Love And Despair
Orange Despair

Worry immediately attacked me. He boldly wanted to express his feelings in public. As for me, a coward who doesn't even dare to reflect my feelings on Anita. What am I supposed to do? Do I just keep quiet? But what can I do?

Aldi is my most precious friend, I cannot possibly compete and try

take Anita from him. After all Aldi was the one who helped me out of the hell called bullying. I can't just interfere with Aldi's plan.

“Ya, right! I have no choice but to give up, I just have to give up, that is

easy just” my pikri

“but, I still have a chance! If Aldi is rejected, it is most likely a relationship

Anita with Aldi must be so tenuous. There is hope!” thought I

“wait! What am I thinking?! is this something to be grateful for and expected? What kind of friend expects his best friend to be rejected by his loved ones” thought I was naive

“again if I directly pdkt with Anita after Aldi rejected, most likely

there will be conflicts later on” thought I was logical

“Van? You're not papa?” ask Eri

“your face is scary once” connect

“eh! No papa kok..” replied I was surprised.

“from earlier you daydream mulu. What else to think?” ask Eri

“enggak~ I just seemed to forget to have locked the door of the house has not” me

reasoned

“oh..kirain” Eri relieved

“otw-“ says Eri truncated

“-BTW” said me and Aldi simultaneously

“ehehe forgot-forget~ btw you guys thirsty? I bought’in cold drink want?”

ask Eri

“by” answer me short

“wah..can-bby” Aldi looks happy.

The awkward atmosphere enveloped both of us. For a while we didn't talk

after being left by Eri. After hearing Aldi's statement made it difficult for me to build a discussion with Aldi for now.I still think with Aldi's statement.

“nah.. Van, we both stay now” Aldi said

“eh, yes..” I was surprised

“I can ask you something?!” ask Aldi

“hah? Whatisthis? is he aware of feelings

me against Anita?” I thought I was hysterical

“bo may..” answer me awkwardly

“anu... Can I shoot Anita?” ask Aldi

“...” I was surprised and spontaneously turned to him

“why did you ask that to ku” ask me back

“I see lately you deket very same he” replied Aldi

“what are you guys dating?” ask Aldi

“not possible, not possible. People like me where maybe dating a cute girl like Anita” answered me

“so yes...” says Aldi

“so, can I shoot Anita?” ask Aldi again

“em...” I nodded

“ini the best. Anita is better suited to cute and nice guys like Aldi. He might be happier with Aldi than with me” thought I was

Our conversation ended after that. No honesty, no regrets. Yang

left of me was just this stabbing pain in my chest.I knew this was a stupid act, but somehow I felt this was my only option. I didn't have much of a choice, and circumstances forced me to choose this way to solve everything. From a distance, Eri came carrying a cold drink.

Instantly our faces both changed to fool the tension between us. We have the same thoughts, we

we don't want our friendship to be ruined just because of lies and regrets. Someone has to be hurt, otherwise it will all be over. And we agreed to keep stepping on this bloody path.