WHAT ABOUT ME?
30

Judah, the man came back when I was in trouble and in the midst of sadness, as if he knew that this would really happen.

he took me to a chair in front of the art room, asked me to sit down and handed me a bottle of mineral water.

"Yud~ "cloak me.

"drink first, calm yourself! " he shouted without being denied.

immediately I drank the water that Judah gave me, and after being calm, Judah sat down beside me.

"was quiet? " ask slowly

I nodded and wiped away my tears that were still dripping.

"already.". "for a moment I was silent.

"i am a fool, Jud, because I admire too much to forget the shame even willing to be humbled by others, it turns out it feels sick to love without being loved"

I bowed bitterly, deeply ashamed of ignoring the warning from Judah, but after that, Judah came back and stretched out his hand to me without remembering my harsh words to him.

"people say, Love is blind Jasmin.so I want to talk a lot of things until you lut I froze it does not mean anything to you.

I used to not be able to tell the reason because at that time you were in love, and I waited until you realized that what I said was true.

I've been close friends with Haris for a long time until I knew a little bit about his romance.

you're not the first girl he rejected, there are many girls who expressed their feelings first to him but ended up like you received.

that's why I stopped you because I didn't want my loved ones to get hurt"

"you mean" I immediately looked at Judah.

"eh-no, I mean, love if people as good as you should be hurt with Haris, I see, y-yeah so... "

"now you know what Haris is like, he can also be rude to girls if he does not like it, his good attitude shows the same to everyone who does not offend him.

if you want to cry, cry it's okay, but after that you've been sad, you have to get up and focus on your future" he continued

I tried to digest all the words of Judah, yes, it is true, Haris is not as good and cool as it seems, just like a fox who is using a sheep book to hide his true nature.

"thank you, Jud, and I'm sorry that I never believed your words, even impressed to accuse you of not.

now that I've got the payback, it seems as though it's a broken heart, but I'm grateful because after this I won't think about him anymore"

there was a soft sigh from the figure of the man beside me, from earlier Yuda always turned his face when I looked at him, but if I did not look at him, then he would look at me for a long time.

"have forgotten it, as I said earlier, just focus on your future first.yeah yuk yuk home" he asked immediately to move.

before I go home I wash my face first to get to the house of my unsuspecting mother if I have just finished crying.

On the way home, there was nothing we talked about, I who was still not comfortable with Yuda chose to be silent and would speak when Judah asked.

arriving at the house of Judah did not stop by because there was a need while I immediately mausk into the house shortly after Judah said goodbye.

after greeting and being answered by the mother from the sewing room, I immediately went into the room and changed clothes.

for a moment I was silent, reluctant to go out because my mother must be suspicious to see my eyes are still moist, but, but I'm more suspicious if I don't go out of the room because usually after I finish changing clothes I will immediately meet my mother in the sewing room.

staying 10 minutes in the room, I got up from my seat and decided to go out to see my mother.Let me answer as much as I can when mother asks about my puffy eyes.

"mothers... "

"have eaten brother? " ask mom without looking at me because she is cutting fabric to make clothes.

"yet, not hungry, adek where mom, tumben deserted house? " ask me

"so saying goodbye mom wants to study together at Dio's house, maybe because soon dis will also be a class exam, so is the spirit of the spirit of studying together"

I nodded, as there was nothing I could do in the sewing room, I went to the back to look at my clothesline this morning.

fortunately, I didn't see my eyes so I didn't have to lie to get the answer.

because today was very hot, as a result of my clothes were dry and ready to fold, I picked up and then I took it to the living room to fold, I folded, when I'm done with the rest of the housework count it as a cure for heartbreak.

***

the next night I again discussed with my mother about the continuation of my school, after expressing my grief finally mother gave up her intention to meet Miss Parni.

"but ma'am, actually Jasmin also wants a vocational school there. Jasmin wants to be a designer ma'am" I said

"why not say from the beginning, right mother can reason the same Miss Parni if you want vocational school can she also not wait for answers from you sister.

but yes it is, it's okay, later I will tell Miss Parni. for the tuition fee of you and your sister, for the school fee, I've thought carefully about the cost if you really want to go to school in accordance with your interests"

"don't say mom will- "

"there is no other choice, sis, your education is more important. later the mother will sell all her cows to jagan Joni, thank goodness later can be a high price so we can still save" said the mother

"but ma'am "