Love In Silent's
The End of Patience

My day was a struggle for me, and every dream in my sleep was painful.

If all this had happened to you, how would you have responded to it, and whether you could have held it in the way that I am doing right now.

If this crazy day were yours and if you were to break like me, would you know all the pain that filled my heart would gather at the point where my heart would explode.

How much I want you, yet you still don't care and keep turning your face away from me. If I were you then I would only love this me and there was no way I would waste such sincere feelings in exchange for a woman who only disguised a sexy body. For some reason my heart endlessly repeated over and over again kept falling to the ground like this, I was afraid of everyone surrounding me and as if looking at me with a strange feeling, I was afraid, they all said that you would be happy when you fell in love with me, then who said that ??

strangely I know only one love that always casts me repeatedly, but I still faithfully wait for it and take my heart again for me to give you, yes, love that looks at you from behind and never looks from the front.

I know you have answered my feelings, I also know the meaning of your answer without you having to answer it, but I always pretend not to know and continue to linger with the comfort zone that I created myself. If everything seems to me on purpose, do you know how I am at the end of the day?, do you know how many tears continue to sag and wet my eyes because of you ?, I can't even sleep or swallow anything because of your behavior, do you know that I become more broken when I see you like this, I feel like I'm dying in the middle of your happiness.

Because even though I know you're looking somewhere else, so great is my feeling for you that I myself do not think that I can survive until this second in order to be able to maintain you and do not want to let go of you with other women.

***

December almost greeted me back at the end of this year, and now that my pregnancy has turned 3 months old, nausea vomiting should not be so felt anymore for me, but somehow it feels like I'm always nauseous until it hurts in my gallbladder. Every night I could not fall asleep properly, I had to watch my husband making out with other women and this ear always heard ******* every night that makes me feel more and more sick of living in this house, does not his vengeance feel so cruel that he could fuck another woman and not me as his legal wife, he said, I know what he's doing is just copying what he sees from me, but the accident that night I never felt it even until this moment my heart continued to feel uneasy because there was something a little stuck from the incident that night.

You are so close to me that our distance is even a door to door, but the close distance actually makes us so far away that I can't see you anymore.

Even if I never dreamed of someone like you who is now in front of me, it does not mean that I do not miss you anymore, this mouth always says do not hurt me and do not approach me, it does not mean that I do not miss you anymore, but this heart always screams to hold your body, my frozen heart can not hold you anymore, flowers falling to the ground accompany every sadness I experience and cover my eyes that continue to redden. If I could turn back time, I wanted to go back to that beautiful moment, like the wind that blows slowly like a love that used to keep you company and cool your heart, shut my eyes from this nightmare. But what is happening to me right now is inversely proportional to you, the nightmares that day after day have usually fallen into my deep sleep every night. If I forget you then there will be only pain and tears, right now we are in the same sky and at the same time, how much longer will I have to cry if I want to forget you, unfortunately I can't stop and continue to struggle with my inner self even I can't breathe well just thinking of you I want to love you even if you can see inside this frozen heart of mine, it will be obvious that you are only in it.

***

"did you sleep well last night ?" he said so haughty, just hearing his voice I was lazy to just look at him especially if I had to wait for him to speak, finally I directly faced the direction behind him to avoid face to face with the woman.

"have been these few days hajun kept whining to me .. he always asked me to satisfy .. ups ! sorry if it offended you in the morning !"hearing him chatter like that it felt like I wanted to immediately land my hand right on his sharp lips.

"but what if the long hajun will be more comfortable with me, think do you want to give your husband to me ?!" it turned out that he was deliberately showing off in front of me with the intention of just making me angry.

"you must be upset .. !" I remained silent and refused to reply to her words

"sphere ..!! what are you doing there ?"mas hajun

"i'm just saying hello to someone here a little !" saut min sera

"you better not bother the woman, leave her alone and lament her guilt !" hearing the words of mas hajun I turned my head and stared intently at the two men.

"wear this jacket, the air is getting colder why you're so stupid to wear very revealing clothes like this!" I said as I put the thick jacket on the body of min sera and stared intently at her, at once she could not dwell anymore with just a few words that I said.