WHAT ABOUT ME?
67

I sat there in front of the porch of my room, staring at the drops of rain that were soaking the earth.

The drizzle tonight is quite soothing my heart that is struggling. Nature seems to know, if tonight I need calm.

my mind began to wander, remembering the implied word for word from aunty Ayu. I don't know what she said, but clearly, it wasn't something bad.

this afternoon, when I was about to say goodbye, Aunt Ayu invited me to lunch together, there was only me and Aunt Ayu, while Judah, was, since he came home from outside with me there has been no room out at all.

"You must miss the cuisine mbak Hana right, eat a lot, then aunty wrap for dinner yes." said aunty Ayu while spooning rice on my plate

"yes, Aunt. "

"aunty is very happy to be reunited with you, later if you are married, often here yes, so that the aunt is not lonely, "

"w-why... Jasmin hasn't thought about getting married, Auntie. Let alone getting married, having a lover not yet, "

"Already, do not have to date everything. if the mrkang already know and fit, better in a movement only, "

I just nodded weakly, since earlier aunt ayu always talked about marriage, to be honest I was a little uncomfortable, because at this time I was healing gaping wounds that I made myself.

but there's no way I'm going to protest because I don't feel good interrupting her words.All I can do is accept every word that comes out of her lips.

I breathed out, I was so angry that my head was throbbing in pain.

late into the night, I decided to go back into the room to rest my body and mind equally tired.

"i'd better rest, who knows, tomorrow, my heart will heal by itself! let's go through the day like always! " my murmurs are encouraging themselves.

***

After last night's rain, now, the sun began to show its existence, giving light a heat in this cold morning.

after locking my room, I rushed to go straight to the boutique, and bought breakfast there.

"eh mbak Jasmin, already want to leave, usually at this hour is still molor, "greet my boarding neighbors.

"yes mbak, Ana. I want breakfast rice sitting in front of the boutique, so I leave a bit part, let's go, "

after a little stale, I continued my footsteps to walk along the sidewalk that led me to the boutique.

however, when I came out of the boarding area, there was a man with a tall, large stature, sitting leaning on the hood of his car.

Yuda, that man this early had already visited the residence of another person.

"Hi Jas, "sweep with her sweet smile, a smile that I longed for when we were far away.

"want you here? if you want to make it out yesterday, sorry, I refused because I want to work! " my exclaim flat.I don't want to show my adoring gaze to him because I don't want to be considered as an actor because it is close to someone else's fiance.

"sook to know you. I'm just here to pick you up, come on, I'll take you to the boutique! " he shouted as he opened the car door for me.

"do not do Jud, I better walk, "

"SMART HEALTHY! " My cry then turned around, but Yuda pulled back my hand and took me to sit on the seat beside the steering wheel.

"what the hell are you, Jud, don't be rude, "

"i just want to take you to the boutique, is that wrong? "

"WRONG.you are very wrong Jud, how can people get married even deketin other girls, you think, I what is Jud? "

"who is-"

"well, don't have much reason, move aside, I'm going down! " excite me annoyed

"No! you stay here and I'll take you to work, "

Yuda immediately closed the door and ran towards the steering door.

I did not protest much, Judah who is now very much different from the old Judah, Judah who is now very forced and arrogant, let alone his eagle eyes that make anyone who sees him feel intimidated.

the car drove at a moderate speed, until Yuda turned his car into a restaurant located opposite the boutique where I worked.

"we have breakfast first, yes, "

along the way, until I arrived at the restaurant, I chose silence, besides not wanting to argue with Judah, I also did not have enough energy because I was already very hungry.

Yuda chose a window seat to breathe fresh air, he said.

while waiting, the food we ordered finally came and I immediately ate it without waiting for Judah first.

however, when I was focusing on my food, precisely Yuda was more silent, I glanced at a glance to see what the middle of Judah was doing, apparently the man was staring at me.

"why? shame on you, bring a girl who eats a lot? " ask me when I see that Judah has been silent.

"no, who said? I'm just enjoying the creation of my God, "

"meaning? "

"you, gorgeous! " praise her

"do not mostly make a fight, later if the lips fantasize altitude, fear of being stuck in the plane! "

"hey, who's fighting, I'm talking what it is, okay?"

"yes, it's up to you, the important thing is not to involve me if you fight with Miss Tisha"

"okay, okay... "

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