
Less than half an hour after James left for the meeting, a knock was heard on my door.
"Who?" my many.
I just came out of the dressing room to take off my nightgown and put it in a dirty laundry basket while I changed into a kimono. I was just about to take a shower.
"I."
Jack Bang?
I quickly walked to the door and opened it.
"Did you?"
I don't know why my eyes suddenly glazed. I'm happy for Bang Jack's arrival, but I'm scared too. Because he would be disappointed in me.
There, I stood stiff. Meanwhile, Bang Jack, after the door opened, he went straight in and immediately closed the door to my room, and, locked it safely. Then, he hugged me right away.
"You sick?" voice hoarse. It was as if he felt my pain - beyond this fever. And now, she cupped my face, looking at me with pity.
Unpowerful. I can only shake. My tears are now broken again. "I just have a normal fever" I said, wiping away tears. "No need to worry."
"Where might I not worry. I'm anxious. I can't stand to see you like this."
Argha! My mentality is shrinking. I was hoping to meet Bang Jack. But now, I was so afraid that she was disappointed that she saw me in this state: with a chest, back, and neck filled with red marks.
"That's it. I'm fine, really. Brother brought me my phone, right? Mr James, right, who asked you to come here? Aye, right?"
He's nodding.
"Can I still use that phone?"
"You deserve everything I have."
"Yes, sorry. I didn't mean to. I...."
"Shhh. I'm here-"
"I'm going to the bathroom. Take a shower. Could you please give me the pons-"
"Rose?" He looked at me deeply. "Why? Don't avoid me, please?"
"I...." I shook my head with tears getting louder. "I'm kebelet, pee. Sorry."
Running, I left Bang Jack and went into the bathroom. However, I haven't had the chance to lock the door, Bang Jack managed to refute it. He sneaks in, goes into the bathroom.
"Abang, what are you doing? Please don't be like this. It's bahay--"
Good Lord!
"Eummmm...."
This guy is really reckless. He grabbed my lips and kissed me savagely. I liked. Wanted it. I want to enjoy it. But this is really scary.
A little, I kissed her back.
A little, I enjoyed the kiss.
A little, I let myself melt in his love. His passion. Love between us.
But I'm scared....
I try to control myself.
Not with Jack. He was possessed by the God of Love until his brain was dull. He kissed me, kissed me so deeply. So wild. Greedier. Until it makes me suck. I'm out of breath.
"I'm kangen. I'm tormented, Rose."
Piteously. Bang Jack muttered desperately in front of my face. Our foreheads were clinging, and his sturdy arms were coiled solidly on my body. I've never seen a man this desperate.
And this is what the kidnappers wanted. Bang Jack was tormented by my loss, because he couldn't take care of me - in the sense of looking after his own younger brother, while on the other hand his mother was shackled by his unstable mentality.
"Abang a strong man. Brother, don't be like this. Brother has a mother that you have to look after. Don't be weak, please...."
With her red eyes, she looked at me. "I'll be more fragile if you avoid me. You understand that, don't you?"
"Don't understand."
"Understand what, Rose? Hm? What do I not understand?"
"I am. I am not avoiding you. Nope. Absolutely-"
"Then why?" cut it. "If not evasive, what's his name?"
"It!" I opened the kimono that wrapped my body. I showed him all the red marks on my body. "I don't want you to see this. I fear. I'm afraid you're disappointed in me. So it's best that you leave. Please go...."
I was sobbing, unable to hold it much less muffle it even though I had tried, at least I could keep my mouth shut so that the sound of my crying could not be heard until I left the room. Like me, as well as Bang Jack, who tried to hold our voices even though we spoke with emotions billowing overhead.
"I'm sorry...."
Bang Jack held me tight. I could feel his emotions being held back from his arms that were holding me so tightly as if he wanted to crush my bones.
"The man did not keep his promise. Damn you!"
I'm rattled. How do I explain this to Bang Jack?
"I'm a virgin" I said.
Jack looked at me confused.
"Sir James.he.he said..he would not...emm... fuck me. But.. for anything else, he said he. I. i.. i...."
Jemari Bang Jack shut me up. He shook his head with a sick, yet sharp look.
"I'm disgusted. I feel dirty in front of you. I-i-"
I'm gawking. Bang Jack forced the white kimono from my body to disengage. He made me plain in front of him.
"Did you?"
"Shhh...."
"What do you want?"
