NOT PERPETRATORS
Happy Nessa Road

Dimas takes Nessa to the ICU. I could only peek at it from outside the small crack in the door. Now ... Nessa is fighting her critical moment again. Several tools were placed on his body.

I don't know why .. I feel so sorry for Nessa. Twenty-five years old? Isn't her the same age as me? That means ... These are the last seconds of his life's chance.

Seeing Dimas' fear earlier and how trembling Dimas's body was while holding Nessa unconscious, it was enough to prove, that even though Dimas did not love Nessa, but ... he cares and loves her.

Actually ... I understand how difficult Dimas' position is against Nessa. He's the specialist who treated Nessa. Dimas knew what Nessa's life expectancy was going to be. Perhaps, that was why Dimas could not bear to leave her. Because in the end ... It is Ness who will go away on her own.

***

Shortly after Dimas reported Nessa, Papa and Mama Nessa came to the hospital. They were again devastated by the condition of his daughter. They also accompany Nessa who is fighting the flow of life.

Papa and Mama Nessa continue to shed tears, while sitting with her daughter. In the ICU, there are now two lives struggling. Nessa and Fania.

The sadness in my chest grew stronger. My son has gone. Fania is still in a coma. Nessa is fighting the waves of her life. I just stood outside. I don't know what else to do but pray.

"Imania," call someone.

I looked, "Rudi."

"Who else is being treated in the ICU room?"

"Missy."

"Nessa?" Rudi looked surprised. "What's going on?"

I shook my head slowly.

Suddenly Dimas opened the door of the ICU. He looked at me and said, "Come in. Nessa's looking for you."

I stared at the strange signal on Dimas's face. His eyes were red, enveloped in a clear grain that had gathered in the eye pelupuk.

"What ... Nessa all right?" my many.

"Come in, Nessa wants to tell you something" Dimas said.

I looked at Rudi for a moment, then entered. Rudi came in. In the ICU room, Wibowo, who was guarding Fania, gathered at Nessa's side.

"Imania, come here" said Nessa Lirih.

I stared at Nessa's paled face. An oxygen hose was attached in front of his nostrils. Her eyes are staring at me. I also approached him. Standing next to Nessa's father and mother.

"Missy." I stared unbearably at him.

"Remove your hand" said Nessa, raising a small amount of her hand attached to an infusion hose, from the top of the mattress.

I also put my hand close to his. Nessa immediately welcomed my soft finger. He tried to squeeze my finger, but it was quite gentle, because the energy was not strong enough to hold my hand tightly.

"Missy." Clear lights started coming down from my eyes. I was afraid something would happen to her.

"Imania" he said.

"Yes." Yeah."

Nessa gave me a sweet smile. The smile did seem very sincere and warm, but it felt suspicious in my mind. For some reason, it was like there was a mysterious strange beam of light enveloping his face.

"I'm being too selfish, huh?" he said with a smile. "Obviously Dimas just loves you. But I forced him to stay with me. Aren't I stupid?"

"Siss."

Nessa kept holding my hand. "Dimas married me only because of a promise in the past. Promise of a child I take seriously. I'm really funny, huh?"

Everyone who saw us shed tears, watched us. Including Dimas and Mr. Wibowo.

"Imania, I think with Dimas marrying me and continuing with me, he will be able to forget about you. Actuallyno. Dimas still thinks about you. I'm powerless" he said with a soft intonation. Clear threads began to slide from the corner of his eye.

"No. No more. I don't expect that anymore, Imania."

"Miss ...."

Nessa glanced at Dimas. "Dimas, come here."

Dimas immediately approached and stood next to me.

"You two fit in. I've been too selfish to create a gulf between your love. It's time .. I have to clear the abyss."

"Nessa, you need to be strong" I said, continuing to strengthen. "Isn't ... soon you're getting married? I'll give Dimas for you, "I said as I sobbed.

"Imania, if you love someone, then never give yourself up for someone else to have. If you're stupid enough to fall in love with her, then you'd be more stupid to let go. Stay with her" Nessa said with a faint smile.

Nessa took her hand off me, then grabbed Dimas's hand and put it together with mine.

"Today .. I have let go of my love. I ask the man I love the most to unite with the woman he loves the most."

"Nessa, I'm sorry ..," Dimas said as he sobbed.

"Don't .. Don't apologize to me. I'm the one who should be apologizing to you. On you. I'm sorry ...." Nessa's voice was getting louder. His eyes are getting smelly. His white face became more pale. Even his hands were starting to feel cold.

Nessa gave a small laugh, but her eyes continued to shed tears. "Currently .. I think I should leave immediately. I've been quiet seeing you guys reunite."

"What did you say ...." Dimas rubbed both sides of his wet cheeks. "You can still survive."

The atmosphere is getting worse. Moreover, her mother Nessa sobbed strongly next to me, while embracing and cupping her face onto my shoulder.

"Mrs ... Papa .. sorry Nessa, yes. Nessa has to go. You guys don't fight anymore. You guys gotta get along. Nessa wants, you guys to stay together again. Nessa sure, Papa still loves Mama, right?"

Papa Nessa who was just glued and sobbed then nodded. "Yes, papa still loves your mama. We will be together again. Nessa don't worry, do you?"

Mr. Wibowo embraces his papa Nessa. Strive strengthening.

"Mrs ... Papa ... forgive Nessa, huh? Nessa is tired. Nessa's chest has been split too often. Nessa wants to sleep well. Nessa is tired of being sick. Let Nessa go, yeah ...."

"Nessa ...," I said.

"Imania, I've ordered a wedding dress for you. Someone will deliver the dress for you. Wear it at your wedding, huh?"

"Nessa, please .. hold on. Don't talk like that."

Nessa developed a smile on her face. "May you be happy. Goodby. I'm so tired. I-I-I want to sleep nye-nyak ..," said Nessa stammering and her breathing began to wince and her eyes began to shut.

Nessa's body doesn't move anymore. The hand that held us together slowly fell. Only a few things remained that echoed in the ICU room.

Nessa's mother immediately embraced the body of the princess only wayangnya it. While Nessa's father sobbed in Wibowo's arms.

***

In front of the navel, Papa and his mother Nessa continued to sob. Dimas and I sat down in front of the tomb.

Dimas put a bouquet of lily flowers on top of Nessa's navel. "Ness .. You are a strong woman. I know exactly your fight against your illness. Now ... You won't feel pain anymore, will you? I also no longer need to cry every time I cut your chest. You can sleep well now. Be at peace with God. You ... was my first love. My childhood love" Dimas said as he wiped the water that kept breaking.

Dimas grabbed my hand. Grasping it tightly in front of Nessa's navel. "And this is Imania Saraswati. My last love. Who will keep me company until I get old. We're getting married. Thank you .. for letting me be with him. And have united our love again."

Nessa .. though Dimas loves me. But your love for her is true love. I'll be sincere whenever Dimas remembers you as his true love. Thank you so much .. for bringing us together again. I hope .. you can sleep peacefully in heaven. Goodbye, Vanessa Liliana. We all love you.

"Imania, if you love someone, then never give yourself up for someone else to have. If you're stupid enough to fall in love with her, then you'd be more stupid to let go. Stay with her."

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