Love In Silent's
Grandma's departure

even my stomach would no longer swallow my ego, a single word of my current state, an intermediate dilemma that is more ego-centered or entrapped, and both are equally important.

"sure you do not want to eat?, even though I have ordered a lot of food !! there are Tteokbokki, gimbab, Jajangmyeon, chicken soup, until there is a boneless chicken claw, sure you still do not want ?!"

I immediately swallowed

"nothing, just this time, I will forgive him !!"

When I came out of the room at once the professor's face looked happy and smiled at me, as if he was very satisfied because I gave in for a meal.

***

That night I couldn't sleep, my mind kept on overshadowing the events of today, I also kept thinking about the condition of grandmother in the village, I was afraid, as long as I disappeared these few days, I was afraid, grandmother's health condition is declining.

And lucky the next day, I will go home to Indonesia, and I really hope that grandma will be fine, she will be happy when she sees me coming home healthy and well.

***

long time I did not go home and tell grandma it turns out grandma fell sick, after I was home, grandma lying in the hospital, Grandma, mbok said siti grandma did not want to eat for 3 days and three nights, even though she wanted to eat was just a mouthful of rice that grandma swallowed.My heart was sad and I could not resist crying, I could not help but cry, when I saw the condition of the grandmother who was getting thinner.the day after I returned home grandma had not been conscious, either, until the night Grandma began to realize and she was very happy to see me coming home safely without any injuries.

at first I thought that grandma would get well soon because grandma could laugh out loud, but I was wrong!, I did not think that that night was my last moment with grandma.

until the dawn of the morning dawn with my grandmother asked me to teach nearby, my grandmother wanted me to read her a special Koran for the surah yasin.

I read it so solemnly and lived every reading I read, that it did not feel like the sun had soared high at the eastern end.

when I closed the mushaf, then kissed Grandma's hand, I was immediately shocked by Grandma's already cold body temperature, just then I tried to calm down and tried to keep waking the pale-looking grandmother lying on the bed.

"nek ... grandma ...! " i said as I continued to wake my grandmother.

once, twice, and many times I tried, but my grandmother's body was still motionless, with fear mixed with worry I began to examine her breath and pulse, she said, but I still could not believe that dawn was the moment of my relationship with my grandmother for the last time, when my tears broke, as soon as I realized that my grandmother was dead.

"granny !! "say me while crying bitterly

if I hadn't disappeared back then, if I could have escaped back then, maybe grandma was still beside me at the moment.

" mya !! "call om aji who looks hastily approached the grandmother

"why are you crying ? and why are you quiet ?" om aji shakes

"grandmother om .. !! "

"mom why mir ?"

"grandma has no om !! " say I'm stamped with a brick

at that moment, that minute, that second we cried sitting on my grandmother's bed, only tears could describe our mood, she said, for us grandma is the only parent figure we have.

after returning from the funeral home, the grandmother was immediately processed by the funeral and assisted by the residents.

many people have sympathy for us.

"mya !! " call om aji with a weak tone

"om hope you can make Grandma's departure !! do not cry his departure, let grandma calm there, if you miss sending prayers for her, may grandma be received all her good deeds there !! " said om aji to me.

***

after my grandmother's funeral, somehow the sky always seemed to collapse on our day which was still deeply saddened.

the large and spacious house, now no longer full of laughter and full of color, he said, all looks very gloomy in every corner of the room is still clearly visible memories of me with my late grandmother and mother.

in the corner of the room, I saw an old picture frame that was very old and worn out, in one frame it was seen an image that showed a very happy and harmonious family, with all the staff still complete.

"grandmother.. !! why did grandma leave ?" I said I couldn't hold back my crying

"name ... ! miranda has not been happy and has not had time to forget the departure of mira's parents, why did grandma follow them ?"

"mira can't even make Grandma happy !! mira can only trouble grandma, and now mira is alone again like she used to be !!"

after the departure of grandmother, then in the afterlife om aji who also has returned to go on state duties. now in the large and spacious house it is only the three of us, who live, although there are still tarman sir and mbok siti who accompanied us, but about the taste still there is something that stuck in our hearts.

the night again shrouded the silence of our home, never to be heard again by my granny's loud voice calling us to dinner together.

that night I was lying in the room looking at the portrait of a smiling grandmother who was happily looking at me. lapse some time later mbok siti came knocking on my room door.

"non?!. Dinner has been made at the dining table, let's not eat first !! " invite mbok siti

"don't eat it later ! I'm not hungry yet !!"

"oh yes it is !"

not that this heart did not let grandma go at that moment, but this heart was still not ready to accept the reality that was so bitter I think, I have not had time to apologize for the incident I did at that time, why easily grandma went to leave me alone again like this, if it was her destiny, after all, why the time that God had set so quickly took away grandmother.

at exactly 00:00 midnight, when the second hand and the minute hand meet at one point, then the world immediately seems to hold its breath for a moment.

hard to believe at that time I took a deep breath and exhaled slowly while hoping to God that tomorrow would feel more pleasant, like the snow that had just fallen, like tomorrow, turning it all back and it will be a new day for me. All my sadness, disappointment, anger and indiscretions, suddenly disappeared along with the loss of dreams in my sleep, it disappeared without a trace as soon as morning began to turn back.