WHAT ABOUT ME?
33

The rain had subsided replaced with a rain that brought the cold.we decided to continue our journey because the day was getting late.

"we had lunch first yes, cold cold like this is good to eat" Yuda stopped his motorbike in front of the meatballs on the side of the road.

we got off the bike then Yuda ordered two bowls of meatballs and warm tea, after which we looked for a seat, thank goodness there were still some empty seats so we didn't have to wait for a change.

visitors here are quite crowded, maybe the effect of cold weather so that many motorists who stop the motor just to enjoy a bowl of meatballs with sauce that is still steaming hot to prevent ngatkan pe ruth.

"please enjoy." said the meatballer when serving a bowl of meatballs in front of us.

"thank you sir" I said in response to a nod of the head by him.

this afternoon we enjoyed a bowl of meatballs accompanied by the sound of splashing rain water that still flushes this city.

this moment will probably be my fondest memory with Judah for the last time because after this he will really leave and I do not know if he will come back or not.

"hopefully someday we can again enjoy a bowl of meatballs both yes Jas" said Yuda arrived.

uhuk uhuk

I had just imagined it but Yuda first exclaimed to shock me to the point of choking.

"slowly swallow. "he said that the glass had warmed his and immediately I drank quickly.

"sorry"

"that's why if you eat slowly, do not have to hunt, the rain has not really subsided" he said

"yes-yes... "

I swear by anything I want to cry right now also see the good attitude of Yuda that soon I will never feel again.

***

arriving at home, I rushed to change my clothes after that I approached the mother who was in the kitchen.

"cook what mom? " ask my mother who is in front of the stove.

"nasi goreng kak, the rice mumpung is still a lot, let's not mubadzir mending in the fry only"

"ohhhhhhh... "

***

nightfall

I entered the room and immediately took out the gift of Yuda from my school bag.

one that amazes me because in the gift box there is a photo of me who is laughing but I am not staring at the camera, it seems Yuda deliberately photographed me silent. below the photo is a small fold of paper like a letter.

and sure enough, there was a handcrawl of Judah filling the paper I had just opened.

'hi Jasmine Zainisa, please,

when you read this letter, maybe I'm already on my way to the capital to catch up with my father, don't be sad, someday, if we're meant to be together, we will meet even though the distance between us is impossible for us to travel because of our abilities.

You must have felt astonished because suddenly I approached you and forbade you to approach Haris. Honestly, at that time I did not know you at all, but because of my promise to someone I finally started to approach you.

I thought you were an ordinary girl, your looks were not attractive at all, not even I was interested in you in the least, but after knowing and knowing the life you live, she said, my view is inversely proportional to yours.

Keep up the spirit of Jasmine, I believe you are a strong girl even though you have traumatized you.

lastly, I just wanted to say, If I start getting interested in you, I'm,

I LIKE YOU JASMINE

actually I want to say it straight away but I don't have enough courage to express my feelings to you directly

hopefully if we are destined together, this feeling is still the same and will be avenged.

YUDA ARYA PRATAMA'S'

I laughed softly, I think my friend was drowsy when writing this letter so that the writing became inconsequential like this.

"the basis of the Yuda, where maybe he likes me while others even just to make me a friend was reluctant" I laughed mirisih.

but even so my tears just shed, laughing at myself who was even full of shortcomings who dreamed of being wailed by the right partner.

"consciously Jasmin realized, don't mostly fantasize about falling ill" I hit my head slowly trying to wake me up from my long daydream.

***

next morning

today I plan to go to the house of Judah, to ascertain the truth whether he has really left or not because I do not believe that that afternoon he left this village.

bringing along a little of Yuda's favorite food, I walked towards his house.

when I got there I was disappointed because it was true that Yuda said if he had gone from home because it was seen from the state of the house that was quiet even the front gate was locked.

"it turns out Yuda actually went "my mumbling is soft

"you're Jasmin, right, why are you here alone? " ask someone who is passing by

I looked, apparently the neighbor next to the house of Yuda who was greeting me.

"yes ma'am, I want to find Yuda, but it looks like he's not home" I replied

"how, Yuda as his mother had left followed his father to the city yesterday afternoon, what was the matter, did he not know if he wanted to move? " my heart broke when the mother told me that Judah was really gone.

"say ma'am, but don't tell me that it will be yesterday afternoon" I replied not to tell if Yuda had told me through the letter he gave.

"yes, mother first yes, want to go to the front shop first" he said

"yes ma'am, thanks for the information... "

after the departure of Judah's neighbor, I was shocked again, apparently Yuda really had left, when yesterday we just spent time together but today I returned alone, but today I was alone, I felt emptiness in my heart but as much as I could I didn't show it to anyone.

this heart felt much more hurt than Haris's rejection at the time.

"huuh... "

"why did Yuda not tell me directly if he wanted to go. I did not think that yesterday was the last day to meet him, if this would feel really if he left... " I muttered as I left the house of Judah to return home.

***

1 month later...