
"Whatever you look like, always remember to wear a mask and don't take it off" says Bang Jack.
Like yesterday, after getting out of the car and heading to his apartment unit, Bang Jack had prepared a mask for both of us. Besides being useful for hiding my identity, it was also useful for the safety of both of us. Because, if not together with other bodyguard teams, then the risks and dangers that threaten it are much greater. Therefore, under his own circumstances, Bang Jack said that he must disguise himself so that the enemy group does not recognize him. Especially now that I was with him, my security became a top priority for him. He even used his new car and left his boss' car in the basement parking lot. I see, his life will not be like the life of a normal person in general, even though he will cease to be a bodyguard. Unless, if he moved - left Bali and lived in a new place: starting life from scratch as a nobody. As he explained to me while the car drove us across the road.
"And I expected that" I said -- expectantly.
Jack is smiling. "I thought about it, honey. I know I can't keep going like this. And I promise, one day I'll take you away from here. I want to build a happy home with you."
And just at that moment I realized something. I put on a faint smile while Bang Jack kissed the back of my hand. "I'm sorry about that. I. I don't know how to handle it. Is that...no problem?"
"Why should it be a problem?" Bang Jack turned towards me again with a raised eyebrow. "I love you."
I'm nodding.
"Rose, my love for you isn't just bullshit. Not just because I want to have you, or just make you a bedmate so I'm free to touch you. It's not like that. I want us to be together as an official couple and be bound in a legitimate marriage relationship. I want to protect you, Rose. I want to be the husband who has the right to keep you when your family wants to take you and hand you over to someone else. You understand that?"
Again. I'm nodding. "I know," I said. "But the state of your mother.and now coupled with my presence with this condition, does it not only make."
"No, Honey. You're not-"
"Hey, hey, Rose, don't talk like that." Bang Jack stepped on the brakes and pulled his car over the shoulder of the road. And, that handsome face again implied worry. "Darling, you don't talk like that" she repeated. His voice was soft, like the grip of his hand back then. That soft. "Listen to me. You're healthy. You're not having a mental breakdown, okay? It's called phobia. Just a panic attack, like trauma. Not crazy. You're doing fine. And that's not a problem at all. Hmm?"
I'm nodding.
"This phobia you're experiencing must have a cause, right?" he asked gently as he echoed my finger. "May I know? You can share any story with me. Like you said yesterday, maybe it will make you relieved, right? Yesterday you said that to me. So, please, I want to listen to your story."
At first I nodded, but then I changed my mind. "Later on," I said. "We'll see your mother first."
"Rose? Please?"
"Later tonight. I-i promise. I'll tell you. I mean, I'll tell you. Everything. I promise."
"alright. You promised, and I trust you. Well, now... You want one hug? Hm? Here."
Oh, my God, he's an angel-hearted bodyguard. So soft. No need to wait for me to nod or say yes, she immediately hugged my body with a soothing warmth.
"I love you...."