Love And Despair
Secret Friends and the Past

“does he realize it? Have I been caught?” my inner

“calm down.. Maybe he just guessed. I have to act ordinary. Don't be nervous!”

thought I

“what are you saying? I don't understand?” I said nervous

“Evan I know will not immediately know that I am a Princess with my appearance

which is now, because Evan was forgetful” said Putri. His face looked very serious

I was stunned, I didn't know anything about the old me. Though I want to

I hid my amnesia a little longer, but it just didn't seem to work anymore. Though I intend not to be discovered so as not to make sad Anita and Eri who always visit me when sick, but everything is over. “actually what I used to be?”

“why diem? Means I'm real, right?!” princess says

“so, who are you exactly?” ask Princess. His face is very seirus

“actually I lost my memory” answered me glumly

The Princess was silent. He was very surprised after hearing my answer. Subsequent to

for a while he tried to calm himself down and act calm in the face of this situation. After taking a deep breath, the Princess finally came back to question me.

“trus want until when do you want to continue this lie?” ask Princess

“no, I don't know either. Maybe until next” answered I doubt

“not good if you lie like this continue. Kasian friends others” says

Princess sad

“i don't want to make them they're disappointed and worried about my old self. All I can do is try to act like my old self” replied I tried hard

“although this is a lie, but this is for the good of everyone. So, I think a lie is a kindness”

“but one day they will surely realize it. If that time comes, what will you do?” ask the sad princess. It seems that he disagrees with my actions

“no, I'm also afraid to imagine it. But I don't know what to do? My mother is sad

when I lost my memory. He must have felt like I was someone else but the pieces of memory from my former self were still left. I gradually understood my former self. And I tried to be like it, even though I don't know what my obvious self used to be” said I was so depressed.

The princess remained silent. The Princess's face was very sad when she heard all the explanations from me.

He held back all his tears from falling. He didn't want me to be sadder to see him in front of me who was falling.

“so... I ask you to keep this a secret from everything” I beg the Princess. I clasped both hands of the Princess tightly.

“um...I will keep this secret” replied the Princess

“thank you..” said I'm happy

“I have one more request please” I said seriously

“what is it?” ask Princess

“please tell me everything you know about my former self. I'd like to try

life seems to” my pinta

“yah..if it wants you. I will tell you everything” replied the Princess smiling

“but you have to be ready yes.I will tell you everything loh~ until all.

his ugliness. Well..although what was in you that was all negative things hehehe” taunted Princess

“kok I feel very upset yes. Can I hit your head once?” I clenched

my hands are ready to pin this girl's head

mid, all he told me about was my bad nature. “I who like to sleep in class, I who often sleep in the library, I am always remedied after the test, I whose brain is perverted and many more”

But I don't know why I feel so calm and comfortable being with him. Him

I was so excited when I was talking about my old self. I feel so envious of the old me, being able to have good friends around.

while we were chatting, Anita suddenly came to the library. He brought

a stack of package books borrowed from the perpus. It seemed that he wanted to return the books to the library.

“eh, apparently Evan is here anyway. Surely you are looking for a bed again kan~” taunted Anita

“enak. I am now helping Princess keep perpus” replied I ngeles

"hem~ help keep ya” Anita's face is very scary

“dahlah, I want to go back to class first” Anita mengambek same me

As Anita came out and left this library, there were whispers from

the first grade kids were talking about Anita from behind. Anita who walked in the middle of the hall was seen by all the students who were sitting relaxing in their respective classes. A look of hate and anger fell on the beautiful girl.

“hei try to see tuh. She's the hospitalized chick?!” said a girl slowly

“iya. Says she's a cheap chick who likes to play with any guy”

answer the girl friend

“basal gatelan girl.even her cheating in front of Aldi” brother continued one

girlie

“Beautiful about aja dikit already feel can ngelakuin what aja” connect girl

other

“I feel the same kasian brother Aldi. He's gone crazy because of that cheap chick” girl

first-class

I who heard that from inside the perpus seemed to feel very confused.

While the Princess looked upset when she heard the words of the first-class children. However, the princess could not do anything. Unfortunately, the pen he held until it broke.

“hah..” The Princess sighed

“apparently he is already famous huh. To the extent that the first graders knew about his gossip” said

Princess is worried

“gossip?” ask me curious

“iya, gossip. Aldi was the one who shot Anita in public. I admit he is very

gallant” answered

“if you're passing by her..” The princess looked down on me. I'm the one who's upset

pinch his nose until it's red

“but a lot of rumors circulating that Anita cheated on other guys and that guy

is kamu” said Princess. I was surprised after hearing the Princess' explanation

“but gossip is just gossip~ not to be thought of”

The princess patted my shoulder

I feel so sad. I didn't think that what made Anita this way was me. I don't know anything about this matter, but I can't ask him directly either. The princess did not know exactly what the story was like, but it was certain that Anita could not do that. There must be an explanation behind all this.