EGO - Adhira
Ego-49 Adhira and his Depression

Adhira who felt unconcerned just stood stiff. He didn't even move a single moment from where he stood. In his mind, Adhira hated the damn babies nearby. And for sure he felt more and more completely useless. The feeling of being ostracized, shunned and judged as when for the first time he was found pregnant again haunts him. Adhira felt very desperate.

He felt very foreign to all this.

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"Ze, "Adhira pulls Zeo's hand as the man is about to leave their room.

The shocked Zeo turned his head quickly, "Eh, why?"

Adhira shook her head, "Don't come out, get me."

"Temenins? Lo lonely?" Zeo did not understand, this was already their third day in Jakarta, and Adhira was always locked in her room. "Kan uda I said from semalem, join dong with my family, Zea same Zee loh still curious lo lo lo, they are far from Japan to meet lo dhir, lo dhir, Mom and Dad wanted to know more. Our children also want to see their mother. Exit dong dhir"

Wrong, Zeo is wrong, Adhira is not okay. But the man just pressured her to open up.

Adhira pushes Zeo's hand, "Son, I don't want to hook up with your family, "

"Adhiro!"

"What!"

Zeo closed his eyes, "Clear, I want to take care of my kids" Desis Zeo slammed their bedroom door.

Adhira clenched her hands, her eyes glazed over.

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Zeo knew that Adhira was not okay, in the sense that the physical and mental condition of the woman was not good. But seeing Adhira who was like an undead bed in bed made Zeo who would close his eyes undo his intentions. It's their third day living in Zeo's parents' house. And Yang Zeo noticed, Adhira kept herself locked up in the room every day. Especially since their fight this morning.

"Dhira" called her softly.

Adhira glanced at him then wiped away her tears. The woman was crying.

"Why hm?" zeo asked softly, the man was about to hug him but Adhira gave a refusal by pushing Zeo's chest away.

Zeo who saw the change in the nature of Adhira just held back his emotions and tried to be more patient again. He did not want to start a fight near midnight like this and chose to turn his body so that he turned his back on Adhira, he needed rest to start his day tomorrow with many activities that he took including caring for his children. The twins fussy since in Jakarta, maybe not used to the temperature outside the incubator. Although the twins were treated by two nurses, but Zeo still always monitored him, especially now he began to be invited by his father to join their family's company. The pressure is so great.

Adhira who saw Zeo turned her body sobbed. He felt increasingly unconcerned even by Zeo.

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Early in the morning, Adhira woke up when she heard the sound of babies crying near her room. Although the sound of the babies is very small but quite disturbing. The woman looked to her left right but could not find her whereabouts.

Adhira wondered where the babies were put by Zeo. Because he was very disturbed Adhira also decided to go out to find the source of his voice even though he was trained. Finally Adhira found the source of the sound, right in the nursery next to her room which turned out to be connected to her room. There were already two nurses who calmed the babies there.

"Eh, mom, sorry buk disturbed his sleep" said one of them.

Adhira cleared her throat, "They're why?"

The nurse glanced at each other, "Less knows buk, seems tired or how after a long trip, this morning was brought by Mr. Zeo as the mistress to the hospital for a body check, but this body even hot." the nurse said again.

Adhira was silent, so he remembered how Zeo's efforts to bring the babies along with them to Jakarta. Premature birth and the condition of a baby that is not too stable actually makes doctors recommend that you take a trip ranging from 10-15 days more. However, Zeo reassures the doctor with the circumstances of his children. Could it have an effect now?

Moreover, he said the babies were taken out of the house to the hospital. Must be the heat of the car affecting them.

"Yet, do you want a sling? Maybe if the same mother baby wants to be quiet and calm." the nurse's anjur was a little frustrated because the foster child did not want to be quiet for three hours ago.

Adhira did not move from her position when the nurse approached. Adhira swallowed his saliva nervously. Suddenly a flash of his quarrel with Zeo reflected in his eyes, how Zeo forced him to eat porridge, how Zeo snapped at him.

"No-no!" shouts Adhira suddenly that made the two nurses surprised instead of playing.

The two nurses became confused by Adhira's sudden change in emotions. While the two babies were crying louder when Adhira screamed and cried in fear.

Zeo who was shocked when he heard the sound of screaming and crying from his son's room immediately reflexively woke up and ran to the room next to him.

"Dhira, uh, uh, Stop Dhir, sober" Prevent Zeo on Adhira who grabbed her hair blindly. The woman hurt herself.

"Dhira, sober hey. Stop baby, stop." said Zeo hugging Adhira.

As soon as she realized that Zeo was hugging her, Adhira immediately stopped her action, the woman was crying loudly in Zeo's chest.

"Ze-hiks, throw them out, throw them Ze, hit it, I-I'm scared, Hik, throw them out Ze hik"

"Adhira, hey, calm down baby, calm down"

"Oh my goodness, what's wrong?" asked Mama, papa and Zeo's sisters who woke up and approached her because they heard a commotion from upstairs.

"Ma, ma please Zeo ma's children. Adhira is out of control ma." said Zeo pointing at her children who still continue to cry .

Mama and Papa Zeo immediately reached for his grandchildren. "Jeez, this is why it's so hot" Mama Adhira said when she felt the baby's body was hot.

"Yes buk, the heat is so high from last night and it's hard to sleep."

"WHY NOT SAY FROM EARLIER" snapped Papa Zeo who realized the condition of his grandchildren is not conducive.

"Pa?"

"Zea told Toni to get the car out, we're going to the hospital now. Zeo you calm Adhira first lest Adhira hurt your children."

Zeo who was still hugging and calming Adhira who was crying out of control nodded obediently. The man had resigned and only obeyed his father's orders.

"Dispose Ze, hiks, throw them away, or-or, kill them Ze, they cry hyss. they cry hysterics" Adhira increasingly becomes in Zeo's arms. While Zeo was only able to tighten his embrace.

Is this God, especially?

*****

"Where are Zeo Pa's kids?" ask Zeo who found his father and mother back in Adhira's hospital. Now they are in the hospital. And Zeo only took care of Adhira since then while papa and her mother took care of the twins.

"Your children are fine, but they must be treated in an intensive room first. Maybe because of shock after a long trip" said Mama Zeo .

Zeo nodded, he was a little relieved.

"Did Adhira not change?" asked Papa Zeo who noticed her daughter-in-law who was still crying and kept hugging Zeo.

They are not too surprised when Adhira rages and cries excessively, because the psychologist who handles Adhira has previously given them a warning. They just need to keep Adhira away from her children, do not let the woman get full access to approach her children for fear of hurting her two babies.

And also they only need a lot of patience when Adhira cries excessively or stares with blank eyes. Because it is all the characteristics of the symptoms of postpartum depression experienced by Adhira.

Zeo shook his head slowly, "The doctor said he would not like it tomorrow morning, Adhira had to consult a psychiatrist. You see the stage of depression Adhira uda beyond limits, fear Adhira not only hurt our children to pray but also hurt himself" said Zeo recall the words of the doctor who handled Adhira earlier.

Mama Zeo sighed, she rubbed Zeo's hair, "Patience baby."

Zeo nodded with a look of despair. He's tired so tired.

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