WHAT ABOUT ME?
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From a distance I could clearly see the house of the father was so clean and well-groomed. Mother, she was the one who almost every day visited the father and cleaned the house of his true love.

I sat down beside my father's belly button, and so did my mother and Jefri. Mother led the prayer solemnly so that it did not feel the clear circle escaped just dead my eye fertilizers.

After sending the prayer, me, my mother and Jefri said goodbye to my father.

On the way, the mother had already looked calm, she was also already not moody and even a beautiful etched smile from her lips.

"happy, my mother. "I teased my mother.

"mom is always happy if you are near your father sis. someday, if mom catches up with your father, you take good care of your sister huh? "

"mom says what the hell, don't think too far, Jasmin sure, mom will age with Jasmin and Jefri! "

mother's words were like a dagger that pierced my heart, how could the mother calmly say that, especially in front of her children.doesn't the mother want to see our lives, she said, seeing their children succeed and finding their partners.

mother chuckled as if my speech was just a grunt, but I could see from the radiance of her eyes that began to dim over time, showing an anxiety there.

Arriving at home, I rushed clean because it was already very late afternoon.

***

The next day, early in the morning I had already finished packing and was about to return to the city. mom also brought me some food to give to Grandma Ida as a thank you because all this time she was the surrogate mother when I was in town with her.

"you're good there, always obey Ida and don't bother her. "mom's message when I say goodbye this morning.

"yes mother, Jasmin will always remember mother's message, Jasmin left first ma'am, assalamu'alaikum. "

"be careful, wa'alaikumsalam. "

I walked to the angkot stop not far from home with a bag of careless mother's care.

on the way back, I had to meet the person I had avoided the most. Haris, he was sitting on his bike with a straight look staring at me.

however, I tried to ignore, I went back. continued my footsteps and tried to pass without greeting her.

"Jasmin, wait! "

"what's up Haris? I'm going back to town! " call me while releasing his hand.

"i'd like to talk to you for a second. "

"but I don't want to talk to you anymore Haris!" I stared hard at him.

this road is a little quiet because it is still early in the morning so that people have not been out to go to work.

I was surprised by Haris, how he could have known that I was going back to town early in the morning.

"why? why don't you talk to me again, don't you like me? "

"formerly! I used to love you, I was a fool once liked the same people who did not have a heart like you, but after the rejection and humiliation of that day, I hated you so much, Haris! " i said with great emphasis.

Haris glared at me as if surprised by the harsh words that came out of my mouth. Maybe he was surprised because all this time I never raised my voice even though many people hated me.

"what? why glare so huh? ah, don't tell me you're starting to get close to me because I'm already starting to change. I'm not the same old, black Jasmin as before, am I? "

actually I don't want to say it. how can I be so confident saying as if I've become a beautiful Jasmin instead of the neater Jasmin as before.

but never mind, everyone is already gone, just let me all vent my emotions on him.

"it's so easy that your lips say it all, and then Rania wants you to come, huh? "

"that's a simple matter, I'll decide on her soon after we date, how? "

"foolish basics, sick soul you Ris! " my curse is to leave Haris.

"Jasmin, I'm waiting for your answer! " he shouted from behind.

I don't intend to look, Haris has changed, he's not the Haris I used to know, even now I don't recognize Haris at all.

You stupid man, can usually play with the feelings of women like that. I feel sorry for Rania who has a lover less than a seons like Haris.

I quickened my steps so that soon ssmpai on the side of the big road.it seemed like I had to wait a little longer because the angkot I was about to ride had passed before I reached the side of the road.

fortunately, not long after the angkot came back, I exhaled slowly, and immediately went up to the angkot.I allowed my eyes to look back, I was grateful that Haris was not chasing me.

40 Minutes later, I had reached Ida's grandmother's house. I immediately opened the gate and went straight inside.

"assalamu'alaikum nek, " I kissed the back of his hand and countered with elusan on my head.

"grandma thought you weren't back today, son, grandma waited for you outside"

"Jasmin has promised to return today, Grandma, where Jasmin might deny. "

"yes let's go in first, grandma bought your favorite market snack"

this is what I like about Grandma Ida, she treated me like her own granddaughter to make me comfortable living with her.

***

It didn't feel like the long holiday was over, now it's time for me to go back to school and my job.

I am so grateful, in this city I met good people, from living in a boarding house to the house of Grandma Ida.

now that I have entered the twelfth grade, the final grade will be a lot of tasks and also the exam exam that determines my graduation.

when I got to school, I immediately met Gita who was waiting for me in the classroom.

"assalamu'alaikum."

"wa'alaikumsalam" replied all my friends who were in the class.

Gita, he immediately got up from his seat and ran over to me. "Jasmine! " the screech immediately hugged me.

"G-Git, I can't breathe, "I said stammered because Gita hugged me so tightly.

"sorry, "

"i miss you Je, when did you come back here? "

"on Thursday yesterday I was back Git, his son Nek Ida has returned to Jakarta, so I returned quickly."

"kok no ngabarin anyway, know that I play to Ida Je's house, "

"sorry yes, too busy cleaning up the house until you forget. "

Gita nodded in agreement and invited me to sit in our chair.