King's Son (Season 1&2)
episode 33 The Actual Story
“Otousan, don't make jokes? It's not funny at all, I'm confused.
“Daddy is not kidding, Shiyuri. Refald is your fiancee, not Eric.”
“But why was Eric angry when I said that I wanted to break off this engagement and love someone else?”
“Just it if I'm angry!” shouting Eric. “You almost betrayed a friend who I considered my own brother. But thank God, it turned out to be a misunderstanding. How could you have thought that I was your fiancee, while it was clearly Refald who had been by your side all this time.”
I admit I'm a little embarrassed because I misjudged who my fiancee was. But still, I can't accept any of this. “There is no way Refald is my fiancee.” I took a step back to convince myself.
I turned to look at my father hoping that none of this was true. “Otousan! This is impossible, isn't it? Refald is not my fiancee. He came here to search ..” suddenly I remembered the words of Refald first. "He said that he came here to find someone he had never known before. And that person is ...."
“I came here to look for my fiancee, Fey ... and that person is .. You alone,” Refald said with sayu.
I was surprised to hear what Refald said.
So all this time ... I love people I hate? I still can't believe any of this. I hope this is just a dream. I hate my fiancee so much! He left me when I needed him. And now he's coming when I don't need him anymore. He entered my life as someone else and played with my feelings.
Refald tried to get close to me, but I tried to avoid him. He stretched out his hand to grab me, but I immediately brusquely brushed it off. I don't want to see him right now. It's hard for me to decide whether I should be happy or sad about everything that's happened.
This feeling is so much more painful than the heartbreak I felt before. I feel like I've been made into a joke by my own fiancee.
“Shiyuri! You're fine, honey!” ask the father who is starting to worry about me.
“No, Dad! I'm not okay!”
“Shiyuri, I don't know what happened between the two of you all this time, but you have to listen to my explanation before making a decision!”
I looked at my father, my common sense is not working right now. I was too shocked by this fact, I sat down in the chair behind me, I closed my eyes, and tried to clear my mind which was currently in a mess.
Dad came up to me and sat next to me, he hugged me and gently rubbed my head. Dad's hug should calm me down now, but somehow my anger still hasn't subsided.
“Listen carefully to this father's explanation. I know it's not easy for you to know the truth. But, I hope you can accept everything that has happened to us.”
I returned my arms trying to control myself and tried to listen to my father's explanation.
“A year after your departure from Japan, the Refald family called dad to tell him everything. Refald's father had no idea what happened to our family when they left Japan without telling us before. They were also in trouble at that time. The Refald family had problems with the Japanese government so they were all deported and their residency in Japan was revoked for an indefinite period. All access to the outside world connected to the Japanese people was also cut off. You can imagine for yourself how Refald and his family felt to be forced to leave Japan without being able to tell us.”
I was stunned to hear the brief explanation from father. Slowly I let go of her embrace. And looked at my father who was also looking at me.
“We never know what the Refald family experienced because it was too washed away with our respective sorrows after the death of your late mother forever. The sudden departure of your mother made us blind that not only were we in trouble. Other people suffer the same, even more than we do.
"After all, Refald and his family are innocent of what has befallen our family. All of this is a destiny that God has outlined. So, you can't blame your fiancee who can't be by your side when you need her. Because he also wished you were by his side when he needed you too, but you two, both couldn't do that."
I cried in front of my father remembering those difficult times. I remembered the words of Refald when he had just come into my life. He wants me to accept all these destinies, because not only am I hurting, but also the people around me. They were much more tormented than I was, let alone their suffering increasing after I decided to run away from reality.
But what I did instead, I continued to avoid and dissolved in sadness alone without being able to accept the reality that happened in my life. Until finally Refald came and helped me rise from my grief without knowing that he was also much more miserable and tormented than I was.
I feel really guilty right now. But, again I remembered the words of Refald that forbade me to feel guilty for what befalls others if that person is hurt or sad. Everything that has happened can no longer be changed. And so it is with what has happened to our lives so far.
Right now I don't know what to do now. I saw my watch showing at five in the afternoon. “Otousan! I have to go now. There's something I have to do! We'll talk later once my activities are over!”
“But, I have to come back tonight!”
I'm a little disappointed that you came here just for a little while. Though I wish he would stay here until I'm done with my activities.
“Let's go, next week, dad will come again along with your brother! He is currently having a test, so can't come here even if he misses you so much! Father promise!”
I'm nodding. “I miss him too, Dad! Tell her that! We'll meet again next week.”
Dad hugged me for the last one before I left and dad left the country. “Take care of yourself, darling! I hope, during the activities you do, you also think carefully after everything that happened. Whatever your decision will be, I will still support you, but I ask .. don't hate your fiancee!”
“I'm gone, Dad. See you soon!” I didn't answer Dad's message, because I didn't know what to say. I stood up and prepared to step out of the house to go straight to the location where my friends were waiting.
But Refald suddenly called out to me, so my steps came to a halt right at the door. “Fey! Listen to me!” Refald walked over to me and faced my body before him. He looked at me intently who still did not dare to see him. “You should know something!” he started the conversation.
“The first time we met, I didn't know that you were my fiancee whom I had been looking for. Until you finally tell me who you really are when we were in the UKS at that time.”
“That's because you threatened me,” my tone is tight.
“Yes, I was forced to do that because I wanted to make sure if you were the one I was looking for or not.”Refald kept looking at me and continued his sentence.“When I found out that you were my fiancee! I want to hug you right away. But I broke it off because you hated me. You can guess for yourself how I felt back then, but I'm relieved that you don't know who I am yet, so I decided to temporarily keep it a secret from you until the time comes. And I think it's time you found out everything! That's why I brought Mr. Kinomoto came here to help me explain this to you!”
“I go first! I'm so late!” I walked away and ignored Refald's explanation. But he prevented me and clasped my hand.
“Why are you like this? Don't you love me?”
“That was before I knew that you were my fiancee! But now it's different. I don't know how I feel about you anymore. I need some time to understand all this, we'll talk later if I'm done. Don't follow me and don't try to follow me! Only members of nature lovers are allowed to enter the location. Outsiders are forbidden to enter!”my threat.
I left my grandmother's house with a very confused heart and mind. In the meantime, I will put aside my personal affairs first and refocus on my activities. I don't want everything to fall apart just because my emotions are still unstable right now.
I turned on my scoopy motor and just sped away. I looked in the rear-view mirror of my motorbike to see Refald standing restless at my departure.
Right now, I don't know how I feel about Refald. I need time to rearrange my turbulent heart after knowing the truth.
Whether my feelings for her remain the same, or have changed.
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