Love In Silent's
Loving You In Silence

"sorry .. "

for a moment I went back into silence thinking about what I had to say, so that I could know if he was really expressing his heart or this time he was just playing with my feelings again.

"but it seems I can't prof !!"say me with a straightforward tone

"why ? is there anything less than me ??or is there a word that offends your heart !!"

"no!, honestly I am very happy when you express your feelings to me, but it feels like my heart has not been able to accept you !!"

"what makes your heart unable to accept me mira ?"

"i don't know myself !"

"just a little please tell me, if I just want to know, if the reason is very heavy for you, then I promise you mira, I promise you, I will not disturb your life anymore even I will completely disappear from your sight !!" he said with both eyes that had glazed over

"excuse me prof . but I can't say it !!"say me

looks very disappointed face is staring at me at this time, not strong I see it again, finally I decided to immediately move away.

then I go first prof and at once I apologize ..! "

the pain was very painful, a pain that was not even strong to hold it in the heart, although heavy, I finally left it, but I had not had time to step away from it, yet, instantly I heard the professor say a beautiful sentence and touched the bottom of my heart, and it was that sentence that made me turn back towards him, he said, looking back at him and holding back my rebellious steps wanted to leave that place immediately.

"actually I want you, though,

but I choose to be quiet .actually I have been in love with you for a long time,

but I choose to be quiet.I actually want to say .. if I want to always be next to you, but I choose to be quiet .. !"

"i choose to be silent, and hold this feeling deep within. I let time lead me towards you, or even away from you .. I allow this heart to interpret and understand what it is like to love you in silence. I choose silence, to ask you in my prayer .but my god never answered my prayer, it was your God who led me to go so far . until I knew what this love meant.. and that love comes through you !"

there was a sobbing sound of the professor when he said that sentence, I immediately turned and looked at his face that was wet with tears, emanating from his eyes if he was really sincere in saying all his words, he said, and subconsciously I also felt what he was feeling right now, as soon as I heard the name of God from him, my tears were dripping by themselves, she said, it was as if my heart had been knocked hard by that word, for some reason I felt so happy, when I heard him say the name of my god before me, suddenly I also shed tears when I saw him cry sobbing while looking at me who was standing not far from him.

my heart was filled with a few words that came out of the professor's words at that time, my tears kept dripping out as soon as I heard the beautiful words I had just heard..

where did he know it all . and since when did he start to know my god, that's the question that comes to my mind right now.

"when did you ..?!! " say I'm stamped with a brick

"since I knew your god, I have come to know that love is actually very beautiful to feel, if it is based on our love for its owner ..!! " teacher Hajun said with tears in his eyes, but he still did not look at me, his gaze was still straight down while trying to hold back his tears that continued to fall.

both eyes until reddened because so many tears came out of the fertilizer, had several times the professor turned his face to wipe the tears, he said, but it is very clear from his face that stored a million words that he actually wanted to convey to me, but he continued to hold it until the coming out were tears.

the distance we stood not far away was probably only about 7 steps away, but it felt like getting close to each other, it was very difficult and we couldn't at all, even if it was just one step.

"pardon me, for being able to express the contents of my heart that I have long been silent, after so long the time we have been together .. today I can only strengthen my feelings to express it in front of you, but trust me mira ! if what I say is true .. now I have converted, but whether or not you accept me is in your hands, I won't force you to accept me just because I've become a convert ..!"unambiguously

after saying his last word, the professor suddenly stepped away and left me with a face filled with sadness.

I'm not good enough at saying everything about feelings.that's why I still love him in silence, I feel restless if he suddenly disappears, I'm restless if he dodges and keeps his distance, he said, but not for today ..

with a limp step I ran after him with tears in my eyes, hoping that God would still hear my prayer, may he be the only person I love and will always be by my side until death do us part.

until I felt very close to him, I extended this hand and I grabbed his sleeve.

our eyes were intertwined again, the more tears flowed from both our eyes, for a moment I just stood still and tried to hold back my tears.

"my God has led you to his love .. then .. why should I, who is only a creature of his creation, reject the love of his fellow beings to walk together, take love from him !! " say me while still sobbing

that second also after I said that sentence, there was a great sense of relief in this heart.

"i know you can't possibly deny what you just said to me !! " said the professor crying as he looked at me happily.

after a long separation, many months, this is the answer to my prayer during this time, thank God you sent me a guardian of the heart, you found us again in a state of conviction, and these happy tears may always be tears of happiness in every inch of my life.