Love In Silent's
Disclosing

the heat stroke of the afternoon sun did not in the least break the intention of the three of us to go to our hometown, whether this is a coincidence or a deliberate factor, suddenly arrived in the middle of the road, when I had just arrived at the station, not far from where I was standing, I saw that there was professor Hajun who was sitting quietly in a long chair, in view of the look on his face, it seemed like he was waiting for someone to get off the train, this time maybe I was the only one to see him, and that was a good thing for me, I also decided to pass by without expecting him to see me, or just say hello. Lucky my destination train came at the right time, I went up and immediately looked for our seats.

Since that day, my feelings for her have completely disappeared, and there may be only pain left in this heart.

the journey this time was so sad for us, how not?, the reality is we have to leave the house not to return, but leave for eternity, although it is heavy heart if we have to give up so many memories that we have to leave behind.

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noisy and full of swear words that I heard from the contents of my head, whether it was me, or the other me, they were all angry and berating and even cursing myself. all emotions were stirring in my brain and boiling in my heart, but on the other hand, in the depths of my heart, I felt a turbulent sadness and wanted to rebel out, it was necessary if I also said a word of thanks to myself, because I knew without a strong soul, that I was not, this body of mine will not be able to go this far, so no matter how great my sacrifice is at the moment, it will be, I will always believe that one day I will get what God has promised me, even though this heart grimaces in pain, but I tried to cover it up and bandage it so that no one could hear or see me. I could only look weak in front of my own eyes and not to anyone else, not even my own family, I fear that my weakness will be my weakness.

no sacrifice in vain, will achieve the happiness of each in the time that God has willed, and I firmly believe in it.

***

that afternoon the sky jogja looks very beautiful orange-colored clouds that appear at the end of the sky, as well as gentle breeze gusts further add to the atmosphere of the afternoon.

just as the king of the day had sunk, I had arrived at my grandmother's house, looking very happy and very happy when I saw my sister and I came back to her house.

"assalamualaikum tube !!"I said hello when I entered Grandma's house

"whalaikumsalam !!" grandma is excited

"sorry, Grandma mira came home and said no more with grandma !!"

"yes no matter what, grandma is very happy to see granddaughter come home again !!"said grandma

as usual after we rested in our rooms.

for a moment just to relax the muscle muscles of our body after a long day of travel.

after finishing performing the prayer service, my grandmother immediately invited us to eat dinner together. After finishing dinner I had a conversation with my grandmother long enough.

"no one wants Miranda to talk to grandma !!"I said a little scared

"yes ..??"

"it's about the reason why Mira came back to grandma's house !"

"there really must be a reason if you come back to Grandma's house ??"said grandma

I shook slowly

there was a bit of fear in my heart to tell the truth, but there was no other choice, other than that I had to be honest with my grandmother.

"mm .mu .. From now on miranda will live in the same grandma !!"

"so that's not good news, grandma is happy if you want to accompany grandma in the village !!"

"actually there's another reason grandma !"

"what reason ??"

"reason..why do I choose to live in the same village grandma ??"

"what ?"

"yes .. that.. actually ..!!"

"don't you say it's the same grandma !!"

"maafin mira nek, miranda .. forced to sell father's house same capital in the city !!"I said scared

for fear of granny being angry I immediately lowered my head while holding back the cry, as strong as I could.

and for a moment Grandma was just silent when she heard my statement earlier, when I was afraid, I suddenly felt the caress of a soft hand rubbing my hood.

"now this grandmother is old .. and grandchildren are also grown up .. grandmother will appreciate whatever your decision, as long as it is the best for the three of you, as long as it is the best for the three of you, although grandmothers know that parents' homes are not appropriate to be sold for granted, an action is a reflection of personality, a, therefore the actions you take reflect a child who does not want to appreciate the treasure given by his parents !!"granny's reprimand is slow

immediately I was made to cry bitterly while listening to the words from my grandmother, I realized that my actions, very bad and even very reckless, were, I know that maybe grandma was very angry with me when I said that, but grandma tried to hold back her anger and just gave me a word that made me very offended and full.

as an ungrateful child to parents, at this time I am very embarrassed if I have to look face to face with grandma.

"pardon miranda nek . mi. miranda is indeed a bad child, mira dared to take that decision without the knowledge of the grandmother first !!"I said as I cried bitterly in Grandma's lap.

"yes you are wrong, honestly grandma feels very disappointed with you!, why do you dare to sell your own parents' house, without any approval from the family!!, why do you want to sell your parents' house !!, what did your grandmother think of you all this time ?!!"said grandma while holding back tears

"iya miranda confesses to being wrong ! mira has run out of sense, Miranda has been living alone for too long, mira is no longer strong anymore ! miranda is scared !!"I said as I held back my increasingly suffocating cry in the chest

"who said you live alone son, you still have your grandmother and your two sisters, we are one family !!"

"miranda apologize grandma, miranda apologize !!"

"you still have a grandmother here mira, you can contact the grandmother in the village whenever it is!"

"mira does not want to be a burden on the mind of grandma, mira just wants to look good when in front of grandma !!"