EGO - Adhira
72 - A strange frozen atmosphere

When Zela and Ken caught his father sleeping in the family room's couch last morning, the twins knew immediately that there was an unpleasant problem between their parents. But, both of them try to pretend not to know and try to look trusting when the Papa says that he overslept in the sofa.

Not only that, but that morning their mother came out of the room with swollen eyes, obviously after crying for a long time.

But again and again the two eldest Takahashi twins pretended not to know.

And it all passed three days ago. Their house that lately does feel quiet and cold is increasingly frozen and uncomfortable. Takahashi's twin brothers have agreed to pretend they don't know and allow their parents to solve their own problems. Because it will feel disrespectful when those who are teenagers interfere in the affairs of their parents who will certainly be very offensive to both.

So that's what Zela did, she tried to be normal even though she knew her parents were not okay, she said, but at night he passed through his parents' room to make milk and snacks as a study companion, Zela was stunned when she heard the sound of glass dings accompanied by angry screeches of her mother who was replied by papa who called her mother's name angry.

Zela also still remembers when papa's voice was faintly heard in her ear, discussing her as well as Ken. Takahashi's eldest held his breath when he managed to capture the crux of his parents' quarrel.

"You're what exactly is it, huh? I never mind what's on your mind Dhira, I just want you for the time, uda that's all, don't talk about anything else until you accuse me of cheating everything. Don't complicate matters"

Zela clasped her body to the door of her parents' room, trying to hear more clearly her papa's voice.

"I also don't care how your stupid thoughts work, but once my children are depressed by your behavior, I never mess with you Dhir"

Depressed?

Is her father threatening her mother? But for what? Was it because he was crying at the time? Was his father angry with his mother for feeling that she didn't notice him and Ken anymore?

Zela crept the end of her pajamas nervously. In the head of the Japanese girl has concluded many speculations from her questions.

Then a moment after his father spoke, the voice of his mother's cry sounded furious. Zela even flinched even though she was outside the room.

Her mother is a characteristic of a fierce, sweet and spicy mama. But Mama never once raised her tone of voice that high all this time.

"So if you're not cheating, why do you stay at the office until midnight, Baj*ngan! You always want me to be there for your kids, but you never even care about it. You always blame me if they're okay without knowing that I'm stressed at home alone. Where do you promise that you will spare time if I get pregnant hah!"

Zela found it harder to breathe oxygen around her when her heart was beating too strongly, fearing that what her mother said was true.

Is papa cheating?

"How many times have I told Adhira! I have to focus on the head office in these months and pursue the company's target" Papa's voice sounded desperate.

"Young children want to graduate school, I will definitely be busy to take care of their college, survey their campus, find their place to live there, and still have to ignore the worst part of their association Dhir, he said, I'm going to spend some time on it, so as much as I can finish the office business in these three months, you actually think not?" Continue the papa again.

Zela didn't know when, but her eyes were hot and shed tears.

Are you and your mom always fighting because of them?

Are they too selfish and troublesome?

"Can! You think they're too much again, right! For God's sake Zeo! Your children are adults, you don't have to think that far!"

"How far! Precisely because my children are young adults I have to be more extra kemereka"

"And lupain me, "

"Lupain what Dhira, I-I

"Zela! Ken! Zela! Ken! That's all you have in mind, not to know"

"Adhiro!"

"What! In truth? Did you ever understand me? I hated your children for a long time!"

"Athira Aliandra! what you said you hated was our kids!"

"Can! Bela continue, lupain promise you make there for me, long bored me, we just fall is yes this child, afraid even so boomerang for me"

"Crazy for you, "

"Yes my madness, take care of your own children there, don't ask me to take care of them again if you can't even divide your time between me and your children"

"They're my children Dhir, i-I

"But I'm pregnant with your child now!"

"For the sake of God Dhira! They're your children, our children! you're jealous of your own children!"

Zela endured her cries as her parents' voices were still unpretentious, blaming each other and defending each other.

But one conclusion that Zela came to.

Mama hated it.

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"Where are you Zeo!" Adhira shouted again as Zeo took her jacket and car keys, leaving behind their long debate.

