EGO - Adhira
71 - It is difficult to understand each other
Zeo went into the room when the clock was showing at 12 midnight. And the sight of Adhira who had fallen asleep was the first time he met.
"Dhira" Bisik Zeo approached their bed, stroking his wife's cheek dearly.
"Dhira, dear wake up first" whispered Zeo again while stealing a kiss on the corner of his wife's lips that only responded with a groan interrupted briefly before the mother of two children was back to sleep.
"Dhira" Zeo stroked Adhira's stomach which, although not yet large, but had enough to tell that there was a youngest of their hope in there.
"Eugh" Adhira blinked as she felt quite bothered by her husband's hand movements.
"Ze" He's a little upset.
"Wake up first yuk, I want to talk" said Zeo rubbed Adhira's hair, and,
"Emm, tomorrow morning I sleepy" said Adhira half whining, not wanting to wake up even though her husband had seduced as best as possible.
Zeo shook his head, reluctant to follow his wife's advice, serious problems like this should be discussed as soon as possible so that later it will not drag on, anyway if the new tomorrow is discussed it will definitely be forgotten with their busy morning. "Dear, wake up now yuk, I want to talk important things about the kids"
Hearing the words of the children, Adhira opened her eyes even though she was very reluctant. At least I wonder why her husband woke her up in the middle of the night to discuss their children.
"Why are you with Ken?" Adhira asked hoarsely, trying to lean his back on the bed rest which Zeo also followed afterwards.
"So when I came home, they also just came home, tired looking tired" Zeo began while glancing at Adhira who was silently listening.
"Say they haven't had dinner yet, so apparently you haven't cooked dinner? haven't picked them up lately, have you?" Said Zeo trying as smooth as possible, unwilling to offend the sensitive Adhira.
"Zela was crying because she didn't feel cared for by us anymore, Ken even though he was quiet but I know that he was also crying the same thing - I mean, you know, I know, maybe they feel since you are pregnant we are too focused on your pregnancy, I am also busy continuing these months at the head office, and you are also too focused on interceding for pregnancy this time, this time, so they-so
"Casual?" Cut Adhira sounds offended. "Casualy how?" Ask doesn't like it.
"No, I mean dear" Zeo sighed when she realized that Adhira had misinterpreted with her intentions.
"So you mean what the hell is this?" Reply Adhira again, no longer trying to cover up if she was very offended by her husband's words. Because to be honest, she didn't like it when Zeo said she was just relaxing for her pregnancy, though the man knows himself that relaxing is part of his efforts to be able to accept this third pregnancy freely chest. To be honest, even now, Adhira still often finds it difficult to accept her pregnancy happily, she is still often confused with Zeo, still a little traumatized even if just looking at a glass of pregnant milk in his hand. Afraid Zeo suddenly slammed his glass and scolded him again. Because really
The trauma of seventeen years ago is still clearly recorded. I imagine it for real. The trauma is still there.
"Honey
"Don't talk too much, do you want to say what I am? You want to blame me for being lazy in your house, right? You want to insinuate me who can not cook or clean your house again so-Oh or you uda start to see I'm lazy, can not take care of yourself, take care of the house, do the house, take care of the kids and take care of you again"
Zeo clucked in dislike, Adhira is very difficult to talk calmly and think with a cool head, always winning his ego and sticking with his own foot stance.
"What the hell are you doing, when you suddenly talk about this?this is your house as well as Dhira, our house, anyways I do not discuss the matter, I'm just saying that we're not paying attention to the kids anymore until they feel like we're moving away and don't love them anymore!" Zeo sternly a little stirred emotions.
Believe me, that in fact they are both short-spirited, it's just that, since the birth of his children and the depression of Adhira first, it's just that, Zeo realized that they couldn't possibly stay together if no one wanted to budge between them.
" But you think you're wronging me for all this trouble, right? Or maybe you actually want to be angry because I uda rarely do homework but you use the reason children make my country-me
"Dhiro!" Zeo yelled half, but tried to hold him back so as not to really yell loudly. Afraid that the kids will hear. Although their room was dilanatai down and away from the children's room on the second floor, but of course Zeo did not want to take the risk. Especially now that his children are under pressure from graduation exams and university entrance preparation.
"W-what?" Adhira looked at Zeo with trembling eyes, holding back tears as well as shock. Like Dejavu, the two fell silent. This is the first time they have raised their voices after nearly 15 years of trying to accept each other. Usually only Adhira gets angry and Zeo will always take on the role of cold water.
"Can we talk about our problems first hm? Sorry uda snapped at you" Zeo was about to grab Adhira's hug, but Adhira's response left Zeo riveted.
He shuffled back to avoid it.
"Honey
"I'm sorry that I was lazy all this time, but I will try to take care of you again tomorrow as much as I can" said Adhira holding back tears.
Zeo clucked, rubbing his tired face. For God's sake, that's not what it means. What was that wife thinking? Why always draw your own conclusions? Zeo just wants Adhira to realize not to ignore their children too much, not that Adhira has to go back to take care of the house and force herself to this and that. Zeo also does not want Adhira exhausted and if for home problems, Zeo still have excess money to pay a housekeeper or even housekeeper to their house.
"That's not what I mean Dhir, caring about demons as well as taking care of each other in your head, I just want either me or you're more sensitive to children, I just want to be, they're still unstable teenagers who need our attention"
"So you're saying I don't care about them? You think
"Adhiro Takahashi! Your husband could do it!?" Zeo's direct touch made Adhira silent. Shocked more precisely. Okay, this is the second time that Zeo's been snapping at him in five minutes they're talking.
