King's Son (Season 1&2)
episode 32 Misconceived
I closed my eyes so I could digest everything that was happening right now. I don't have to wait another year to make an important decision in my life, because my father is already here, standing in front of me.
Slowly, I opened my eyes and looked at Refald who still had not said anything from earlier. There are two possibilities, the first is that maybe he himself was also surprised to know all this, just like me. Because up until now, I had no idea what reason Refald had suddenly left me. Or maybe it could be the other way around, he already knows everything. That's why he decided to leave.
The second possibility is more plausible if indeed Refald already knew everything, the reason he left and why he did not say anything to me. Maybe because he knew that I was his best friend's fiancee.
If it were true that way, then my decision was that I wouldn't back off like he did to me right now. Because my feelings for her can't change.
So far I've tried so hard to forget it, but once I see it, the feeling comes again and I can't hate it. I myself do not know since when I was like this, all I know is that this feeling continues to grow and grow along with the pain that Refald left me.
I'm not sure how she feels about me. Even I myself knew that there was someone else in Refald's heart. What is clear is that his request was made, I fell in love with him, and now I don't care if he has the same feelings as me or not, because until now I still like it.
“Fey! Are you okay?” ask dad.
I sighed softly, preparing to face all the possibilities with the unanimous decision I was about to make.
“I'm fine, Otousan!” reply lirih.
“You don't want to say hello to your fiancee? From earlier you were just looking at each other.” my smiling father tried to tease me.
I'm right, Eric was looking at me all the time, but I kept staring at Refald. I honestly don't know how to deal with an awkward situation like this.
“Otousan, I have something to tell you while dad is here!”
Dad looked at me curiously, “Say? What's up, honey?”
“Otousan, I .. want to break this engagement. I want Dad to cancel our matchmaking.”
Dad was surprised by surprise. Eric was just as surprised as Dad. While Refald as usual, he is good at hiding his feelings and still looks calm not budging from his place. Even so, his gaze grew sharper looking at me.
“Shiyuri? What the hell are you saying? Do you realize what you said just now?”
“I'm sober, Dad!” I answered my father's question, but my eyes were on Refald. Actually, I was waiting for what his reaction was like. But he remained silent.
“Tell Daddy? What reason? Your fiance is very handsome. She's flawless. All the girls are crazy about him. You should also know that all this time he was only loyal to you. He always looks forward to today. How can you break this bond after what he sacrificed for you!”
I looked at Eric who was also looking at me with an expression of disbelief.
“Daddy right. She's perfect, but I don't love her, Dad? How can I spend the rest of my life with people I don't love?”
“But he loves you, darling. I've seen for myself the proof of his love for you. He came all the way here just to see you. Love can be planted and over time it will grow. You don't love him because you've never met, but now that it's different, you're going to be together and start over again.”
“But, Dad ... I .. still can't be with him.”
“Why?”
Actually I don't want to express my true feelings in front of my father, but if I don't tell you the reason, Dad won't be able to agree to my decision. So I decided to tell you the truth.
“Because I .. love others?”
“What?” yelled Eric and dad together.
I saw Eric as if he was going to faint. My father seemed shocked to hear my shocking confession. However, not with Refald, he still remained silent a thousand languages. This time he did not look at me, he lowered his face and turned his back to me.
“Who is that guy, Fey?” asked Eric who looked angry.
“Shiyuri! Think about it again. You know you're engaged. How can you love someone else while you own a fiancee?”
“But as long as I was his fiancee, I never felt like his fiancee, Dad! Even during these 7 years, I have never met him at all. What his face looks like at the moment I don't know either, until today. This is the first time I've met him as my fiancee. But I can't love her, because there's already someone else filling my heart.”
“Dad, I accepted this engagement for dad's sake. But it's all over. I don't know how hard it is for me to get back up from the current downturn. It was that person who gave me the strength to overcome all these trials, Father. I don't know what happens to me if he doesn't come into my life!”
Dad was astonished to hear my words, he was a little confused, but he was also trying hard to understand me at this time.
“Then, now, explain to Dad! Does he love you too?”
I was stunned to hear Dad's question. That question is the same as my question all along.
Does he love me as much as I love him? I don't know it yet.
“I'm not sure, Dad .. but I also want to make sure.”
“What?” again Eric was surprised. “You love someone else who doesn't necessarily love you and leave your fiancee only for the sake of someone you don't even know if she's better than your fiancee or not? Are you crazy?”
“I'm still sane, Eric. All this time I didn't really know what you were like. You can't judge a person I love better than you or not!”cetusku upset.
Eric backed down in disbelief at my words. He looks disappointed and sad. There was nothing more he could say at this moment. He turned his head towards Refald who was still behind me, as if asking for his opinion on this situation.
I myself also waited for how Refald would react to me. But he still remained silent without taking a word out of his mouth.
“OK!” I'm trying to melt this complicated atmosphere. “Then, I want to meet that person you love. So that dad can judge if he is better than Refald!”
"Alright .. wait!" I'm surprised you said Refald's name!
“Why Refald, Dad? Not that, Dad should compare it to Eric?” I turned back to look at my father's face.
“Eric? Why should I compare the one you love with Eric? She has absolutely nothing to do with you.”
“What? But ... him, right ...” I was surprised and confused by father's words.
Eric was my fiancee, and I should have compared Eric to the man I love, Refald. It's weird that dad said that Eric had nothing to do with me. Eric was obviously very angry with me when I told him that I loved other people more than he did. What's the matter?
“What does Dad mean exactly?” I'm trying to figure out the truth. “Of course Eric had something to do with me. Didn't Dad say he was my fiancee?”
“What?” yelled Eric, Refald and dad together.
Even the grandmother who had just been silent observed our debate until she spewed out her drinking water just as she was about to drink it. Grandma did decide not to interfere with my personal life. But, it seems he was surprised to hear my statement.
I'm not too surprised by Eric and Dad's screams, because I've heard them before. But I was very surprised by Refald's cry.This was the first time during my coming here he opened his mouth and let out his heavy voice.
I wonder, what is wrong with my words?
“Why are you guys surprised like this?” I looked at them one by one. They seem confused. It makes me even more confused.
“So, you thought Eric was your fiancee?” asked Dad still with a look of shock.
“Of course, Dad ... Who else? Refald already has someone he likes. So, there's no way that Refald is my fiancee.”
Dad was stunned to hear my explanation. “What? Whatchu mean? Did Refald screw you?” Dad looked at Refald. “That's true, Refald?”
Refald looked at my father and walked up to the two of us. My heart was pounding as he slowly began to approach us. Refald looked at me for a moment, then turned to look intently at my father.
“There is a misunderstanding here, Sir!” Refald smiled faintly at me. “But I'm happy, because finally .. I know, if your daughter, Shiyuri ... she loves me!”
“What?” everyone was surprised. Including me.
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