WHAT ABOUT ME?
not dream

The morning sunlight shone through the closed window, I began to blink when the light was blinding my eyes.

apparently last night after I was satisfied crying I mocked until morning.

I turned my gaze to the side where there were Jefri and mother who were still asleep, back these tears fell to see the two people I loved so much were currently down.

I immediately got up and then slowly left the room, I lyric clock stuck on the wall shows at 6 am.

I rushed to the kitchen. Before deciding to make breakfast, I first checked the dining table maybe there are side dishes left.

"mom did not eat last night" I said as I stared at the rice and noodles that had been fully inflated on the dining table.

apparently last night mom really waited for my presence and dad until he did not eat dinner, but because of last night's disaster, mother did not have time to eat.

thank God the rice last night was not stale, I will make fried rice for mom and Jefri.

after I finished I rushed to take a shower to immediately leave for school.

although in a state of grief, but I do not want permission because today is still a test schedule.

after taking a shower and getting dressed, I woke up my mother and sister to get up and have breakfast.

today I asked Jefri to stay at home with me.

"mom, deck, wake up for breakfast" I said shaking my mother and Jefri's shoulders

my two loved ones opened their eyes and began to rise from the bed.

"are you in school? " ask mom

"yes ma'am, Jasmin still have a test, baby if you ask permission, later after finishing the exam, Jasmin went straight home, today let Jefri at home first"

"yes, I'm sorry I haven't had time to make breakfast for you"

"Jasmin has made breakfast ma'am, let's go out, let's have breakfast first" take me while leading mom out of the room while Jefri was out of the room first from waking up earlier

arriving at the kitchen I saw Jefri was looking for something, his head peeking out the kitchen door.

"look for what deck? " ask me

"dad, brother, why not have breakfast? " tanyanya plain.

my mother and I looked at each other, my poor sister, she forgot what happened yesterday, or she thought last night was just a dream.

not feeling my clear circle back dripping, I approached my sister and led her to sit down the dining chair.

"dad, dad is no more, so don't look for dad again yeah, please pray dad to calm down in his new home" I said slowly. I kissed both cheeks of my sister who arrived wet with tears.

mother rubbed my shoulders gently, trying to calm my heart.

"so, last night wasn't a dream, was my father really dead? "

I nodded slowly, it was hard to tell the truth "you have to let go of the deck father"

suddenly Jefri was intrigued more and more hard, surely his heart was also hurt to find the fact that it turned out that his father had died.

"why dads ninggalin us brother, I promise you will ajakin Jefri road to the city, why did you even go ninggalin us, huhuhuu... "

"Jefri calm down, there is a sister with mother, brother promises someday, brother will take you the road with mother, but brother please please release father yes deck" lirih I hold that little buh my sister.

Jefri nodded, his cries had now subsided leaving only a small sob of his beer bi.

"mom already, we must rise, mother do not dissolve in sadness, there we will always be on the mother's side" said I looked at mother.

mother smiled while wiping her tears, although the age is no longer young, but the feelings of love and affection between mother and father can not be doubted.

I got up from sitting and then started filling one by one plate with fried rice that had started to cool after that I poured drinking water in each glass.

"mother eat" I said to the mother who was still reluctant to eat her breakfast while Jefri had already eaten shortly after I asked her to eat immediately.

"it's fine if you don't want to eat alone" I immediately took over the mother's plate and then started scooping the fried rice and I thrust it towards you.

"let's eat ma'am" Mom quickly opened you up later, maybe because she didn't want to disappoint me finally mom was willing to take a bribe.

we ate a plate together, and when I finished, I went to school.

"mother does not need to hold any work so that later Jasmin who settled after school, mother is equally adek rest, Jasmin left first ma'am, assalamu'alaikum" my saying when I was about to leave, Jasmin left first, mom took me to the terrace with Jefri.

Tin

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the sound of the horn made me who was still saying goodbye to my mother immediately looked back, apparently Yuda came by riding his motorcycle last night.

Yuda came down and approached us who were still standing on the porch of the house.

"loh Yud, what are you doing here? " ask me to Judah who is standing next to me, he does not heed my question, he actually approached his mother and shook hands.

"mother.". "sapanya.

"yes, son Yuda tumben here, what's wrong? " ask the astonished mother to find Yuda stopping by the house

"oh that, I'd like to pick up Jasmin ma'am, would you like to take off with me? "ask.

last night before coming home Yuda asked about my school permit, but I told him that I would still go to school as usual because there was an exam.maybe that's why this morning Yuda stopped by the house.

"what's not a hassle, Yuda? "

"no ma'am, we're in the same direction"

"yes you have gone, heart on the road yes, son Yuda, do not call mebutkan ya" mother's message.

Yuda nodded, after saying goodbye, I and Yuda rushed to school.

there was no meaningful conversation when we left, just asking for news and then returning to silence, I who was still grieving was also reluctant to ask even though I actually wanted to ask about his arrival this morning.

arriving at school, after dropping me off, Yuda rushed to park his motorbike while I approached my friend's friend.

when I saw me, Rania, Naila and Vidya immediately ran and splashed in my arms.

"Jasmin we are sorry because last night we could not nemenin you" said Rania.

I returned their embrace, after being released I then nodded to understand their absence because the day was already night. "no matter what, just relax" I said.

"but, you're in, you're not allowed to make it at home? I will be able to do the next exam" asked Rania

"i'm okay, after all, my dad has been delivered to his new home, so there's no reason for me not to go to school" I replied

"but it's --"