WHAT ABOUT ME?
22

There was no more discussion after that until we got to my house.

after dropping me off in front of the house, Yuda immediately said goodbye to go home.

for a moment I stared at his disappearance with nanar, whether my answer had offended him until he turned cold, I don't know, I don't know. but for sure since I answered her last words Judah showed her strange gurgle.

I immediately dismissed the prejudice and then stepped inside the house.

"assalamu'alaikum ma'am. " said I entered the house.

there was a sewing machine sound from the middle room, I immediately followed there because it seemed like mother was still continuing her unfinished sewing.

"have you gone home, brother? " ask mom to stop her activities.

"already dong ma'am, if not how could I be here! " i then kissed the back of his hand.

"you are, oh yes, Miss Parni came here, sister"

"bu Parni, why ma'am? " i wondered, because I had not worked there for a long time, and he knew that I was in school, so it was impossible if he was looking for me just because he needed my services

"so she said that she missed you, there was no you, the house was deserted" replied the mother.he went out, and I followed her.

"tumben once yes ma'am, but anyway, Jasmin also misses Parni, because even though Jasmin there works, but Parni and Ahmad sir treat Jasmin well"

"alhamdulillah you are still surrounded by good people"

"alhamdulillah ya ma'am. "mother then opened the paperbag giving Parni.

"this was said for you, one for Jefri" said the mother, handing over a set of women's clothes.

apparently in addition to giving the basic food, Miss Parni also bought me and Jefri clothes every day.

"wah, it's really good ma'am " said I was excited, but only a long-sleeved shirt and a long skirt, with matching colors, but I was so happy.

how unhappy, if the clothes I wear every day are the second-hand clothes of some of my brothers.

given the situation we are still in short supply, making mother and father not able to buy new clothes for us.

"even though it's used, but the clothes are still worth using, the money is in the tube, brother" mother always said that when I want to buy new clothes.

There is more important than just buying clothes, that's what mom thought at the time.

I put a long pink T-shirt and long blue skirt on it, and it seemed to fit perfectly on my body.

I went to the glass cupboard, I turned ba and me while smiling happily.

I looked at my mother, and she smiled happily at me.

"good yes ma'am, even though Jasmin is black, but still fit wearing a pink shirt" I said with a smile that still persists.

"don't get me wrong, my daughter always fits in any color" said the mother.

I don't know how long I haven't bought a new shirt, maybe two years ago, even that shirt because the previous Lebaran clothes are not fit for me to wear.

***

it didn't feel like almost a year my father left us, it meant that soon I too would be taking exams and graduating from school.

in less than a week I will be doing the national exam to determine whether I pass later.

I looked at the shady face of the woman of heaven who had given birth to me, mother, she had become strong since the departure of father, she said, he always covered his sadness by joking with us even though the streak of sadness was still visible in his eyes.

I rubbed and I kissed the back of his hand, not feeling my tears just shed.

"keep healthy ma'am" I prayed softly then I kissed the mother's forehead who was still asleep.

I don't know why there's a sense of tightness in my chest, maybe because I'm too late in sadness that all that arises is bad thoughts.

I went from the bed to the bathroom.

I rubbed my face with ablution water, I stretched out my prayer rug and bowed to my rabb.

I don't know how long I've been in the prayer room, but when I woke up, I was still wearing my face and sleeping curled up on the prayer mat.

"o Allah, I fell asleep" I murmured softly.

I immediately took off the face I was wearing and then moved out of the prayer room.

"it turns out it's four in the morning" I looked at the wall clock in the living room.

because I did not want to be late to school, I decided to immediately take a shower and wash clothes and then pray the dawn prayer because for now, adzan shubuh has not reverberated.

for almost an hour I was in the bathroom, now I was done and brought my laundry tub to the backyard after that I continued to pray.

"where did you end up, brother? " mom asked when I closed the kitchen door, apparently she was awake and had just come out of the bathroom.

"it was just put the laundry outside ma'am, this is Jasmin masu shubuh used to just dry clothes"

"you've been holy this early, you wake up at what time, I don't know? " ask mom

"at four o'clock ma'am, because he did not want bad luck, finally Jasmin mutusin to take a shower and wash clothes"

"yes already, it's five o'clock, there pray, bad luck" said the mother.

I immediately fulfilled my duty to my rabb, and when I was finished, I continued my work

"you dry your clothes, let me make breakfast" said mother said I approached her.

not stopping, I finally continued my steps to the backyard to dry clothes.

***

At school

during this week, the lesson is only about the discussion of national exam questions, we are given training to do examples of exam questions and also explanations.

this afternoon after school, Rania invited us to see Haris' group volleyball with another class, no, not a real race, just training.

"eh let's hunt, ntar the hunt begins to match! " raia exclaimed excitedly, even he rushed to put his book in a bag.

"calm dong Ran, just finished the lesson hours, it is still a long time ago" Naila grumbled, he did not like if he had to rush just because of trivial and not urgent things.

"yes, but I promise Haris will be a supporter of him on the field, so let's go there to race and start" replied Rania who made me look at it for a moment.

apparently their relationship is very close, it is appropriate if I enter in the middle of their closeness just because I like Haris.