Sexy Bodyguard Jack
Candour

"As I said, I made a mistake to get a girl pregnant. About a year and a half ago, I found out that my mother had died at the hands of my own father. I'm upset. I'm depressed. I wanted to avenge my mother's death, but I couldn't do it, as if I were powerless because the man who killed her was my own father. At last I could only vent my anger with alcohol, until I was drunk, and it was a mistake. I accidentally snatched the virgin of a young girl, and she ended up pregnant. Since then I promised myself, I would never make the same mistake. I won't take away another girl's virginity. I felt guilty, and I married the girl. Though without love and I do not live with her, her status remains as my wife, the mother of my children. Marriage is for the sake of my responsibility and for the legitimate status of my children. They are innocent, they still have to be born in a marriage relationship. I'm right, aren't I?"

I'm nodding.

"And. about you. I. honestly I know I have a passion for you. I think you know about that, too. Desire cannot be made up. I have it when I'm with you. Whenever I'm with you, my passion is always tempestuous. I'm passionate. You stirred up a long-dead feeling in my soul. But. My promise is a constraint to myself. And stupidly, I defy all my feelings. I always denied that I was in love with you. I'm sorry, I'm reckless about making you, I'm sorry, Rose... Emilia. I'm really sorry. I regret my mistake."

Well, I can feel James' remorse, like I can feel that he really loves me. But I can't forgive James' mistake on that one. "I. I can understand. But you also have to understand that I haven't been able to forgive you about your biggest mistake. I'll try to accept, but that doesn't mean now-"

"Shhh...." His finger was on my lips. "I knew. It won't be over if we talk about this."

"That's why don't talk about it again. Remembering the incident was like a wound sprinkled with salt. I don't know until when I-"

"I just want to make you happy to make up for all my mistakes. Let me love you, Emilia. Please?"

James nodded. His eyes were red and glazed. "You want to go back to Jack?" his voice was trembling. "Tell me honestly."

Honestly, at that point I was afraid that James would come back thinking that he -- came back - was like a loser in front of Bang Jack. I can't go wrong talking. I can't make her feel offended. "Let me explain. I'm a nobody. I'm just a foreign girl he saved from the sea. I was stranded on the beach and he helped me. I owe him my life, James. That's where I should be. That's why I have to be there. He is worthy of me. My life is not about love, but dedication and gratitude." I held his hand back. "I didn't mean to hurt your heart, sorry? Please?"

"I understand. Then we can't... couldn't be together...?"

I'm shaking. "Selp me. Relieve me, James."

"OKAY. I. I'll let you go. I'm...."

It's really painful to hear that, even if I wanted to, it still hurts.