"You wouldn't be disgusted at my touch, at my touch marks, would you?"
O Lord, her gentle words have filled me as her fingers have softly defended me.
"But I'm dirty.." I said softly.
But Jack Bang doesn't care. Yeah, even though I'm not so physically dirty. Because, last night, after James was crazy about me, I took a hot bath. And the splash this morning, I washed it with water, even with soap and wet wipes. But inwardly, I felt so dirty because it was named* by the man who forced himself against me.
"For me you're never dirty, Rose. Never will."
Oooohs... Lord. This pleasant, cradling feeling made me forget where we were. I really enjoyed Bang Jack's touch and handcuffs. Slowly, our feet stepped until we reached the wall.
"I love you. Don't feel dirty anymore. If so, I'm ready to get dirty with you. Hmm?"
Ah, her gaze is so intense. It requires me to nod.
But... do I have to tell you that my hand is this...? Or should I just throw it away...?
"Don't think of anything. Just enjoy this moment. After this, I want you to forget your sorrow for what James did to you. Forget."
I'm nodding. "Yes, as long as I'm still with you" I said. "Even if I'm like a street*, I-"
"Sst.. You're not the way*, we love each other. We will marry, and you will be my queen. Okay?"
I nodded happily. Then. then...
Bang Jack kissed me again. That crazy kiss is so deep. I really miss the man's joy and excitement.
"I'm kangen. I miss you so much, "I'm so bawled.
Jack is smiling. Later then...
"Eummmm...."
Crazyaaaa....
I was drunk on love. Although my mind makes me feel that I am very walk*, but I am happy. It was obviously different from James' touch that made me so sick. With Bang Jack, I feel free, I want myself to go wild with him.
Let it. Let me be a way*!
"ouch! Elder brother... Brother.. eummmmm...."
I shrieked softly - trying to hold him as slow as possible - - when Bang Jack cupped my chest and activated his fingers. So delicious it feels. Bang Jack gave a gentle massage to my chest that had never been long*.
"It's still intact" whispered Bang Jack. "You're not angry, are you, I touched you here? I don't want you to regret if James touched you before I did. I know you'd be sorry if that guy touched her first, right?"
I'm nodding. My eyes closed enjoying the sensua* massage from his fingers.
"If later you can't fight back when he touches you here, and he asks why this is. Sorry, it's not intact, just tell me that the delinquent who kidnapped you did this to you. You got it, right? Don't be offended by my words. I just don't want him to suspect me and screw things up."
I-i understand. I nodded my head and I continued to enjoy this moment.
"Want more?"
Sure oes. I smiled with excitement, then Bang Jack lifted my body and sat me down next to the sink.
"I love you" he said, then he buried his face in my chest. Gently, he grazed the top of my chest with his mouth and channeled a strange sensation that was tickling, scrumptious, and pleasant. Inevitably I tinker* because of the pleasure of a touch of love from my lover.
Nope. He's not an affair. She's my real lover.
"You happy? Currently?"
Oh, sure! My smile symbolizes everything. And, then, Bang Jack's hand slipped down between my groin. Her fingers touched gently, stroked, and. ah, you know.
"Not angry?"
I'm shaking. "Before James precedes, please?"
"Not completely, dear. Maybe he won't do it now either. Maybe he'll really wait until you're nineteen. But before that, I will win this fight. I promise."
But I'm not sure. "If he wants to touch me with his finger, or his mouth, how? I don't want to, please? I want to keep my friendship for you. I'd die for this."
For a moment Bang Jack was silent. "alright. If that's your decision. Defend. Even if you have to die. But I wouldn't blame you if he could forcibly rob her. I'll still love you."
And I came back crying.
"Don't cry. I know you'll take care of yourself for me."
"But I'm scared. I'm afraid that you'd feel disgusted at me if she-"
"I understand. But I won't feel the slightest disgust for you. Relax, huh? You will never have any harm in my eyes. Believe me?"
Well, Bang Jack's words are soothing. I shook my head and stopped crying.
"Now it's better to take a shower." Bang Jack rubbed my tears, his sweet smile expanding perfectly. "But the bath should not be long, yes. I miss. Don't waste our precious time together. Your lover's waiting."
Oh sweetness.
Bang Jack gave me a kiss at the nape of my neck before leaving me alone in the bathroom.
"You're still my Rose Peterson. I promise, we'll always be together."
Yeah, I repeated that promise in my heart.
We'll always be together....