EGO - Adhira
73-Something that no longer matters

"Onichang!"

"Moshi-moshi"

"Gim!"

"Zeo-kun, Answer us first, how is Zela doing"

The noise from across the phone was completely unheard of by Zeo, the two children's papa just let his phone lay on the floor while he cried as he pleased. He nodded until his shoulders shook.

Zeo really melted now, no more firm face and haughty attitude in itself, no more prestige no more pride.

He was just crying for his daughter. His favorite, his son, the eldest of his pride that he can still hug or not in the morning before later.

Not much different from Zeo, Adhira too, can only sit in his seat with a blank view, her tears seemed to have run out an hour ago when she heard Ken's frantic scream holding Zela to the hospital. It's all-

Like dejavu.

Why of the many foolish behavior in the past, must kill yourself followed by Zela to solve the problem.

"Zeo-kun, don't scare us"

"Where's Ken-kun? Where's Adhira-chan?"

"Moshi-moshi, Oniichan! Zeo oniichan!"

Hearing the sound of panic from the papa's phone, Ken who had just sat and cried in front of the ER room door also rose from his seat with a stagger. Take the phone and hold it. He should immediately inform his grandfather and aunts there.

"Moshi-moshi oji-chan" Ken's voice trembled as he greeted his grandfather and papa's family across the street.

"Ken-kun, what about your brother?"

Got the question Ken was powerless to cry, the teenage boy who had been looking cute was roaring.

"Ojii-chan" She said.

"Yes Ken? Don't make Grandpa, grandma and auntie here panic"

"Ojiichan, my brother has not yet woken up, "The cry of Ken for his twin brother made his parents who had begun to calm again cry, roared.

Zela is still in the emergency room with a lot of blood loss, the wound is not big and not too deep, a sign that the girl still has doubts when doing the action, not really planning to commit suicide. But due to being discovered for too long, Takahashi's girl lost a lot of blood.

Zeo will not forget how he saw his daughter's body lying under the study table with Ken's screams echoing in their big house. Zeo will also never forget how terrible it was when he realized his daughter had turned pale blue from having fainted for more than an hour.

Where did he go an hour ago!?

Why did he fight with his wife an hour ago without knowing that his son was almost out of blood in the room?.

Why didn't he check on his kids first?

Wh why?

If only

If only then he came home and found the house in a mess and immediately went to his children's room, surely something like this would not happen. Instead of going back to fighting with Adhira, instead of berating each other with his wife.

For God's sake, though,

Zeo regretted everything.

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The vip-class living room, dominated by ivory white, looked cold and left only the sound of Adhira's cry that was kissing the child's hand, as if hoping that kiss can disappear wound wrapped in bandages there. It was as if she hoped that last night was just a dream decoration.

Zela has been transferred to the hospital room, has finished undergoing blood transfusions, and has finished handling all the stages of medical treatment, said the doctor should be this morning Zela was able to wake up from her stings, he said, but even until the morning at 10 this, the eldest Takahashi was not willing to wake up even though the doctor who handled it said that everything was fine.

"Have, don't cry, later the brother will not wake up" said Ken rubbed his mother's trembling back, trying to calm the pregnant woman with all his feelings.

"But your brother is angry with Ken's mother, "

"No, my brother is not angry because he is just tired maybe, we played in Dufan until the afternoon"

"But the doctor said you should wake up, but he hasn't woken up yet, surely he's angry with you, right Ken? mom shouldn't have been mad at you last night, you shouldn't

"Sstt, uda ma, no papa, uda don't cry, here take off the hand brother later seams pain" said Ken patiently, trying to pull his mother into his arms.

Zela said her embrace was the most comfortable embrace after the embrace of the father but at that time Ken just stuck out his tongue in disbelief because he felt his twin brother was just bragging to seduce him, but now, he was just trying to get his, Ken hopes his embrace is as comfortable as Zela said. Ken wants to calm his mother down and stop blaming himself for what happened to his twin.

"Sstt, mama don't cry yes, later surely you wake up really" whispered Ken many times in his mother's ear, as if giving a suggestion in his mother's mind that all this will pass.

While Zeo, the father of Zela and Ken was just sitting on the sofa waiting for him with a straight look looking at his son and wife who tried to calm each other. The man's face was stiff and cold. His gaze was straight and empty as if he was long, noah, noah what was on the mind of papa bloody Japan now.

His son tried to kill himself, said the doctor wound in the hand of his eldest daughter was only a small wound, the doctor who handled it also said that maybe, actually Zela did not intend to commit suicide, he said, the girl is just trying to attract the attention of her family and trying to bring back her messy family. It's just that, the time to find it is too long, causing a fatal event of blood loss like last night.

Zeo shook his head when his daughter's blue face last night overshadowed her.

