Sexy Bodyguard Jack
A Difficult Time

I asked Bang Jack to leave the apartment for a few hours for two consecutive days and had him order a bodyguard to stand guard at the door of the apartment as long as he was away, plus, he told me to, he had to tell the bodyguard that he wasn't going to go long, and he also had to tell the bodyguard that while he was away, he was going, I who was inside the apartment was fast asleep under the influence of high dose sleeping pills. So it would be safe if he left me alone. Bang Jack also had to tell me that the bodyguard was not allowed to let anyone into the apartment to see me let alone take me away.

Of course, the bodyguard would agree, then he would inform James of this little thing. Although, in the end James still did not come to see me let alone to take me away. However, even so, at least -- I hope -- this thing - though it will slightly affect James' mind: that it turns out that Bang Jack had to give me sleeping pills first to keep me safe from dangerous acts as long as he wasn't with me. Although yes, I was sleeping under the influence of drugs. The reason is, at this time I can't fall asleep comfortably let alone soundly because my mind - - without my control - always leads me to think about how to approach James: James has to believe that I'm really depressed. So I did take a sleeping pill because I needed it to control my mind and force myself to rest.

My God, but sometimes I feel like I might be really depressed. There's a part of me that just keeps undermining me to get rid of James as soon as possible. I never get angry and hate someone so much that I have trouble sleeping. I had a hard time getting James out of my head, as hard as I could get to him, as hard as I could to get him out of my life.

But I won't give up. I must regain my place at James's side without having to get the torture of lost virginity even though it was James himself who was the mastermind. For I know that at any moment James will continue to act as if it were not his doing and he knows nothing. After all, he had a strong and precise alibi. He was abroad at the time of the incident. Nor did he blatantly tell Bang Jack that he gave his wife's virginity to his own sister-in-law. He could have turned the fact that it was my own doing, or Bang Jack's - - so that we could both channel desire and as if everything that happened could have been done to James. Anyone can turn things around with all the situations that occur. But, if James believed that I was depressed because of this, he would believe me and bring me back to him without being able to blame me for my lost virginity. That way, I hope that there will be no separation wall between the two of us until I can get back to being around him like before, without any suspicion of me. He must not know my purpose, which is to destroy his life.

After two days passed with the little stratagem, I continued my plan with the next trick. Again, I had to move on without telling Bang Jack my plans first. And, I had to -- also - run a trick on Bang Jack. Like four days in a row after I got home from the hospital yesterday, I had to keep sweetening Bang Jack, teasing him and taking him to bed. I have to make her happy and also show her my happiness so she won't realize what I'm going to do next.

My Romeo was too. By taking her to bed and making love to me, she felt that I was doing well, I was happy, I loved her, I was drunk and crazy about our endless romance. I was trying to show that I was not pressured by my own demands, by the evil part of me to immediately get my revenge on James. With a tactic like this, I thought I could fool Bang Jack's guard. Today, after my wrist injury yesterday, I asked Bang Jack to take me for a walk on the grounds that I was tired of being in the apartment.

He smiled, his unstable roar of breath after he had crazed me in bed in the morning towards noon, completely unable to make him refuse my request. "Where do you want to go?" tanyakanya.

"Take me to the cinema first. Then, I want you to invite me to play paragliding. Then, third, I want you to take me on jetski. No one would suspect that we were happy. Everything I want will make people think that it is natural to comfort a woman who is depressed, right? So, no one's gonna bother us if we have fun today."

He's nodding. "A clever girl" he said. "But remember, don't do anything dangerous. Don't try to fool me."

Hmm. It turns out he's just like James. It's hard to fool. And now, my relationship with Bang Jack is the same as mine with James: there is a looseness in trust, and, also, there is a stratagem in the name of sincerity.

I'm sorry, Bang. But no matter what I do, I can make sure I'm yours. You are the most entitled to me, and only you are entitled to have me.

"Emm?"

"What's wrong? Why are you silent? Why not answer my question? You planning something? Hmm?"

I shook my head, then smiled. "Depends on the chance, anyway. But there's a brother who'll always take care of me."

"We're not going to go."

"Remember...." I frowned.

"It'll be safer if you stay in the apartment."

"Abang. I can be really depressed if you keep me locked up here."

But the man ignored me. He got out of bed and put his shorts back on, and he walked out of the room and left me.

All right then. Brother forced me to do reckless. My name isn't Emilia if I can't force you to take me to the beach.