
Like two weeks ago, Mama was so happy when she met me. Her smile of cherry expanded perfectly, and with her happiness, she unceasingly kissed and hugged me. His mouth did not stop chattering. He said he was happy for my marriage to James. She was grateful that there was now a husband who would always look after and protect me. And, just as James had expected, Mama was also very hopeful - the daughter she thought was her daughter - to get pregnant soon and give her many grandchildren.
"You know, like the life of Mama and Papa back then, our married life has felt perfect since you were born into this world. And so will your married life. If you already have children, your marriage will feel more perfect. Maybe, that's when you will be able to accept your marriage with all your heart. Listen to Mama, honey, often in a marriage, the presence of a child can change everything. Maybe, when you get pregnant, that love will grow in your heart. You will receive and love James as sincerely as your heart, as sincerely and as much as he loves you."
Geez, this guy really has talked too much to Mama.
"Rose?"
"Emm?"
"You want to listen to Mama's words, right, son?"
"I-yes, Ma. Aye." Yeah." I'm nodding. My tears are in dilemma. Mama doesn't know, Mama doesn't understand any of this. But still, I can't deny, I'm happy that a mother cares for me and gives me good advice. "Thank you for advising me."
"Yes, Son. It should be." He hugged me, then sobbed. "You were taken from Mama. Mama's been spending a lot of time without you. Mama can't watch your teenage years. But that's okay, Mama will be happy to witness that adolescence in the life of your granddaughter. Mama promise, for your sake, Mama will fight to heal. Mama's gonna be healthy, and Mama's gonna be home for you."
Oh, Ma. I'm happy that my presence has become a passion for you. But why did the story of my life become like this?
Tired, I took a deep breath and tried to smile. Yeah, the rest of the time I spent in the hospital made me more in a dilemma. James manages to take Mama's heart and they continue to chat about their wonderful fantasies in the future. I was thinking: would James also want to take Mama from Bang Jack?
Stop, Rose. Don't think too much.
After a few minutes, it was time to leave the hospital. This time Mama let me go without crying. He looked very happy and advised James to often invite his daughter to visit him. James promised him that when he had time to spare and was not busy with his work, he promised he would invite me to visit him. My mom is very happy and grateful to James.
On the way home, I could only think of James' sweet attitude towards Mama. Does he mean it, or is he just pretending? If everything he showed was in the form of falsehood, did he also make Mama a puppet in his game?
James' phone rang when we were almost home, and he picked it up. He talked for a while, then hung up. "We didn't go home, something was forgotten" he told me. "We need to go to the hospital."
"To the hospital?" many wonder. I got scared. "What are we going to the hospital for?"
James smiled broadly at me, then he told the driver to drive the car to the hospital. He didn't answer my question in the least.
Upon arrival at the hospital, James' personal assistant had already arrived there first. He greeted us, opened the door, and when we got out of the car he said the doctor was waiting. "I've already made an appointment with the best obstetrician in this hospital."
"What's? Doctor... obstetrician?"
"Why, Honey?" James asked softly, but the look in his eyes frightened me.
"U--for... for what...for what do we meet with the obstetrician?" many nervous. "Who is pregnant?"
James smiled at me again. He took my hand and took me in. "Nobody's pregnant, honey. Emm. I mean not yet."
"Then-then?"
"What?"
"Pregnant program."
"Pregnant program?" My eyes opened.
James looked back deeply at me. He stopped his footsteps and stood straight up to me. "We've discussed it" he said, holding both of my shoulders. "I want a child from you. Your mama, Papa too, they want our grandchildren. And you agreed to it yourself. Isn't that right, Rose?"
Agreed? When do I agree? You sick man! I don't want to get pregnant with you, James. I don't want to....
"Rose?"
"I...."
"I want a child from you."
"I-i...."
"I want us to check fertility and join the pregnancy program. But don't worry, I don't intend to follow the baby tube program. I just want the doctor to help us with fertility so you can get pregnant fast. You want to, huh? Please, do this for our marriage, for my sake, for your mother's sake. Yea? James begging you?"
I'm nodding. "Yes" I said. I resigned, Lord. Please all of you decide my destiny. Hold my destiny in your hands. I'm following what you, James, have outlined for me.
"Thank you." He smiled back widely. "Come on."
My feet are back. And, all my heart was trying to hold back my tears. I followed all the tests I had to do, and so did James, and he checked his health and fertility.
"As my assistant explained, yes, Doc," James told the obstetrician. A female doctor who treated us.
The doctor just nodded his head and did his job without saying much so I didn't understand anything. All I know is that James and I are fertile, and the doctor explained to us what we should do, what we should consume, and, uh, what we should do, also anything we should avoid: such as nicotine and caffeine. The process of pregnant programs is also accompanied by chemical drugs that must be injected into my body, the doctor also explained to me the side effects that my body would feel after the drugs entered my body. Then, the doctor gave us an example: how and where the drug should be put into my body, plus, how many doses per one injection. At that time, with a very small syringe, I received my first medicine.
Whatever. I don't want to bother about anything. Whatever you.
After all the pregnant program I went through at the hospital, I could only look down lethargic without any comment. I was just grateful to be able to leave the hospital as soon as it was over.
"Rose," James spoke again on our return to the parking lot. I just stared at him without speaking. "Emm. I gotta go. There's an important job I have to do. But I can't take you with me. And. I also don't want you to go back to the pavilion. I don't want Papa to fuss if he sees me leaving you again. So...."
Alisku. "What's wrong? Just say it."
"I want you to go home to your apartment."
Whahuh? Did I not hear wrong?
"Do you mind? I didn't take long. I mean. I won't be gone too long. I'll try, I'll be back as soon as possible. Yea? I'll pick you up again tonight. It's okay, right?"
I'm nodding. "Yes. All right," I said. Although my little heart felt that James was planning something.