
Today, Bang Jack is going to port at four in the morning. So, for the sake of making breakfast for her, I deliberately set an alarm on my phone so that I could wake up at exactly three in the morning. I did not want to rush and spend time in trouble, so I had to get up an hour before he left, while Bang Jack himself was still asleep in his sleep.
The next minute, half an hour passed, I was done with my busyness: toasting the eggs of cow's eyes, crackers, and toasting rice plus making coffee and serving them all on the table. Then, just as I was about to knock on Bang Jack's door, he woke up, and opened the door before I could knock.
"You're awake" he said.
"Hu 'um. I'm done cooking. Breakfast, yuk?"
"Oh my goodness, honey. How come you bother everything, anyway?"
"No, kok. It's my job, right? I am happy to serve my husband. I mean, serving my future husband."
Bang Jack smiled happily even with his face still sleepy. I took her hand and I took her to the kitchen in my hand, and I asked her to sit down, and told her to eat.
"Spend, yeah. Take a shower."
"I'll take a shower later, kind of shit. Easy, really. You can take a bath on the ship." Jack drank his coffee.
"Oh." I'm mangosteen. "alright. The important thing is that you eat until you are full. It's worth spending, okay?"
Hmm. that feeling of melow stopped back in my mind. Not willing to be left for days by him.
"I don't like seeing your own face, Rose."
"No, really," I deny. "I am. I am ordinary. Seriously."
"You can't lie to me" he said casually as he continued eating.
"Well, indeed. But I'm just sad that I'm going to be thousands of miles away from you. That's it."
"I know," he said, then he smiled faintly. "Because it's the first time. Will get used to it long ago. I will miss you so much."
Well. that. Because this was originally. The first time. I'm not ready, let alone used to it. Not at all. "me too. I will miss you in my lonely days."
"Rose. Would help?"
"Yes, yeah. It's just an outpouring of heart, huh."
"Don't talk about this again, okay? I'll call you often. Slide the green button. You remember, right?"
Geez, am I senile? I remember what he taught me last night. A kid can easily learn to play a cell phone, when I lose?
"I remember, Brother," I murmured. "Just calm down."
Bang Jack nodded. "Rose, I hope you won't be offended. But, please, don't tell anyone your mobile number. No new friends or old friends. In your current world there are only the two of us. You and me. Just the two of us. You gotit?"
I nodded back, then I looked at those eyes hopefully. "It's only temporary, right? Not for forever?"
"Rose.." -...."
"only temporarily? Aye, right?"
"Ep. Just a while."
"We're gonna have a kid?"
Bang Jack is stunned.
"He's going to school, right? Will he have many sisters? He'll have a free life, hang out with his peers, and someday I'll interact with the mother of his friends? With teachers? I'm gonna have friends, aren't I? Please... It's not forever that we just live together, is it, brother?"
Ah, if Bang Jack hadn't started, maybe this chat would have been spared for a while. At least not for now.
Destiny and a life that is "funny" -- in quotes. I had with all the turmoil of my past life, with all my loneliness, now I met and had a romance with Jack Peterson - two lives that were as lonely. Although he himself had promised to take me away someday, but still, ahead - question mark (?) it hangs up faintly: what will our future life be like?
"I promise you a normal life. For our future and our children." He nodded confidently while grasping my one hand.
Alright. I nodded my head again and smiled. "I hope someday Mama will be able to recover, when we give her a grandchild. Jack and little Rose for Mama." Because we never know if his Rose will come back. In fact, whether he was alive or not, no one knew.
"Aamiinu. I hope. And I get it. Hope so, Rose. Hopefully."
"Abang is not offended, right? I mean...."
"No, Honey."
"Yes. I don't mean to be pessimistic about Rose--"
"I understand. I-i understand. Okay?"
"Thank you."
"Ep. You welcome. Make the little guy from now on, yuk?"
"Ih, Brother...."
"Faster is better, dear. We make a lot of kids. Wants, right?"
He chuckles. Very very pleased. The mood is so easy to handle.
"Have been making jokes, yes. Now focus. Finish your food."
Well, he nodded. Although his mouth chattered, Bang Jack clearly enjoyed my fried rice. Like my father used to be. He likes it too.
"Did you?"
"Emm?"
"I can ask you something, about...your job?"
"What?"
"When in the movies...."
"Emm?"
"Work.I mean.the black world is usually synonymous with. What's Brother...?"
Again Bang Jack was stunned, but then he shook his head. "You need to believe that I'm clean. I am neither a user nor a dealer. But. yep, it's commonplace in the black world that I'm dealing with. Sori, I mean, in my line of work."
I muttered, listening enthusiastically.
"Transactions are everywhere. In hotels, karaoke bars, night clubs, brothels, and everything. Even in ships and ports. Anywhere. Although the boss is not a dealer, but he gets parts and tips from each transaction, because he facilitates the place of transaction." Bang Jack looked at me seriously, right into my two eyes. "You believe me, don't you? I'm clean."
Yeah, whether he's a reliable liar or not, and whether I'm stupid or not, but I don't see the lies in those two eyes. My heart believes in him.
"I'm done eating." Bang Jack glanced at the wall clock. It's 03.45 WITA. "I want to get ready."
Hmm. I'm running again. But I tried desperately against my feelings. I took Bang Jack's old dirty plate for breakfast, then took him to the sink - - hiding my sad face.
"I don't like seeing you like this."
Geez, he said he wanted to get ready.
"I'm fine" I said, then I turned to face Bang Jack who was standing behind me. Hugged me. "Don't worry, okay?"
But he shook his head. "alright. I'll give you sweet memories and farewells."
Eh?
"Dragon...!"
You crazy man! With ease Bang Jack carried me on his shoulder and took me to his room. There, on top of his bed he dropped me and directly crushed me. Plus, fondling me.
"For fifteen memorable minutes" he whispered before my face. His face was adorned with a crazy grin.
Oh, brother. You made me squeal in pleasure. Yeah, I know, my girlfriend, she just wanted to joke around, and, uh, she's not gonna cross the line. He's savage, at once tame.