when Miranda walked towards the living room to immediately close the curtains while trying to turn off the lights. both eyes moved to check the situation around him that had looked very quiet, the door to the house was closed and the lights were also turned off, it seems that now his house is still visible light, immediately after that Miranda immediately pulled the window curtains in his living room and turned off the lights, immediately the village became just as dark and quiet.

it was fortunate that the peaceful life in this village made Miranda feel very comfortable with her current state, the hospitality of each person there was able to eliminate the longing when she began to remember her past while with her ex-husband there. in this village Miranda can also be herself and is free to do whatever she wants without any fear and confusion.

when Miranda had laid her body on the mattress and was about to close her eyes, suddenly her phone rang continuously, suddenly there was a chain message landed on her phone, he said, as if you do not want to be ignored the notification continues to sound so that Miranda also feels curious. with both eyes still closed, Miranda began to look for the phone that was on the table beside her bed by fumbling, after his hand managed to get what he was looking for he just turned on the phone and saw in the status bar there were 20 incoming messages from his email, confused at last Miranda decided to open the email message, but when he opened it spontaneously both eyes immediately wide and his face immediately reddish, he was so irritated when he saw Min sera suddenly disturb him again by deliberately sending a very indecent message to him.

Whether what wind arrived brought bad news to him and why the ignorance still happened even though he had gone to succumb to the situation, he said, miranda immediately threw her phone not far from her and covered her body with a thick blanket.

the next day Miranda woke up from her sleep and she looked back at her phone, even though she knew who had emailed her that night, but curiosity again arose in his heart he immediately grabbed his phone back and checked in detail what messages had been sent by min sera, he said, there has not been a minute seen Miranda's face is wrinkled and her eyes began to glass, glass, it turned out that last night was silent min sera sent some videos of her with hajun from starting to make love until the moment they both had intercourse, all he sent was very complete with the intention to hurt Miranda, instantly miranda heart was again broken to pieces and maybe even the destruction this time was worse than that time, she felt jealous and hurt when she saw her husband who had lived a friendly and very passionate while together with min sera.

miranda tried to harbour and hide the feeling of tightness and pain that at that time he was feeling by still intending to sell in the market like a normal day, as usual, but still there was sadness among the sweet smile that he threw to the people around him, when Yusuf silently watched Miranda from a distance, he felt that if there was something that made the woman's heart sad, slowly yusuf also ventured to approach miranda and find out what was happening to miranda.

"is it not afternoon when the tumben hasn't come home yet ?!" chirps

"a little while !" answer miranda as briefly as possible

"wait what's wrong ? jamu mbak merchandise has already sold everything !"

after returning from the market miranda leaned her body on the wooden couch behind her house where she placed all the spices she would process into herbal medicine, then suddenly Miranda pulled a book from behind the mat underneath, where she began to open it and read every handwriting she had ever written before, with a spill of tears miranda began to pick up the pen and re-write something on the empty page of the book.

my diary..

My tears remind me of you that you once filled a special place in my heart.

I try to keep forgetting you but what happened I can't really erase you from my memory, because honestly you've already become everything to me.

I can't see you and I can't hear your voice anymore, but I always try to stay fine here, a farewell is so sad and makes my heart always in pain. But if therefore you become happier and you can smile loosely, then I will try to accept it and I will make more and more effort to erase you from my memory, but unfortunately every time I want to erase your name and your face from this memory, I miss you even more and want you to return to my side as before, I long for your every struggle to win my heart and your every sweet gesture to me.

Today I have to shed my tears again, like fate and bad luck, I will never have someone like you again, for some reason only you can move my heart, as much as my tears are spilling every time I think of you, I continue to hope that you will always be happy with that woman.

My heart already knew and even got used to the feeling of loneliness that it would explode like a time bomb, it could explode at any time in an uncertain time, even so I would keep trying to hide it, she said, I don't want anyone else to think I've been dumped by a husband in a state of bunting, I don't want this child to be born he'll know that he doesn't have a good father, he said, I can't see the bad luck that's going to befall our son, so let all that suffering be my responsibility by faking your existence or removing your name from our memory because you are already my past and I also cannot possibly have you or touch you anymore