WHAT ABOUT ME?
father's funeral
while waiting for Pakde Somad to prepare the needs for father's funeral, I went back to the room to accompany mother and Jefri, when I entered, mother was still as much as she had a crush on meirih who requested that father return.
bude Eni who realized I entered the room was away and sat in front of mom while I approached then sat next to mom.
teringst said Mr. de Somad who asked me to be strong so that my mother and sister are not too bad for the disaster tonight.
"mom, I will be buried today, my sincere mother, let my father be calm and airy grave, I still have Jasmin and Jefri who will always accompany me until later, Jasmin promises to always accompany mother in joy and sorrow like father...
ma'am, Jasmin please, even though it feels very difficult, please please let father ya ma'am" I cleanly resist the tightness when this beer bi asks mother to be sincere.
how can I ask my mother to be sincere while I am still very difficult, the sudden death of my father made my world collapse instantly.
my tears tried to look strong in front of my mother and sister.
"take Jasmin, it's his friend outside" Arum, Bude Eni's daughter looked up at the doorway calling for me.
"who? " ask me looking towards him.
"that was Yuda, he was outside the same father" I nodded, after saying goodbye to mother, I rushed out to meet Judah.
when I got outside, I saw Yuda sitting with other people who were teaching my father.
I spread my gaze, maybe there is another friend who came along, apparently he himself. I pat his shoulder slowly and then he turned to look at me.
"Yud.". "greet me.
Yuda turned his head "Jasmin, I'm sorry, you are steadfast, may your father be laid out his grave and husnul-khatimah, aamiin" he said while patting my shoulder gently.
"aamiin, thanks to Judah for coming here tonight" Judah nodded, I never thought that the stinginess I had given Judah was not taken seriously, he was the first to come from many friends I knew.
after going through many processes for the funeral of the father, now everything is ready, I who had been sitting next to Judah while teaching and then went into the room to pick up the mother inside.
"awhile, I called my mother first" said my farewell to Yuda after Mr. Somad asked me to call Mom and Jefri.
"yes.. "
I went back into the room, I rubbed my mother's arm to calm her down.
"mom, I'll be on my way out soon, right, if you can, let's go out, if it doesn't matter, Jasmin will accompany me here" I said.
"mom wants to see father for the last time brother" said the mother after a long silence.
I nodded, then helped mom get out of bed and swept her out of the room, while bude Eni led Jefri in the back.
at the bed of the father, the mother sat together, she did not shed tears, but I believe the mother only tried to be strong and strong in front of the father so that the father could calm down.
"well, wait for mom yes, later we will be the same again" said mom but I can still hear.
Jefri who was still standing next to me was asked to sit, he looked at my father with a blank look, maybe my sister was reminiscing about the memory of her togetherness with my father.
Jefri nodded, with a single blink of an eye, his tears immediately fell on his cheeks.
The time shows at 20:30 wib. after finishing in sholatan, the father immediately set off.
I walked with my mother and Jefri right behind my father, not forgetting that Bude Eni and Arum were with me.
an hour later, all the funeral procession was finished, Pakde and Bude immediately invited me to go home because it was late, not just us, but us, apparently Yuda had also brought father to his final resting place.
I nodded, after I finished praying for my father, my mother and sister immediately walked home along with bude, pakde and Yuda.
"thank you for helping Jasmin pakde bude, sorry to always trouble you guys" I said when we arrived at the front of the house was deserted because the residents had come home after delivering father.
"you should not hesitate to ask for help as bude and de sir, if we can and are able, you will definitely help, you are patient and steadfast, yes, be strong in front of your mother and sister" said Bude Eni.
"God willing bude" that's the only word that can get out of my beer bi.
after helping me to clean the mat made to sit, bude and de pak say goodbye to go home, stay Yuda who is still faithful in my house.
"come home, Jud, your parents will be watching you tonight" I told Yuda, who was still cleaning up some trash on the porch.
"yes after this I go home" he said while putting the garbage in the trash can. "you don't cry much, always pray for your father so he can calm there, I say go home first yes" he said.
"yes, thanks for coming, sorry for the trouble" I said
"no problem, I'm happy to help you" he said then exited the terrace to his parked motorcycle not far from my house.
after the departure of bude, pakde and Yuda, now the house is really back quiet, there is only me, mother and Jefri. I look around. in all corners of the house always reminds me of my late father, I always look around, flashes of memories with him back present until I did not feel my tears fall back after a while not out.
not wanting to be too late in the sadness, after rubbing the rough melted tears, I rushed in and did not forget to lock the door.
I approached mother and Jefri who had entered the room first after arriving home.
I see my mother and sister have changed clothes. Jefri had fallen asleep while mother was still daydreaming from earlier.
"mother hasn't slept? " ask me to get closer.
"mother is not sleepy, sister, you just sleep mother is okay" he replied.
I'm going to lay my buh beside my mother.
I grabbed mom's hand and I gently elus "mom has to be strong for daddy's sake"
"may mother be able to sister"
tonight neither I nor my mother can sleep, the shadow of togetherness with my father always rotates in the head until I find it difficult to close my eyes.