NOT PERPETRATORS
The Figure I'm looking for

After he finished eating some bribes, Dimas also moved from his seat.

"Thank you" he said.

"Wait!" I stood up and rubbed gently around her lips. "You have to stay sterile, right?"

He smiled broadly. Then look around. After that, he looked back at me.

The cup! My eyes were wide at his clumsiness.

"This one, unsterilized is okay," he said then left me still standing glued to him.

He always made my heart suddenly stop. Sometimes it makes my heart beat irregularly. Is every heart doctor really good at spurting the heart like this? He always makes me nervous.

I went into the ICU room, where Dad was being treated. I sat down on the side chair where he was lying. A large oxygen tube stood by him. The eyes that always looked wise were now tightly clenched. It was as if he was seeking tranquility in his soul.

I took the hand of the man I respected so much. Her body temperature is cold. The hand that I once asked for my blessing didn't move a single bit. I slowly pressed these lips together to kiss the back of dad's hand. The sadness in my heart came back.

"Dad .. I want you to hear me for a minute. I hope you can hear me."

I moved the chair I was sitting in, to be closer to my father.

"Dad .. I want to see you healthy again. Play again with your grandson, Arka. I want you to open your eyes again. Father ... Mother is very tormented in her inner. He wouldn't eat if I hadn't forced him. Mom's face was pale. There was hardly a smile on his face, since you were unconscious."

I shifted my seat back, to be close to my father's ears. I clasped his hands tightly. Then I whispered in his ear.

"Dad .. We all pray for you to get through this. We all miss you. We're all waiting for you, until you reopen your eyelids. I'm sure you heard me!"

I couldn't help but the piled-up clear hairs filled my two eyes. Eventually, the lights fell.

"Dad .. just so you know. Even though Bastian's already hurt me. But I forgive him, Father. I cannot continue to be with a separate heart. We have broken off this farewell peacefully. So, you don't have to worry. In fact, we are now like friends. I can't hate him. And .. I can't blame love. In reality, love always flows at the mouth of his heart."

I stroked dad's hair. "Dad .. I love you very much. And I know you love me very much. But father ... love cannot be forced. The more forced, the more torturous it will be. Dad ... if you don't approve of our farewell. I'll consider it. Just so you want to reopen these two eyes. And back to health."

I said it slowly, hoping dad could understand me. Even though I don't know if he can hear me. I also moved, slowly releasing my hand to him. And at that moment, I felt a movement in my father's fingers. I also watched him. Hope it's really dad's hand gesture. But .. after I waited a while. There was no movement from him. I also let out a disappointed breath. I thought he really moved his fingers earlier, I felt it. Or just my feelings.

I also walked out of the ICU. I intend to find mother. I'm afraid he's getting stressed thinking about dad's condition. I looked and looked to the left. But not found. Until I remember a place, which I always stopped by while I was here. Mother spent more time in that place. I went straight there too.

Arriving at that place. I went in and found her holding both hands. His eyes continued to spit out water, and his lips continued to speak the name of the Lord. Yes, I'm not stopping praying. Behind the wingless angel's face and hand, I am sure God will grant his prayers.

I was so excited to see my mother-in-law's patience. I immediately took ablution, then performed Dhuha prayer.

***

Evening has arrived. Since this morning, I haven't seen Bastian here. Where's she headed?

"Mother ... Ima's gonna go out for a second, okay?" my permission to the mother who was still sitting was next to where my father was lying.

"Where are you going?" he asked with a tired face.

"I haven't seen Bastian since noon. I want to find her, Mom."

"No need! Just leave him! I don't care about him anymore. Perhaps, he was having fun with the woman***** that!"

"Mother .. I know, I can't forgive Bastian. But .. anyway he must be very sorry for what he did. I'm afraid, if Bastian comes to stress and blames himself."

"Iyan has already chosen a very fatal decision to hurt a woman as sincere as you!"

I also rubbed my mother's shoulders. After that, I immediately went to look for Bastian mas. I searched some corridors, then I went out into the front yard, but I didn't see him there. I went back to look for him in the backyard. This is the coldest place in my opinion. This is the back garden of the hospital. There are a few long benches available there. My eyes swept around the corner of the garden. But I didn't see her figure there.

And in the dim garden lights. I saw someone sitting on one of those benches. Near a shady tree, I approached her. I wish he was Bastian mas.

"Mas!" call me.

That figure also looked.

"You!" I said a little surprised.

"When did you call me 'Mas'? he said standing up.

I swallowed my own saliva. "I guess .. You're Bastian's mas."

"Do I look so much like him?"

"No!"

"Then why can't you tell the difference?"

"I'm worried about Bastian. So, my mind is on him. After all, your posture is very similar," I reasoned.

"I'm .. I don't have time to talk!" reject me.

But he grabbed my arm, and told me to sit next to him. I sat down with a forced.

"Why are you still thinking about it?"

"I'm just afraid he's stressed and hurting himself."

Dimas chuckled at my answer. "He's the one who hurt you. So, you don't have to care about it anymore."

"What are you doing here?" my many. "Is your job done?"

"If it's night, I like to sit alone here."

"If you like it yourself, why ask me to sit with you?"

"You are an exception. If I'm with you, I don't like solitude."

We were silent for a moment too. Being in each other's minds. Then Dimas looked back at me. "Why can't you tell myself apart from Bastian?"

I moaned annoyed. "Is that necessary to discuss?"

"Then, let's talk about something else."

I frowned. "Not to talk about anything!"

"I can't not discuss anything if there's you. But there is an exception to that. We can do something more beautiful" he said, adding a smile.

"What do you mean?"

He grabbed my shoulder, faced my body to him. "Looks like you've been less fit these days. You want vitamin C?" he said while winking.

"Hey! Is there always such perverted thoughts in your brain?" I looked at him annoyed.

"No. Not always. Only .. if you're with you."

"I don't want to!"

"I want to!"

"I don't!" I said as I let go of his hands that were nailing my body.

"Alright, then, let's discuss something."

I didn't pay attention to it. But he grabbed my finger.

"Nia, what about your relationship with Bastian? Have you made a choice?"

I took a deep breath. Then staring. "It."

"What's your choice?"

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