Sexy Bodyguard Jack
The Undue Quarrel

There was no talk on the way back to the apartment. The silence and look on Bang Jack's face said everything: disappointment, anger, despair and frustration. While I was, I wasn't mad at him. Merely, I am just as proud, Bang Jack is not the perfect partner to play the show. He wouldn't be able to act well if I said what my plan was before I did, he wouldn't be able to act completely. But, with me not saying what I did, I admit the totality of his anger really reached the top, but unfortunately it will last a long time because it is not just acting. Real anger.

And now my tears are dripping in silence. Again, not because I was angry with him who had slapped me, but because of the feeling of tiredness over the relationship that continued to make us hurt. If not as soon as possible to get rid of James, then the destiny of our lives will continue like this.

Arriving in the basement, I opened the door and got out of the car. Then, just as I was about to get into the elevator, I was surprised to see James there.

Did he come to take me with him?

I don't know. I don't know the exact answer. As soon as the elevator doors opened wide, James stepped foot and just went past me. And somehow, my feelings hurt so much at the time. It was as if - whether true or not - I felt I couldn't accept that James really didn't care about me. Though at that time I knew that was the truth, but why at that time I could not accept it? So painful it feels.

Behind me, when I turned around to ascertain if James would really leave without me, I instead saw Bang Jack standing far away there. His footsteps halted, he looked at James, but the man also ignored him.

What's he here for?

"What's he talking about?" bang Jack asked, he was near me.

I'm shaking. I still don't want to talk to him. I turned back and pressed the elevator button and went straight in when the door opened. I have to throw my face in front of Bang Jack.

"Maybe it's over. Maybe James will let you by my side."

Huh! What kind of shit is this? James will leave me by your side only if he feels like I'm really depressed and keeps trying to kill myself. If not, he'll take me back with him. Of course, to torture me.

"If it's like that, it means you no longer need to think about how to get back to her, right? No need to attempt suicide anymore. The show or whatever it is."

Oh, that's how stupid your mind is? Or is that your way of fooling me, or of persuading me that I may no longer be reckless? Unfortunately I know James better, and I put my mission first.

"Rose, speak. Please forget everything. I will do the job James gave me, and he will definitely let you go after that. We'll get back together."

Ting!

Elevator door opens.

"I don't have time to talk nonsense with you."

Exit. I put my feet up and left Bang Jack behind. After I entered the apartment, I locked the door to my room and went to the bathroom. I need time to soak, listen to music and inhale the fragrance of therapeutic fragrance.

And you know, all I think about is that I should try to get rid of James. I really can't believe he's going to give me back to Bang Jack when Bang Jack gets the job done. Thats impossible. James' hatred of Bang Jack would certainly keep James at his side. That way, forever he can hurt Bang Jack's feelings, as well as making him a doll that will always obey his orders. Nnnnope. I wouldn't want James to do Bang Jack's life like that. Besides, on the other hand, if I could hurt Bang Jack, I would survive and be willing to live for James. Maybe I'll even try to make her really fall in love with me. But in fact I can't. Deliberately letting myself live for James is a betrayal to my heart. And I can't do that. I can't betray Bang Jack. It is not about love, but about dedication, gratitude, and devotion. More than that, it is my way of appreciating a partner: by not hurting him and not betraying him.

Whether it works or not, I have to try. If it doesn't work out, I'll die with sincerity. Because, I've been trying to Bang Jack.

After my bathing ritual is over, I want to take my sleeping pills. But shit, there's no mineral water in my room. I have to go to the kitchen.

"I ordered food. We'll be there soon" said Bang Jack. He sat on the couch watching television.

"Hey, don't shut me up."

Oh, I have to be so sweet? Basic sucks!

"Rose."

"Emilia."

"Oh my God, you are...."

Whatever. I don't want to bully him. My mineral water was ready, and I was about to get my sleeping pills out of the bottle, but Bang Jack took them from me.

"Stop taking sleeping pills!"

"I want to sleep."

"Rose, eat first."

"I'm not hungry."

"Rose.." -...."

"Give me back my sleeping pills."

"Rose, please, we're talking good."

"You slapped me! You did not support my plan! What else is there to talk about?"

He shook his head slowly. "I'm sorry" she said, then she stroked my cheek. "ill? I was not intentionally. Pardon you? I'll do anything to treat your pain."

"O yeah? Then support my plan."

"Rose... please...?"

"Meet James. Begging him."

"I don't want you to be with her anymore."

"He let me stay here for a while! You know it. When I stop trying to kill myself, he'll take me again to torture me. Don't be stupid! Don't think he'll just let me go!"

Bang Jack fell silent, and from there I understood that he actually knew and he understood very well my thoughts. He actually had the same thought as me. Only, he tried to keep me from staying with him so he said as if everything would be as he said just now. He was just trying to influence my mind.