King's Son (Season 1&2)
episode 19 I Looked at Him

I looked at Refald, he was so different in the moonlight. That handsome guy is perfect. Now I know why all women are crazy about him. Doesn't demand the possibility that I'll also be one of all those women. It's just that I can't like it right now because I can't be sure how I really feel.

“You know? You are full of mystery. Every time I meet you there is a new surprise in my life. To be honest, I'm happy with your surprise. Especially this time, it's been a long time since I've seen a moon like this." I started the conversation because I subconsciously felt comfortable being near Refald.

"When I was a kid, my mom used to talk to me in the moonlight" I continued. "My mom taught me Javanese and Indonesian until I mastered it. I can even write the Javanese script correctly. I had trouble learning katakana and hiragana. My brother is the opposite. He could never master the language my mother taught him. That's why my language is not much different from the natives of the region here. So no one knows that I am not a native here even my friends who have been with me all this time also do not know.”entah what is with me so you have to tell all this to Refald.

“I know. From the first time you told me, you must have kept a lot of things from your friends. Why are you keeping your true identity a secret to them?”ask Refald. I can't believe he's listening to my words.

"Telling me who I really am is tantamount to retelling my past that I don't want to remember. For me it hurts a lot. The reason I'm here and why I live alone. I don't want to remember it anymore. I'm very comfortable with my life now, and I want to keep going like this until I'm ready to tell them all my secrets someday."

"That's what it looks like."

“I'm sorry if I'm presumptuous, I think you're the same as me. At first I didn't really care who you were and how mysterious you were. But long ago I was also curious, there are many secrets that you keep tight and you don't want others to know, do you?”I'm trying to dig deeper into who Refald really is.

“You are funny. If the secret is known to people, it is no longer a secret his name.”

I laugh at myself. “You're right. By the way why didn't you invite your family here? Isn't today your birthday? They should have come here to celebrate with you.”

“They didn't come here.”

“Why? Is it because of your wound? You don't want them to know what your wounds look like?”

“That's one of them. But, there is something else that makes me unable to let them come here.”

“Why? Did you run away? Don't tell me they didn't know you were here? Then ... What about your friend at that time? You're not afraid that he's the one who told your family that you're here?”

“They already know. I'm not running away either. I'm different from you.”

“Then why are you still here if you don't want your family here? They must be worried about you. What if they come here to find you?”Really, this conversation just flows. I began to understand a little about the problems that Refald was facing because of my carelessness.

“Not me they're looking for. I also have a reason why I'm still here!”

“True, you told me. You're hurt because of me. That's why you're still here. Then, who is your family looking for?”I became kepo.

"Someone ... do you also want to know who my family is looking for?" she asked, but she clearly knew that I couldn't possibly know.

"No" I answered quickly. I don't want him to misunderstand. "I don't want to know. It's none of my business anyway. I will only be responsible for your injuries caused by me."

“It was just an unplanned accident. Even though my hand is not injured, I will stay here!”

“Why? What exactly did you come here for? What are you looking for?”I'm getting curious.

“I'm also looking for someone!”

“What?” I was surprised, because I had no idea that he had come here just to find someone. “Who? Your boyfriend?”my guess.

“Not, you seem to be curious once?”

“Of course I'm curious... All this time I thought that you weren't interested in everyone here. I didn't think it was the reason you came here just to find someone. I was just wondering what kind of person that could make you come all the way here and willing to leave your whole family.”

“What kind of person, I don't know either,”ujar Refald said.

“What do you mean? You looking for people you don't know? You're so weird ... so so weird! How can you find someone but you don't know what that person is looking for. It's a ludicrous joke,”my comment.

“I was just wondering what he was like, so I came here, and I didn't expect our meeting to go through various stories like a drama in drama movies in general.”

“Means you've met him? Who her? How's people? Beauitiful? Okay?”