"Huh" His breathing sounded heavy, Zeo then went back to silence, thinking about the cause of all this trouble starting with his family. Starting from Adhira who suddenly refused her pregnancy after previously participating happily in the celebration of her pregnancy, then Adhira who began to comfort herself at home after getting direction from psychologists and obstetricians, she said, and since then Adhira who started to feel apathy with the family, ignored her, ignored the children until finally they had a great fight three or four days ago and continues until now.

Whether he realized it or not, but Zeo had clenched his hands and hardened his jaw since his wife's face flashed in his mind.

His wife

Zeo looked at Adhira full of anger, but then he sighed again, trying to calm his anger. He should talk to Adhira now. This issue is probably the last issue they face in marriage ties.

Well, maybe, because really, Zeo now finds no reason for him to continue to survive in this selfish marriage.

"Dhira?" Call Zeo when the man manages to manage his emotions.

"Zeo hiks" Adhira immediately let go of Ken's embrace and turned towards her husband, wanting to hug but Zeo turned his face away.

"Let's go home, someone wants me to talk to you" said Zeo coldly.

"No need, mama is here" Ken frantically hugged his mother's shoulder and still forced his mother to sit in the waiting chair, he knew that his papa had been holding back emotions since last night, she was afraid of her mother why.

"Come on Dhir" said Zeo ignoring his son.

"No, let mama stay here to take care of Zela"

"Dhira" Zeo stared intently at his wife. Ignoring his son again.

"Pa"

"Adhira Alindra" Zeo made Adhira blink her eyes in fear, she then took off her arms and forced her body to stand up, following her husband.

"Pa"

"You take care of your brother Ken, papa wants to talk to your mama"

"If you're just talking about why not just here, why go home?"

"Alzelo Ken Takahashi! Don't make papa angry! You're here to look after Zela, don't interfere with the parents' business, okay!" Zeo's snappy bluff that makes Ken and Adhira back to silence because they realize that the current papa can not be contested.

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"Z-zeo, you want to eat?" Tanya Adhira was nervous, she was the one who started the conversation after the two got home and was still silent to each other.

"No"

"I'm going to make it" said Adhira writhing her hands nervously, Zeo is so creepy right now.

"Zeo, i- "

"What's? Want to defend yourself?"

"Zeo-you have to beat me up, I don't know if Zela's like that, I-I

"Still dare to say don't know why Zela did it after you got mad she was before yes, stop being so sick here you are Dhir, you made my son almost die last night! "

"But I didn't do anything Zeo!" Adhira did not want to continue to be blamed.

"You pissed the kids off and said that if you hate them that doesn't include doing anything, huh? Dhir, Dhir, anj*ng was willing to die to protect his son, but you-"

"But it's all because of you, if you don't judge me

"Adhiro!" Zeo snapped loudly,

"What's? Are you afraid that you are wrong? a household in which it was destroyed yes it was due to the head of his family who was unjust, because the head of his family who baj*ngan, because-

"Our household will not be destroyed if you want to reduce your ego Dhir, this house will not be destroyed if there is no Ego as high as your sky!" Cut Zeo fast.

They kept quiet, flinched by their own arguments.

"Are you aware of Dhira? How many years have I fought for this house? By himself? Seventeen years of Dhira, Seventeen years!! Do you realize that?"

"But what made me here at first was because of your baj*ngan attitude! If only first

"YES! Yes I know that I was wrong from the beginning, I got pregnant with you, I made your school and your youth destroyed, I made you excommunicated with your friends, you know, I made you languish in a mental hospital. Yes Dhira, yes, it was me, "Zeo stamped Dhira with red eyes, a sign that he was overwhelmed by a high emotional feeling to make the man want to cry.

"But you should know, I do the same! I also duda dapet karmanya Dhira, I dropped out of college, I have to work, I have to be a monster so you want to defend my children, I have to take care of children as a child, I have to be a monster, I have to be patient with your pain. I'm responsible for everything Dhira, I'm responsible! But do you understand that? Do you know Dhira? Naw, right? You don't understand because you focus on yourself! Since you're just dealing with your heartache without you thinking about me or even your own children" Zeo wiped away her falling tears. It feels like his chest hurts so much, it hurts so much because all this time he has always harbored himself.

"Do you know Dhira? Almost eighteen years what have I experienced? What am I fighting for and what am I sacrificing for you, for us? Do you realize this household is limping next door, this household is just me defending? Do you also know how low I fall my pride for you? Do you know Dhira?"

"And despite all that - Have you ever seen me as your husband Dhira? Look at me as the person you love, Ah, even I don't know how you feel the same way I do now, actually you love me or not, for eighteen years now, how many times do you whisper affection to me sincerely? A once? Twice? Or is there even a Dhira? "

"Zeo-s

"No Dhira, this time you have to be horrified all, I want to be selfish today" Zeo trembled.

