WHAT ABOUT ME?
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Yuda was sitting right on my right while on my left were my three best friends who were staring at me with a look that seemed to demand an answer from me.

"hey, why are his eyes glaring! " my exclaim to Rania who looked astonished, actually not only Rania, Naila and Vidya were the same.

"are you dating Yuda? " he asked in disbelief

"no, where there is. the person we both just a victory anyway, after all he is too perfect if he has to be with me who is just a stretchy crumb" I replied softly, I didn't want Yuda to hear our conversation even though he actually did.

"that's what I did, right! " go da Vidya, I don't know why it feels like my cheeks are warm when Vidya bergo da ku like that.

"not that already, that's the teacher's teacher already on the dateng"

2 Hours more we were in the hall, listening to the promotions of some schools that might be interesting and made an interest for us who want to continue school.

honestly I'm a little interested in vocational schools that have majors in foam management, however, it is not from the school owned by Hanum's parents so I have a little misi if I want a school there because of course the cost of spp and others will burden me and my mother.

after we finished leaving the room, I walked with Yuda while my three friends walked in front of me.

"where are you going, Jas? " ask Yuda

"whether it is Jud, I actually want to be vocational to take the foam na system, but back again, the cost must be very expensive, while you know for yourself how my life has been. maybe I'll choose one of the two options offered to me"

"meaning? "

"the first one, Ms. Parni offers to guarantee my school until graduation, or the second choice of the new school, is all free because they are only open this year. but I'm still worried, I don't want to get into a debt of service and it's going to make me and my mom feel burdened"

I don't know, telling Yuda feels very comfortable when we rarely communicate, only occasionally to pick up or cross the road.

"may you get what you want Jas"

"aamiin, yourself, where are you going? "

since I chose the seat at the very end of the room, it made me have to wait a little longer to get out of this hall.

Yuda momentarily fell silent, he seemed reluctant to say to me "if you don't want to answer anything" I continued

"that's not it, it's just that I'm still confused, then if it's definitely going where, I'll tell you"

I just nodded, thank goodness this hall room has been stretched so that I can immediately go out and regroup with my three best friends.

the clock has shown at 11 pm, we are allowed to go home because the event has been completed, some students have flocked to go home while some other students are still at school.

I saw Haris on the field, he had changed into his uniform.

"it looks like they're going back to training" murmured me trying to get closer from the field. sure enough, they started warming up in further playing his volleyball.

it did not feel like I had spent my time just watching Haris play volleyball until it was over.

His friend has returned home, now lives Haris who is still sitting in a seat on the edge of the middle field removing the mene luh test on his face.

"eh Jas, haven't come home yet? " he put his duk han into the bag and then moved and is currently standing in front of me

"no one wants me to talk to you, do you have time? " ask me a little doubt,

even so, my determination has been unanimous to express my feelings to her, even if rejected even though I will still tell her.

"want to say what it is, it seems important until you wait for me, what is it? " he was friendly as always,

"em, I'm actually curious about you, are you dating Rania? "

"that's it, so you know I'm just asking that question. I'm actually the same she's not dating anymore, actually, but basically the others often tego da me and say if I'm dating Rania, so a lot of fake news about me flying in school, why the hell, anyway, tumben tumbenan you nanyain this thing? "

I'm grateful in my heart, at least I don't like my best friend's girlfriend.

I exhaled slowly and tried to arrange the words I wanted to say.

"I LIKE YOU, HARIS" I said out loud.

while Haris, the man I had always admired in silence, who I thought was a good man and always friendly to anyone, now he changed his expression into a slanted smile when he heard my words.

"don't, don't like me because I never have and never will like you. What I like is Rania, your best friend! "

"Also even though I haven't officially dated Rania yet, I'm still her closest male friend, so don't even once you try to interrupt our relationship! " strictly

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bak in han tam boulder, it hurt so much when I heard myself from you lut Haris about the recognition of his taste to my own best friend.

although I knew for a long time if he liked my best friend Rania, but hearing her words directly made da da ku feel claustrophobic.

'fine, I'll try to forget you, I swear I won't like a man like you anymore, Haris' I'm silent.

in a bitterness, I tried to smile and stare at Haris' black bead of eyes, the handsome face of the man I like now showing great joy with his cynical smile.

either I misjudged it or indeed this is the real figure of Haris.

"thank you for the time, I hope you can always be happy with Rania, sorry because I was so confident expressing my feelings to you, but I'm grateful that at least the sense that was once there for you I can now erase easily after hearing an answer directly from you"

I said softly while still looking at his bead.

I didn't want to linger there for long, after hearing her slightly offending words, I hurried to leave from before her.

I didn't want to interrupt or demand more because his words at the beginning were more than enough to explain

after expressing my feelings and ending in rejection and insults, I immediately turned around and walked quickly away from Haris' current place.

in the midst of footsteps that I did not know where to take, a hand pulled me and led me to a place not far from the field.