"Alzeo!"

"Hotel"

"Why do you want to go to the hotel, Zeo! I'm not done talking"

Zeo sighed, looking at Adhira who was now also looking at him with wet eyes. Honestly, Zeo's heart throbbed in pain when he saw the appearance of Adhira who always seemed miserable since their quarrel three days ago. Zeo also knew that his wife was always sleepless every night because they were always fighting.

Always fight regularly. Very, very sickening for Zeo himself. Their initial quarrels that were just a matter of sepela always spread to other quarrels. Just like Adhira who accused him of cheating then suddenly felt jealous with Zela and Ken.

Adhira

The longer it is not only the more selfish, but also the more deacons.

"Zeo hicks"

"Tomorrow we say again that you are calm, now asleep" Zeo said before closing the door to their room. Leaving the crying Adhira alone.

Sighing tiredly, the Japanese-blooded papa stiffened his jaw, feeling so emotional. Today is really a bad day.

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As soon as Zeo left, Adhira became increasingly disturbed. Feeling very bad because again and again has made her husband not at home.

Adhira was not unaware that her sentences were so painful when they quarreled. But really, Adhira didn't mean that.

Especially when it comes to her children, Adhira does not hate them. For God's sake, Adhira loved them very much.

But the trauma and stress that befell him made him always say those painful sentences.

Adhira just feels alone.

Her husband was busy in the office until he always had to go home at night. His children were busy in school and tutoring until almost midnight. They're all busy. They all left him.

Adhira felt increasingly alone, as if no one was paying attention to her.

Is Adhira wrong if he wants Zeo to also glance at him. Focus on her pregnancy, attention to her depression. Adhira just wants that. But Zeo always puts their kids together. Adhira felt alienated. Feeling exiled, feeling numbered duakan, until his sense of ego makes him jealous with his own son.

Adhira knows she is selfish because she wants Zeo to focus on her. But is that unnatural? She was sick, most likely mentally re-shaken and likely re-entered the mental hospital and most importantly she was pregnant.

Adhira squeezed her pyjamas, wept for her husband's departure, wept mentally and wept for her ego that never wanted to lose.

Even to his own son.

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That morning, Ken felt very confused as his twin brother hugged him while crying suddenly. His eyes swelled and his skin was red, indicating that it was not a new cry, but a long one.

Did her brother cry all night?

Ken rubbed his brother's hair gently, trying to calm down. They were still in the room, should now be ready to leave for school, but since Zela's cries never subsided then it seems that the two young Takahashi will be taking a school break for today, tomorrow is saturday. They can be free until Sunday.

"Lo fought with Yaka, huh?" Ken asked slowly, trying to ask because his brother was crying, and the main suspect in his head was his own sister's boyfriend.

"No hicks" Zela shook her head strongly.

"So?"

"Papa Mama fought last night" Zela's story was a whim. "Mama hates us Ken hiks, mama ngerasa we are evil because Papa focus us alone, hiks Ken I hiks, Very sick" Zela continued to cry in his twin sister's arms. Scratch Ken's t-shirt tightly, venting his sadness.

Ken was silent, honestly he already knew a day ago, his mother and papa were quarreling in the morning, discussing about the selfishness of his mother and the emotions of her father who always overflowed. What started, but Ken had heard that his mother asked to be separated from his father.

However, it doesn't seem so.

If last night they fought again, then the problem is so trivial, right?

And does she really hate them? Are they too spoiled? Are they too troublesome.

Ken kissed Zela's head as the seventeen-year-old recounted what she had heard. Ken's quiet, but he's lying if he doesn't feel what Zela feels.

Mama hates them.

"Well, don't cry anymore hm? What if we go to Dufan? I'll see whatever you like" Ask Ken softly

"But school? Mama will get angry" said Zela huffled.

"Snitch hm, change clothes in the car later"

"Lo's getting naughty yeah"

"Lo's teaching" replied Ken who made Zela choke from laughing while crying.

Ken smiled, knowing that his family problems were so small, but - for now let his brother smile first.

And sure enough, the event of a walk to Dufan was running very exciting until both of them forgot the time. They came home late because they stopped by to eat a Japanese restaurant a bit away from their home before returning home.