"I love you Dhira, I love you, I respect you as my wife, as the mother of my children, no matter how you refuse me, all I know is that I just have to make you happy because you want to stay in this house, because you uda nunaiin your promise because uda love complete family for Zela and Ken"

"I did everything Dhira, I fought for all of us, I have to prove to your extended family that my children deserve to be in his mother's family, do you know that they, Zela the same Ken, are the same Ken, your children can be discriminated in your extended family because he is a child outside the marriage of Dhira? Do you know why Zela and Ken did not like to go to Bandung all this time? Why do they just want to meet your parents without being invited to your other family? Naw, right? " Zeo gave a poignant smile as he looked at the shock of Adhira's wet eyes, as if the woman had just realized that one fact.

"Even such a sensitive thing, you don't know about Dhir"

Zeo lowered his head to regulate the emotional feeling that hit his chest.

"You're too busy with yourself without wanting to know what's going on with your children Dhir" said Zeo slowly.

"You need to know, not only are you hurting here, but all of us, for the sake of Lord Dhira, what's wrong, you're sorry I was in the past, and your ego's murunin, that is, is it hard for us to start a new page without having to reveal each other's mistakes in the past? I know I'm wrong, I know I'm an asshole, but I've changed Dhira, can't you see me as your husband without having to reveal my past mistakes?"

"I love you Dhira, for God's sake, I really love you, but do you also know the same to me? I've always thought of you as a special person, but even when you know you're pregnant with my son again, you're just that disgusting. I'm that cool, huh Dhir?"

Adhira shook her head, the sobbing woman approached her husband, trying to hold her husband's hand, "No Zeo, no, sorry, please forgive me, I'm sorry" Adhira cried while hugging Zeo who just stood stiff without the intention to return the embrace of his wife.

"Sorry Zeo hiks, sorry"

"Dhira?" Zeo spoke low and hoarse, signifying real fatigue and disappointment.

"Am I struggling less?"

"No Zeo, no, I'm wrong, sorry, sorry for you fighting yourself, sorry for me" Adhira cried even more, hugging her husband tightly.

"Am I too worried about you? Am I being selfish, Dhira?"

"No Zeo hiks" Tangis Adhira grew louder.

"Dear Adhira, sorry if I insist you to always be there for me with my children, sorry Dhira" Zeo hugged Adhira's shoulder, wept awkwardly, cried, just hearing her, Adhira immediately knew how sick her husband felt. Zeo was really hurt.

"I'm sorry if I'm selfish, Dhira, sorry for my past mistakes"

"Dhira-I realized I was wrong, but I also realized that what started with mistakes and compulsion must not end beautifully"

"Zeo-" Adhira clutching her husband's shirt was strong.

"Adhira Alindra, sorry for everything, let's end it all"

"No! Nope! I don't want Zeo! "

"Grown-ups, they're sure to understand us, there's no reason why we hurt each other, right, Dhir?"

"No Zeo, don't you love our children, do you-do

"Because I love my children Dhir, that's why I chose to take you off. Because of me, it's better to lose you and let you seek your own happiness than to lose my children."

"But they're also my son Zeo hicks, try to hold, try to hold Zeo" Adhira pulled Zeo's big hand for him to put on his stomach.

"Do you want to leave him too? Do you want her to grow up without complete parental affection? Did you leave him alone with me?"

Zeo looked at Adhira's stomach, the man was silent with a blank look.

"Zeo-s

"I will love him completely, I will not run away from my responsibilities, Dhira, I'll take my kids away so they don't have to dream about you anymore - but I only ask for seven months for your son, Oh Dhir, please take care of him for seven months, later after he was born I promise we won't bother you anymore"

"Zeo is not like that, I-" Adhira sobbed strongly while holding Zeo's hand. Not that, that's not the point, Adhira just wants Zeo to undo his intentions and get back to sticking with their child's reasons, is not it, is not it.

"Zeez"

"Stdh"

"Adhira Alindra"

Adhira shook her head unwilling to listen, as if she already knew what her husband was going to say.

"Let's get divorced"

"No Zeo, no!"

"Monday I'll take care of all the letters, so you just sign it"

"No Zeo!! I don't want to" Adhira balked while beating her husband's chest.

"Bad, bastard, I don't want Zeo!"

"Dhira, hey calm shht'" Zeo calms Adhira with a frowned kiss.

"There's nothing we can defend against Dhira, so we end it" said Zeo gently, who Adhira responded with a cry of despair.

He does not want a divorce, he does not want to end it.

And who knows, if Alezo immanuel Takahashi is already in the stage of summarizing in a romance story.

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Huh, I'm done typing this chapter.

Thank you for your comments and support let me get back mentally excited to continue this chapter🤭