WHAT ABOUT ME?
reoccur

"hey Ran." she said.

apparently the one who entered our class was Haris along with his two friends, Luki and Yuda.

this is the first time Haris came to our class to meet Rania, before the man would only come to Rania when in the school parking lot or like this morning, blocking her in the middle of the road.

but it seems that he is starting to want to show clearly to all his friends if he is currently approaching Rania.

back I press my feelings towards Haris so as not to get even bigger.

finally we stopped by the cafeteria because of the arrival of an uninvited guest.

"eh, hi Ris, what's wrong? " ask Rania.

"for you" while offering chocolate to Rania, my best friend happily accepted it. "thank you"

"yes, yes I have returned to class first yes, bye. "he said then turned out of class.

I see Rania smiling with a smile looking at the chocolate that Haris gave her, it seems like the two really like each other, do I like Haris too much?

"yeah yuk directly to the canteen, laper nih" Naila immediately moved from her seat.

"yuk is. " answered me and the others.

the four of us left class together, I was a little jolted when I found my friend in the past sitting in front of my class while eating his snacks.

I had no intention of greeting them because the trauma I had once felt was again present when I saw their faces.

fortunately, my three best friends invited me to speak so that I could easily be indifferent when passing in front of them.

the cafeteria was crowded, I chose to buy a glass of water and a packet of bread while my three friends bought rice.

we chose a seat that was a bit of an end because that's where it was still empty.

"don't buy food? " asked Vidya when she saw that I only bought water and bread.

"no, I'm still full because there was a lot of breakfast" is actually not full reason I only buy bread and water, but my pocket money is only enough to buy bread and a glass of mineral water.

"if you want, we eat together" said Rania while thrusting her plate containing rice and soto

"don't do it, you guys eat it, I eat bread just for a wedge of stomach, keep the laper pas lesson, if the rice is afraid of satiety" my alibi.

they nodded and went back to enjoying the soto rice on the plate as well as me.

if the day is usually me and my friends bring provisions, but when on a Friday like this, we take off because school is not until 11:00 wib has been completed.

after finishing the soto plate and returning the plate, we went back to class because soon the doorbell would ring.

sure enough, when we arrived in class, the doorbell rang, a few moments later, the Indonesian teacher came while saying hello.

***

day after day passed so quickly, I could not deny that now my feelings for Haris are getting bigger and bigger, even though I have tried to forget him, but my heart said another, but my heart said another, I still like him.

he who always looks friendly and kind to his friends, he who is smart and easy to get along makes the seeds of love appear.

in the middle of the daydream, I realized when I heard someone throw something on the wall of my house.

"well, ma'am, what happened again? " ask my father and mother who are standing at the door of his room.

mom understood what I meant, she nodded weakly "yes sister, you've accompanied your sister first, let father and mother here until her voice is gone" my mother said asking me to go back to my room immediately to my sister who was still asleep.

I only obey because yak wants to make my mother think more.

My grandmother, she's the one who's throwing stones at the wall of my house, I don't know what motive she's got for doing that, which I know she did a long time ago. as if our family is a pest that must be destroyed immediately.

I sat on the edge of the bed listening to the screams of my grandmother's beer, all sorts of swearing vows she made to my family.

for a long time my ears were hot, I couldn't hear them, I closed both my ears tightly so that the sound of the poisons was not heard by my ears.

instead of leaving, the sound of the voice came back and even very loud made me want to blow my head off.

"ugly base"

"the poor boy's basics"

"bad boy"

"sia"

I don't know how I could, the curse my bully uttered was now heard again.

I immediately chanted sholawat until my mind calmed down.

mother went into the room and then approached me who was still closing my ears, he patted my shoulder and then sat beside me, I could see the look on his face like a person who was carrying a lot of weight.

my mother held both hands and then removed them from my ears.

"it's stopped" said mother.

"mom, why does this keep happening, what's going on? " ask my mother.

I shook my head and didn't know "you never opposed what your grandmother said Jasmin, you never even protested against your grandmother's unfair attitude towards you, but I don't know, I don't know what's going on with your grandmother treating our family like this, let it be, one day she's gonna change"

mother, why is your heart so airy when it gets unfair, actually what your heart is made of

"mom, pray that Jasmin will be successful yes, so that we can buy a house for mom, so that we can move from here soon".

but the mother again shook her head "how can you leave if there is still your grandfather here Jasmin, I can't bear to leave him, if one day you succeed, make your dream home sis, make your dream home sis, I'll always support you"

"we invited grandfather to come with us mom! "

"grandfather would not want to because here his house, let it all happen, we just enjoy everything, someday this will never happen again"

indeed, only the grandfather who loves the mother, evident from the land of this house that he gave to the mother, therefore, therefore, mother was very reluctant to leave this house despite the harsh reality she always accepted

"it's fine that it's up to you, but if one day you can't stand it, we'd better move out of here"

mother nodded, before long father came to us, as usual, after such an incident, father would always check the outside first and then he could rest.

my grandmother's house is right on my right, while my left is my aunt's house, the house that was once inhabited by the Liam family, he said, the house is a house owned by my grandfather that is provided for my aunt, but my aunt was not married so that the house was rented, but now the house is back in residence since my aunt got married.