"You do not realize if we get further to the children, uda rarely welcome them to go to school again, or welcome them home with a hug again, you realize hm?"
"You do realize that they've started to get all their feelings and opinions in the last month and two months? There are no random stories of them to us because we are starting to be busy with our activities. We're not even starting to know when they go back to tutoring or go home to their extra class, you know, Dhir?" Zeo said.
Adhira breaks her hair. "So how am I supposed to Zeo? Where do you want me to be? You're mad at me because they're away from us? Adults do not always have to be welcomed and taken care of every day"
"Yes, right? Your kids are adults, right? Some of them also uda know the time Ze if their mama again pregnant adek them, can not take care of them full kayak first, if you want to fuss about the problem I rarely cook for them, I rarely cook for them, don't you give them more money to eat out? And if you want to bulibutin me who never welcome them home, instead of them uda know that his mama is pregnant and can not wait until midnight again, "Adhira breathed, she took a breath, gather all his emotions. "Your kids are old Zeo! They don't have to be given the attention you mean, "
"Well that" Zeo pointed at Adhira with stifled emotions. Not like the opinion of Adhira about the problem of educating their children, because really after the pregnancy of their third child Adhira is really like removing Zela and Ken in return for her frustration at getting pregnant again.
"Why shouldn't they get any more attention from us? "
"Ck, Ze, stop managing them. Do you realize that your children are too dependent on us. And stop talking about I have to be full time again for them. Not because I'm not dear. But you don't think so I'm the one who's trying to regulate my sanity now, regulate my emotions, regulate my mentality, schedule my life for our future children and you! You want to burden me again to take care of those who are adults, they are uda understand the condition of their mother kayak where Zeo, after all at their age we can also be separated from parents right"
"Our age? Are you the same as our lives as our children Dhir? You're both in trouble we're the same problem we used to be, trying to mature faster than we should. You want our child to be the lost child as I used to be, or you want our child to be a mental hospital patient as you" Sentak Zeo who again made Adhira speechless.
"Stop your life, problems, and attitude first to them Dhir, because our problems are equally different. Perhaps in our time the children of seventeen years old were separated from their parents, uda chose his own way because of what? Because of us still children we are educated harder than them. Uda frowned on the family's destruction from childhood. But they, those whom you say my children are - from small uda - possess the ease of all aspects, pampered, fulfilled, cared for, preferred, favoured, and suddenly suddenly you want to educate them mature and independent"
"If you want them to grow up and be able to stand on their own feet that is not how Dhir, there are stages."
"Yes what is it! Am I wrong again? You think you want to blame me? Just so you realize what makes me think it's who's trying? You right? Uda I told you a long time ago, not for a year and two I told you Ze if I didn't want to get pregnant again! I'm still traumatized! I'm still a little crazy Zeo! I can't get pregnant with that much pressure anymore,"
"But you casually say all will be.can be willed, everything we can pass, I can enjoy my pregnancy, but now-you're wrong I'm right"
"Why so discussing pregnancy, I just want you to give Zela the same attention again Dhira"
"But the impression is that you are wrong again I am Zeo, but this is all your fault, from the beginning, from the beginning it was all your fault. If not for your old attitude maybe I wouldn't have ended up living with you, Zela just as Ken wouldn't have a good-ass masked papa like you whose bus was just their mama's, anyway, I won't have a super-powerful husband like you, I won't have this trauma, I won't be this crazy, I won't have this mental disorder Baj*ngan!"
Adhira's screams left Zeo speechless, not expecting Adhira to bring up their past
What - Adhira regrets living with him?
"If you want to blame me for not being able to take care of my children, I will blame you for all your crimes just as I made me the worst mama for them as long as you know it!" Adhira wiped away her tears.
"What's wrong is that you're Zeo, and if you know, the thing I've regretted the most in my entire life is meeting you"
Zeo felt his heart throb, like something was piercing, feeling very painful. After almost 17 years they lived together
Does Adhira regret it too?
"Did you meet me?"
"Who does not feel comfortable meeting rapist*sa, torturer, and drunk as you used to hah that made my mentality destroyed so badly" Adhira still excitedly blamed Zeo, he said, until she could not realize that her husband was like a dazed person who was slapped with reality. Who was crushed by every sentence from his mouth.
"Get out!" The sudden snapping of Adhira which made Zeo flinch.
"Dhira"
"I'm the one who came out or you're the one who came out" Threatened Adhira who made Zeo riveted again.
"Okay, I'll go out and sleep on the couch
"I'm the one who came out" said Zeo coldly as he pulled out a pillow with a blank feeling.
It seems that their problems are more complicated than they should be.
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Note: Hii
I think I'm again allergic to the same sweet-sweet deh until extra chapter aja appeared mild conflict that is very complicated. Wkwk.
Why do you want to write a sweet scene Zeo-Adhira nih no longer ngefeel. It was gini. You don't mind if I show up in a conflict like this?
Because honestly, Adhira's problem in dealing with her children is a lot that I take from the real (Not my life in total yes but around me), he said, you see, most parents now always want their children to be the same as their youth. Nudet his son should be as mature as they used to be.
Which is even though the point of the problem is different as children today.
So if you are different points the problem is uda must be different how to overcome it, right?
For example, he said the toughest problem of parents at school age is a school that is far away (Curam, winding) and must walk, the point is full of struggle.
Well, in our time the toughest problem in school is no longer about the mileage or the vehicle, but about the pressures for the first, the way we deal with expectations, but about the pressures for the first, the way we deal with the success of others and so on.
But that's just my opinion anyway. That you? How's it?
Okay like this chapter is too long, so see you in the next full chapter of drama.