NOT PERPETRATORS
The Dilemma is Tormenting

Fania invites Arka to get into her car. As for me, Bastian, Dimas, and Rudi, still standing in front of Giant Restaurant.

I was thinking, why did Rudi make this status? Whatdoes thatmean? Dimas took the phone back from my hand. Then looked back at Rudi sharply.

"Rud, what do you mean!"

"Oh, Dimas. Don't you understand that yet?" Rudi raised one corner of his lips.

"Don't you dare fuck around, Rud! Imania is my lover. Don't expect more!"

"Bas! Can you hold this for a second?" Rudi glanced at Mas Bastian.

Mas Bastian also replaced Rudi to hold the birthday cake.

"Diema ... Dimas. You're so greedy!" Rudi put both of his palms into his pants pocket. "You've got a fiancee, keep courting Imania too? Are you not sane?"

"Rude! I'm gonna call off the engagement. So, you don't have to interfere!"

Rudi raised one corner of his lips, "You always said you would. But you never did it yourself, did you? I know, you wouldn't have the heart to call off an engagement with Nessa. You should consider carefully. If not, then you will lose Nessa in this world."

I watched Dimas's face. He instantly fell silent as Rudi said that. I think Rudi has a point, too. Dimas only said he would call off his engagement to Nessa. But until now, he never did. Then why did Rudi say, that Dimas would lose Nessa from this world?

"Dimas, I warn you. That woman has feelings. They're not puppets, which you play with all you want. They need certainty. Do not take two hearts in one room. Besides being greedy, it was selfish of his name. Don't you hang the feelings of Imania and Nessa. In the end, you can only choose one of them."

I heard every sentence Rudi said to Dimas. There's a point too. Why haven't I thought about it all this time? I only had a relationship with Dimas on the basis of love. That's not enough. I shouldn't be selfish either. However, Dimas and Nessa are still engaged. Don't let the actor's status come back to me.

"Rudi! You don't have to interfere too much about my business. Don't bother to take care of me. I know what I'm supposed to do."

"If you know what to do, why are you silent? You have to make a choice quickly."

"I've made a choice. And I only chose Immania!"

"Then why can't you decide on Nessa? Are you afraid of losing her?"

Rudi's question made Dimas silent. Dimas seemed confused to answer. It makes my mind wobble. Is ... Dimas was actually afraid of losing Nessa? I can't continue to be patient waiting for Dimas's hanging decision.

"Dimas, if you don't move fast. I'll take Immania from you, ha-ha ...!"

Rudi went back to his restaurant. While me, Dimas, and Bastian mas are still standing in front of Giant Restaurant.

"Nia, don't be influenced by Rudi, will you?" said Dimas to me.

"I want to go home" I said as I moved, trying not to respond to Dimas' words.

Dimas held my arm. "Nia, please .. listen to me. Don't be influenced by Rudi's words!"

I turned to look at him with a faint smile. "In, you don't have to worry. I'm not a person who is easily influenced."

"Thank God" said Dimas, then releasing his hand from my arm.

"However, I always consider the advice of others" I said again.

I headed to the car with Mas Bastian.

"It!" yelled Dimas without moving from his place.

I got in the car too.

"Bastian!" call Dimas to Bastian who just put an Arka birthday cake in the car.

Bastian turned to Dimas. "What else!" ask Bastian cold.

"Why did you go with Immania?"

"It's none of your business!"

Dimas also approached Bastian. "You're not trying to reconcile, are you?"

"It's none of your business either!"

Dimas's face changed emotions. He immediately blocked the collar on Bastian's neck. "Don't fuck around, Bas! I can finish you off!"

I watched them both from inside the car. Mas Bastian appears to have blocked Dimas' wrist, then removed Dimas' hand from his collar.

"You're slow! If you can't move fast, it's not just Rudi who will take Imania from you. In fact, I can also take it back from you!"

Bastian got into the car immediately. Leaving Dimas glued to where he stood. I saw Dimas' face that looked a dilemma. I don't know what he's thinking.

Mas Bastian immediately started the car, then drove the car.

"Imania, what's wrong with Dimas? Why was he angry?" ask Fania who is sitting next to Bastian.

I also told Fania about the incident.

"Oh .. So, Dimas went straight to Rudi after seeing Rudi's status? Oh, so sweet?" fania.

"What is sweet?" many wonder.

"Yes, so sweet. That means Dimas is jealous of Rudi."

"However, Rudi's words have a point as well. Dimas is still Nessa's official fiancee. And he hangs his relationship with me," I thought.

"Don't I ever tell you? Dimas just wants to play you." Bastian suddenly spoke.

"Hey, Bastian! You've been playing with Imania, too, you know? Note that!!" fania told Bastian.

On the way, Fania and Bastian argue with each other. I don't know what they're talking about. My mind suddenly continued to focus on Rudi's words. However, the word Rudi has a point. Why am I in a dilemma too?

We also rested soon.

***

That night, when Fania and Arka were asleep, Dimas sent me a message.

[Nia, what are you doing?]

I just read it, but I didn't reply. After five minutes, one message came back in.

[I know, you must still be thinking about Rudi's words this afternoon.]

Yeah, I'm still thinking about that.

[I know, I should've called off the engagement to Nessa right away. But ... There is one thing that makes me have to hold him back. If you knew that, would you still be available with me?]

The deg! Something has entered my chest. There is a curiosity that gnaws the mind. What is Dimas hiding from me?

Suddenly my phone rings. But I didn't lift it. I let the call ring many times. Until the ringing stopped.

If you know what it's like to be me. Having a relationship that still hangs his seriousness. That's suffocating. But, I know. Not that Dimas wasn't serious about being in a relationship with me. I know he loves me very much. I know she wants to marry me. However, Dimas still gave a beautiful hope that was not clear when it was fulfilled.

[Nia, if you don't pick up my phone, then I'll be desperate!] threaten her.

After reading the message, my phone rang again. And I have to lift it.

"Hello." The voice across the phone.

"Hello" I replied.

"Are you angry?"

"Why am I angry?" I asked back.

"Thank God, if not."

"Yes." Yeah."

"Nia, I'm about to break off the engagement with Nessa. But not now. I have to do it slowly."

"It's okay. Just relax," I replied while holding back the tightness in the chest.

"Nia, I can't allow you a dilemma. I seriously want to marry you."

I took a long breath. "Aren't you in a dilemma?"

"I'm not in a dilemma. I was just waiting for the best time. Please ... understand."

"alright. I always understand you." I tried to hold the pain in my chest.

"Nia, your tone sounds sad. Really .. I won't let you down."

"I believe."

I heard a rough breath. "If you believe, then you must throw away Rudi's incitement."

Hearing Dimas say that, made me laugh. Laughter without happy meaning. "Who is affected?"

"Nia, I want to see you now!"

"It's almost eleven o'clock. It's too late!"

"I can't sleep well if you keep doing this!"

"I'm doing fine. And I'm not at all incited. No need to worry about that."

"I still want to see you!"

"Can't! I'm sleepy. I'm going to sleep!"

Suddenly someone knocked on my window.

"Dimas, hello!"

"Hurry to open the window!"

Yeah, God! What ... What is Dimas ....

"Dimas! Did you call me on the way here?"

"Yes" he answered.

The window was back on. I immediately went up and opened the window curtain. Sure enough! Dimas was standing outside the window.

"Are you crazy?" I said who was still speaking softly on the phone.

"I want to sleep with you."

"Dimas, don't be reckless!"

"Hurry and open the window!"

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