NOT PERPETRATORS
Rain On Wet Earth In Heart

A white rose she was pointing at me. The white rose, the flower he first gave me. The symbol of the sanctity of love. In the exact same place as before. Nostalgia is back. Slowly, the pain slipped back. I don't want to remember any old memories. Which only further opened the wound, gaping back.

I stared at the white rose in his hand. Then I looked at the face of the man in front of me. A smile spread across his face. For a moment our eyes met each other. There's something I met there. Those eyes were hinting at something. Who suddenly entered the heart. There's a weird pounding and shakes on the chest. Consciously, the quality of the view on the white rose that is still held.

"Why keep quiet. Here, for you," he said, offering the flowers.

"A. I .. I can't."

"Why? Don't you like white roses? The symbol of our love."

I turned around, stepped towards the park bench. I sat my body on the three-meter bench. Dimas. He sat next to me, still with a white rose in his hand.

"Di, obviously this is wrong," I said as I lowered my head.

"What's wrong?"

I let out a breath. Trying to hold something that makes this chest feel tight. I turned my face, looking freely at the sky. "A. Love is beautiful. Love does not always make our life beautiful. Sometimes, love comes at the wrong time and place. Not the beauty we get, it's sadness and pain. Wrong love, it will not end beautifully. It will only make a boomerang in life. In fact, it can paint a very steep ravine. So that all the flavors were ever the meaning. It will only inflict wounds. And that love is lost in vain."

Dimas just kept quiet, listening to my words.

I looked at him. Want to say this while staring at the two eagle netra. However, I am not able to. I turned the view in either direction. "I've loved you before. In fact, I've loved you so much. But that was before. Before you leave me. It's hard to be away from you. Jealousy and suspicion continued to overshadow my thoughts. Until finally, you completely got out of my mind. Slow down .. I learned to live without you. And it's not an easy thing. I'm lonely. Until it's quiet I'm used to it, without you."

I showed you a smile covering the wound. With teary eyes, I continued my words. "You think I was ordinary then? Nah! I'm tormented. I insist on letting you go. Letting my Eagle Prince fly to achieve his dream. I knew I had to pursue my dreams, too. I haven't had the chance to achieve that dream. I must be sincere, let him live with his destiny."

She squeezed the white rose and threw it away. Both of his hands grabbed my shoulders. Facing this body to him. Unable to look at him, I looked down, slowly the clear circle dripped.

"Destiny? Who knows the fate of a person's life? Destiny is in our hands, Nia! And my destiny is to live with you!"

I tried to change my sitting position, so as not to face him. But he's got me.

"Our destiny is different, Di. We are destined for each of us. Me and Bas-"

"Stt ...." He put his index finger to my lips. "Dimas and Immania. There's nothing else. The Eagle Prince and the Goose Princess!"

"A. Can I get something from you?"

"Anything. Just don't ask me to stay away from you. I can't, Nia!"

The deg! Like reading my mind. That's what I was about to say. "A. Are you that selfish. Will you take me to the abyss of sin? I'm not that bad and mean, Di!"

"Who? Who will lead you to the abyss of sin? Me?" He raised both of his thick eyebrows, looking at me deeply.

"Are you unconscious? You hurt someone's heart. You've hurt Nessa." I take that look seriously.

"You hurt me too."

It's free to talk to him. He doesn't understand my feelings at all. He made me wallow more and more in guilt and sin. I'm standing. She stepped out of her legs, moved away, but she blocked my wrist.

"Wait on! I can't accept your excuses. Give me the most appropriate reason to stop harassing you!" Then he stood facing me. "I am also tormented by this feeling, Nia! But ... but I can't lie, that I still love you so much."

He put both his hands on my cheeks. "Don't you understand that? I know ... I know I'm guilty. Love you, wife of my own best friend. I betrayed Bastian. I am the heart! Wicked! But I can't pretend not to love you, Nia!"

"I want to be faithful, Di! Don't get me in trouble. If only I could ask, I want you to go as far away from me. I've calmed down without you. Why are you coming again? You're the one who left, so what more false hope do you want to offer?"

For a moment he looked down deeply, then raised his face again. Looking at me deeper. "Look! Comeback me. I promise to fix my mistake. Won't leave you alone anymore. Will not give you false hopes and promises of imitation again. I'll make you happy. Divorce Bastian!"

I looked at him not understanding. "You're funny!" I'm chuckling a little. "Is it that bad you want to ruin our lives? Really, my husband has mistaken you for his best friend."

His hand squeezed my cheek gently. "Gear me, Nia!"

I try to avoid his eyes.

"Gear me!"

I forced myself to look at him, but I couldn't. Highlight his eyes so keenly watching my mind that was not in need.

"Say, that you don't love me!"

I'm woken. Quiescent. Unable to respond to his request.

"Tell me the truth, Nia! Let me know what you really feel for me. Really, you've ripped me out of your heart?" His hand squeezed my cheek gently again. "Say! Lookatme!"

"I don't love you!" I said while looking down.

Slowly I felt something soft on my lips. Touching each corner of this lip slowly. Flow this heart with a warm taste. Make subtle vibrations of its own. I'm still closed. And I resigned. I have accepted the turbulent mess. This is totally insane! This self cannot be separated from the influence of his love. I'm secretly starting to enjoy it.

Slowly she removed her lips from mine. I opened these eyelids. The murmur in my chest was getting rumbling. Being around him made me forget who I was. I am a wife of people. And I have sinned. Mas Bastian's shadow woke me up. I need to get back home. Being with the hawk doctor, will only get me into trouble.

I ran away, along with drops of rain vying to get to the earth. The sound of lightning began to clap. With my worried heart. I keep running. The distance of the house that is still too far makes me want to go home more and more. The sky is getting blackened. Rain on earth, wet on heart. It was as if I understood my feelings. Uncertain.

"It!"

The doctor ran, trailing behind me. But I didn't look. He is my past, not my future!

"Nia, wait! You can get rained on!" the thrill is still chasing me.

My feet are getting tired of running. I stopped for a moment to take a breath. My body is soaked. But I have to keep running. And when my feet were about to step again, he suddenly caught my body. He hugged me from behind. Our breaths are breathless, unpretentious.

"Don't run from me, Nia. I love you!" whisper in my ear.

Rain falls on my face. It was as if trying to cover the other water that was still falling on my cheek.

He clutched my body behind him. "I can feel. You still love me, Nia. Thank you ...."

"Di, let me go!" I'm trying to make a revolt.

"No way!"

"Foolish man!"

"Better a fool than a loser. Whatever I'm gonna go through to get you again."

"You're wasting your time! I can't, Di!"

"But I can, Nia!"

"You're not sane!"

"Really! Better not be sane. Than hypocrites!"

"You're saying I'm a hypocrite?"

"I didn't say that. Are you offended?"

"Let go!"

He put his cheek to the touch of my cheek. "Didn't you feel, it's so warm."

"You're crazy!"

"How many times have you thought I was crazy?"

"Mas Bastian will kill you soon!"

"What's wrong. As long as I can feel your love, I will!"

I'm stunned again. Dimas is really desperate.

"Didn't you feel like something's stuck in your body?"

The insolent! I immediately revolted. I managed to release the hook. I turned my body to look at him with anger.

"How can a pervert like you be a doctor!"

He chuckles. "Seeing your gaze like this, makes me even more lustful."

I tried to hold back the anger that was still burning in my chest. I want to get away from him immediately. However, Dimas forced me to return to the car. I was forced to obey too. Up in the car, he took the jacket, and put it on my body.

"Wear it! Later if you get sick. There's nothing else I can fuck."

I exhaled in annoyance. Shift views.

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