Love In Silent's
It's Not Enough to Be Here

"why .. ?" dongjun was a little stunned looking at me

"you don't have to do that dongjun, just useless you do things that will be useless !"

"what do you mean it's just a waste !?"

"because the one who fired me directly was the ceo sir and not the manager sir, but the ceo sir who fired me directly !"

"what !! but how can ?"

"because he wanted me out of his company, it was an absolute decision he gave, you will never be able to sue him again !"

***

today and this afternoon I walked out of the office with quite a deep heartache, the problem of my heartache is not because I was fired from the daehyun noodle company or because of a great fight between me and mas hajun, this pain actually arises due to my own actions.

"how many times have you wiped your tears, son ?" suddenly I heard a voice that sounded so familiar in my ears, that voice I missed so much in my heart, but when I looked around me, no one asked me to talk or look at me.

"let it flow !" again the voice was heard in my ear, but when I looked at all the passengers on the bus and then I noticed one by one the people who were sitting or standing, there was still no owner of the voice. when I got off the bus, there came a teenager who rushed and hit my body quite hard, and what annoyed me the most, he did not care about me and just ran away.

"you're okay ?" said a woman behind me

"yes I'm fine, thank you !"

"same, next time you have to be careful when getting off the bus !"

"yes I will definitely be careful next time !"

"yes well, then I go !"

"again thanks !"

luckily there was this lady who was holding my arm so tight that I didn't fall down from the bus.

when I got home I immediately moved all my stuff and clothes to another room, maybe for a while I could not one more room with mas hajun, he said, I know what he's feeling right now, he must hate me so much that he lied to him and pretended to work for another company, moreover, because of the photo and false news about the photo must have made him not want to see my face again. in an atmosphere of silence that afternoon, my phone rang and broke the quiet atmosphere inside the house.

"hello !"

"mira !"

"what's up !?"

"are you okay ?"

"i'm fine !"

"where are you now ?"

"i'm at home !"

"you do not do the thing .. "

"just relax, I'm a pretty strong person facing something like this !"

"thankfully then, I was worried that you would be reckless about doing something dangerous !"

"just getting fired from work is not a problem that weighs too much on me !"

"you're telling the truth mira !"

"yes "

"thank God, now that I'm really relieved to hear it, mira I want to talk to you !"

"yes, just say it !"

"i can't .. "

"meet me at namsan tower now, I will wait for you until you come !" tuut. dongjun just turned off his call.

"when I can't . why does he always insist if he wants to meet me.. !"

I had to get out of the house to get to the location he was talking about. The time it took me to get to Namsan tower was not long, enough with public transportation I only needed 15 minutes to get to the location. yet I deliberately sat and pondered at the bus stop until the time I wanted. Once I got there I went back to check the message from dongjun and saw his current position in his last photo post.

"mira !" yelled dongjun while waving his hand

"oh that's him !"

"finally you came too, I thought you no longer wanted to see me !"

"to be honest I am, I want to keep my distance from anyone right now, including you !" I murmured in my heart

"actually what do you want to talk to me about ?" I said to the point

"i'm worried about you mira !"

"i'm fine, you don't have to worry about me dongjun !"

"but what about your earnings later, after you're fired today ?"

"i can find another job, you take it easy !"

"i'll help you find another job !"

"no need .. I can find it myself !"

"mira I want to help you !"

"i can with my own efforts, you've helped me too much dongjun, and I don't want to have a debt of gratitude anymore with you !"

"debt?! . so all this time you've thought of it as a debt of gratitude ?!" it seems like this time I managed to make dongjun a little angry, there was no other choice but to make him feel hate for me in this way, because I did want him to stay away from me with his own instincts.

"why ! why do you always reject my good intentions mira !"

"because I don't like it !"

"what ?!!"

"i don't like your attitude of continuing to do good to me. I'm sick of it !"

"wait .. mira .. Where are you going ?"

"i want to go home !"

"but I'm not done talking mira !"

"there's nothing to talk about dongjun anymore, our relationship is quite up here, I don't want to see you anymore !"

then I left Dongjun at namsan tower with a broken feeling, I honestly did not want to end it this way, but he always did good even though I had hurt him repeatedly.

"pardon me dongjun, I hope you can find a woman who is much better than me !" I can't seem to look back and stare at Dongjun's face right now, though I'm wondering what he's reacting to.

"why is it so hard to convince your heart that you would continue to be by my side and look at me with love in your eyes. Even if you leave even if I don't, you will let go .. tinggu I mira .. I will definitely get your heart back soon, because our relationship will not be enough if it gets here !" said dongjun while looking at miranda who slowly disappeared from his eyes.

***

after returning from the namsan tower I then sat quietly and contemplated in the courtyard of my house, until now mas hajun has not been seen coming home, either, though usually he must have gone home before Maghrib arrived, maybe after the incident this afternoon he was lazy to go home and meet me, he said, it feels very impossible if I contact him after our quarrel, but contacting the secretary kang also has no reply.