“I did find him. But he disappeared before I recognized him. So I'm still looking for him again. She .... is very beautiful, kind and almost similar to me!”

“Oh yes? Is that?”

“Why? Are you disappointed? Because you're not the one?”guess it.

I just ducked. “Not so, I'm happy and relieved there's finally someone who caught your attention. So, if we're going to split up, I don't have any more burden. You have someone you like.” I'm telling the truth. Even in my heart there is a little rejection of my words.

“I didn't say I liked it!”

“Oh yes? But ... You're looking for him?”

“I did look for it, but I didn't say I liked it. I don't even know what kind of person he is. I don't know how I feel right now either. Our story is almost similar, right? You yourself even hate your fiancee.”

“Not ... I chose it myself.”

“What? You're confusing me. You chose her yourself but you never met her and now you're confused about how you feel. Love what not. Ribet once? If you don't like it, why did you choose it? You can find someone else you like. You don't have to bother coming here just for someone you don't necessarily like. Doesn't that mean it's a waste of time?”

“You are right. I wasted too much time just for her. Then ... How about you? What if your fiancee is here? What are you gonna do?”

“What do you mean?”

“How about you fall in love with someone else and suddenly your fiance comes here to pick you up? What are you gonna do?”

I was surprised to hear Refald's question, which I found very difficult to answer. For a moment, I thought and asked my heart. I looked at the moon and closed my eyes. Feel the sound of my heart.

What if my fiancee comes when I fall in love with someone else? What am I supposed to do?

“Do you really want to know the answer?” I asked as my eyes slowly opened.

Refald nodded. He looked at me with a sharp look.

“I'll choose the person I love. How can I live with someone I don't love even though he's my fiance who doesn't even love me. I told you that our engagement is only a form of cooperation between families, and if the cooperation is completed, our engagement is also finished. There's no more bonding between us, it's my decision if I'm faced with such a situation, even if it's highly unlikely."

“Why?”

“Because, for now, I don't want to fall in love with anyone."

“You sure?” Refald stepped forward and brought his face closer to mine. Under the moonlight he looked at me fixedly and filled with meaning. “You're sure you don't like me right now? Anything?”

I took a step back but Refald also took a step forward until I hit the balcony guardrail. “Can you not approach me like this? You're so scary if you look at me like that?” I was nervous but tried to keep calm. So that Refald doesn't keep coming at me.

“Jawab first my question. I'll just back off.”

“There are more things to do here than just fall in love!”

“What is it?”

“You know for yourself. It took me a long time to get up to what I am today. Many people who helped me and faithfully accompanied me when I was down, even though they themselves did not know what my real problem was. Now I'm back to being who I used to be again and it's all thanks to the people who are loyal to me. I have to repay their services. I have to make them all happy before I leave here!”

“Because that's why you meddled in Yua's affairs and the person she likes?”

“How did you know? I never talked about Yua to you!” I was surprised he knew my secret with Yua.

How closely has he been watching me all this time? I was so focused on Yua that I didn't realize Refald was watching me this far.

“There's nothing I don't know about you, Fey!”

“Alright! I know you're a son of the sultan who can do whatever you want but, I want you to keep this a secret for me and for Yua's sake. Don't let others know.” I beg a little.

“What's the reward?”

“What do you mean?”

“Consider for silence compensation. What are you going to give me?”

“You! I thought you were a good man. Turns out you're sneaky too take advantage of other people's weaknesses.” I started to get emotional.

Refald just smiled cynically. “Whatever you say, I don't care.”

“What do you want?”my challenge of being annoyed also with the cunning Refald.

Refald walked backwards. He looks at me with sadness. The moon still shines bright as if to watch our conversation which I think is a bit strange.

“I want ... You're in love with me!”abugn.

“What?”i'm appalled. Very surprised to hear Refald talk to me like that.

I don't understand what that means. Is this guy drunk? Or is he crazy? What'd he say? Is he asking me to joke?

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