The two were still laughing while carrying the snacks they bought, very happy on the faces of the two, but-

The happy roar immediately changed as fast as lightning once they found their house in a mess, many things broke in the family room, even her mother's favorite flower vase was splashed into shard fragments. Then-then

"Mama" Kaget Zela and Ken while looking at Adhira crying in the bottom corner of the Sofa.

"Mama why?" Zela asked frantically who was ignored by Adhira.

"Mama-mama

"Your satisfaction?"

"Ma" The two twin brothers gasped, shocked by her mother's words.

"Ma, mama why the hell?"

"Your father left because you've been tormented, because he thinks you can't take care of him. Satisfied now? Where the hell was that? I asked where you were, huh!"

Both Zela and Ken fell silent.

No, it's not that I didn't dare to answer just that, it's very, very surprising.

This beloved mother snarls them?

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"Zela!"

Ken pulls Zela's hand when the girl is about to enter her room. They had just calmed the mother down, then cleaned up the living room. It seems that both of them are very chaotic, but both of them are also trying to look okay.

"Don't be weird, brother" Ken said meaningfully.

Zela smiled, "Quiet" said Zela, trying to laugh, which made her look even more miserable in Ken's eyes.

"Gue keep your promise"

"Safe" said Ken who made zela smile before closing the room door.

Geck! Geck!

"Sister, you promise yes" cried Kem again.

Zela rubbed her dewy eyes,

"Yes bawel! Uda there shower keep sleeping" said Zela again.

"Promise yes"

Zela sighed as Ken's footsteps sounded away. Closing her eyes, Zela manangis was stunned.

From childhood, although he has been told how his parents struggle in establishing the household ark in the first five years of their marriage. But directly alone, neither Zela nor Ken had ever felt that difficulty directly.

Which they remember.

They have a harmonious mother and father, who love each other and complement each other. The point is they have a perfect family. Zela and camp used to be pampered, and now everything seems to be turned upside down.

It turns out being an adult is as painful as this?

Turns out to be the firstborn was this hard huh?

Zela continued to cry for her condition, remembering that her mother said that her father was angry when he got a call from the tutoring place if they truant but she did not know anything.

So you think that if you don't care about them, you get angry and you mess up, you feel like all this trouble is because of it and Ken.

Zela cried until her chest was tight, she just wanted her family back to how it was, no one was selfish, no one blamed each other, and no one felt isolated.

But how?

If he is injured, his family will be conscious and whole again?

The question was immediately struck in the mind of the chaotic Japanese girl when she saw the kater knife at her learning table, the knife she used to cut some materials when making handicrafts.

Zela gulped her saliva when she recalled the story of one of her best friends who was recklessly slicing her pulse to get the attention of her divorced parents. And it worked, now his parents always pay attention to him even though they are separated and have their own families.

So-so

Will it work on him too? What's the problem will be solved as soon as it's later.

Zela wiped away her tears, her steps slowly towards her study table, took the kater knife with the cartoon decoration in her hand.

Zela looked at him for a long time. The girl's mind floated, she just wanted her problem to be solved, she just wanted her parents to come to their senses and come back to the way they were.

But-but

Should it?

Zela was scared, but she was also dead-end, how do I solve this problem? And resuscitate his parents?

Krk

The sound of the kater knife being sliced repeatedly on the skin made a pain.

Shsh

Zela felt a great pain.

Shsh

It hurts so bad. The Japanese girl's mind was shaking. Really sick and horrible.

Zela hopes this problem will be solved later, well, hopefully so-so

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Note:

A chapter that contains many scenes. Not too long, right? Btw, this is the longest chapter I've ever made. Wkwk.

Oya, at last night it was really exciting to exchange opinions about unrest and pressure in teenagers today. It turns out that a lot of us are aware of the problem yes.

I hope that we can make learning for the future.

Anyway, so adulthood is hard too huh? Moreover, mental-mental prospective psychilog patients kayak in our time. Old age, but experience and endurance are still too young.

I understand now, why are there words that say that adults are not about age. Hm, what do you think? Do you feel mature according to age?