EGO - Adhira
Ego-57 Zeo Voice

"Diem for a while." whispered the man put his chin scratched at Adhira's neck. Adhira gulped her saliva nervously when she felt the remaining drops of shampooed water from Zeo's hair hit her cheeks.

Adhira firmly grasps the balcony railing. But this time he did not reject Zeo's embrace with rebellion. They both calm themselves in their own ways.

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They were in such a position for a long time. But none of them wanted to start a conversation.

Zeo clenched their arms even more, while Adhira remained silent and did not respond. The position of Adhira who turned her back to Zeo made her not know how Zeo's current expression was.

"I know Panji can't take you away from me and my kids. Because I know he's not that low, I know how good he is, he knows his position is just your past" Zeo said hoarsely. Maybe the effect of too much silence. But the voice was so hurt, was the man's conversation with Panji so heavy that this usually calm Zeo seemed so fragile?

"But why am I so scared and angry just because you saw Dhir's arms."

Adhira felt her blood flow stop when Zeo revealed her unrest.

"You know, I don't know why I still want to survive until now. I confused Dhir, I was confused as to my own feelings. I'm tired of hurting myself, I'm tired of fighting myself, I'm tired of getting pressured myself. But no matter why I still want and still hope that one day you come home to me, return my arms, reply to my kisses, I don't know Dhira, I don't know why I'm this stupid and stupid, this stupid, but one thing I know. You are mine and my children. Even to death it will still be like that."

"Ze"

"Stt, this time I'll say Dhir, this time I'll complain. Let me reduce the burden of my mind. And you just have to listen. I'm tired of Dhira, really tired. I want to give up every second." Zeo's whispers are getting raspy. Why, hearing Zeo's grievance, Adhira felt her heart throb. Like someone's pinching it.

"Z-zeo" nervous Adhira when Zeo turns over Adhira's body. Now their positions are facing each other with eyebrows that meet each other.

"I don't know what's the reason you hate me so deeply, Dhir. I admit I was wrong from the beginning, I made you in this position now. I ruined your dreams, your life, even your psychic. But after a lot of things that happened between us in the last two years. Isn't there any ground on which you can try to accept me Dhir? Receiving my children?"

Zeo closed his eyes when his eyes hurt. "I know you love them. I know you're starting to take care of my kids. But why hide? Why in front of me as if you hate them to your point? Why hm? If you think I'm going to visit you and go back to Alina who you think you've been thinking about all along. May I tell you Dhir, my relationship with Alina even ended at that time when you picked up the phone first."

Adhira looked at Zeo in disbelief, so all this time she had been mistaken? He thinks Zeo still sees his girlfriend a lot. Adhira thought, Zeo really did her threat to bring her children to Alina. Adhira thought, Zeo is that bad.

"Did you see that Dhir? It was the rarest sight I've ever seen" Zeo said, turning her back so she could see what she was pointing at in the yard. The harmony of the Zeo family. There were parents, his two sisters and his two children who were relaxing in the spacious house. Enjoy the warm afternoon.

"The harmony is like that which my sisters and I had hoped for a long time ago, "zeo whispered which made Adhira frown not understanding what Zeo was talking about. Adhira knows Zeo's relationship with her parents is bad but is it that bad?

"For almost 21 years of my life, I have never known family harmony."

"But-"

"I'm not a mama or papa's son" Zeo whispered more slowly, there was a hurt tone on his voice.

Adhira rounded her eyes in surprise, the woman turned to face Zeo in shock with both eyes. Adhira did not even notice when her hand was already holding Zeo's front t-shirt tightly. "W-what?"

"At least that's what my mom and dad told me when I asked them to take me with them to Canada" Zeo said with a small smile.

"I'm a child out of wedlock. I got their promiscuity while studying in Canada. You know Dhir, mommy was the same. Both depraved for throwing me away at the orphanage and not wanting to acknowledge me as their child, especially papa. Maybe I wouldn't know them if I was a year old when Obaachan and Ojiichan didn't take my custody" Zeo Gamang said, it was as if the story he was telling had hurt him so deeply.

"Ze"

Adhira was speechless, the woman was staring at Zeo with a hard to interpret look.

"You know how hard it was to be me? I always wondered why I never saw my mommy? Why do I have to learn business from small, why Obachan always treat me with reason of return, why do I always feel like a doll in the family Takahashi-" Zeo breathed her breath when a drop of tears fell.

"Mama Papa always blames me for all the destruction they can get. I thought with Zea the same Zee my papa mama would change at least for my sister. But can you see it? Mama gave my sister to Obaachan. They fought in front of me, they bullied me in front of me, for God's sake Dhira, I was a seven-year-old boy back then.I don't know why they hated me, I don't know why they hated me, I don't know why you always get angry when I introduce myself to the Takahashi clan behind my name. I don't know Dhira, I don't know, all I know, they don't like me. They don't admit me."

Adhira didn't know why, but her tears had already fallen. He held Zeo's chest trembling. It was as if I felt what little Zeo felt first, thrown away, dumped, and ignored.

"You know Dhira, my life is a mess, all the problems I face seem to give me a solid foundation of why alcohol is my best friend. I spent my time in clubs, bars, discos, driving my heartache to cigarettes, I-I drowned in the dark because of my heartache Dhir "

"Then do you think I'm gonna let my kids do the same thing?"

Adhira shook her head with a fad.

"Do I have to let them lose their parents? Will they also feel the pressure I get? Will they be destroyed like me and Dhir? Are they also going to cry when asked where mom and dad went

"No Dhira, I won't listen, I don't want to repeat the same story as my parents Dhir, that's why I was so angry when you killed them. I'm not the one who answers, I'm not them Dhir, I'm not them. I'm not the cowardly father of Dhira, I'm not them" Zeo whispered heartily.

"It was a time when you said you would punish me by giving my children suffering. Is that sentence still long Dhir? "

"- Do you still want to punish me Dhir? Kasian Zela and Ken. They can't even do anything at this age. They need you by their side to face their shortcomings" whispered Zeo sobbing on Adhira's shoulders.

"They need the figure of his mother. They need you." As Zeo sobbed on his shoulders. She was crying in silence. He felt the pain that Zeo felt right now. In any case they are parents who have more concerns about the growth and development of their children.

"Dhira, can I beg you to be a good mom to my children, can you give your affection and reduce your ego to them? Could it be Dhir? Even if I have to beg your feet for the rest of my life it doesn't matter to me as long as you want to be a mother figure to my children."

"i don't know what I'm supposed to do to crush your ego."

"But Adhira Alindra Takahashi, do you want to live like a family with me and my children? Do you want a harmonious family for Zela and Ken? Do you want to start from the beginning with me?" Zeo asked looking at Adhira who was now starting to cry. His heart was slashed as Zeo continued to plead with him.

"Do you want Dhir?" zeo shakes Adhira's shoulder. "I beg you"

Looking at the silent Adhira, Zeo smiled slightly, there was a hint of hope that she could get. The man lowered his head, he grabbed Adhira's lips with his lips with a softness that explained his seriousness.

For the first time in their marriage history. Adhira Alindra replied to Zeo's kiss just as gently.

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Fyiuhhhhh,,,, uh,,,,,

Huh, How is this chapter?

So deep huhuhuhu, Zeoooo...