LOVER MONSTER!
115. Understanding.

Demian really locked him up.

Jessica digested the bitter reality with a heart that slipped from her chest. Jessica still had a hard time believing that Demian would treat her like this, like the man had control over her.

Their relationship should be about two people loving, appreciating and respecting each other. They were supposed to be equal, but.., with Demian doing this to her, Jessica felt Demian look down on her existence.

How could Demian do this to her?

"Take me off, motherfucker?!" Jessica finally shouted and kicked the door forcefully. The spacious room narrowed in his sight, squeezing him. Jessica felt like she was stuck in a box. His breath immediately faltered.

Why did this situation happen to him? What kind of sin had he committed in his previous life until he received this kind of punishment from God? What has he done until..., why did Demian do this to him?

Motherfucker!

Demian said Demian loved her.

What kind of love makes him miserable?

"Miss. Jessica, please stop doing something in vain. I don't want you to end up hurting yourself." Lisa's voice faintly sounded from behind the door. Begging for something that makes no sense at all. Jessica wouldn't stay silent if she was treated like this!

"Lisa..., are you there?" Jessica put her ear to the door.

"Yes, Miss. Do you need anything?"

"Take me out" Jessica said too soon. "Take me out now. Please, I can't be treated like this! If you let me out, I won't report you to the police at all."

"Miss. Jessica, I can't do that, either..."

"Why can't you? Is your salary more important than your morals? Would you do this to a fellow woman? You.., you should know better. What kind of woman would let another woman suffer, Lisa?"

Cklek.

The door suddenly opened and made Jessica almost fall to the floor, if only a field chest did not block it. Jessica's eyes widened stupefied, and at the same time her breathing was relieved when her body did not fall to the floor.

Almost any.

Jessica felt her hands push her back to her feet, and when Jessica saw who owned the masculine-scented hand and body, Jessica's forehead was saturated. Demian Bellamy finally returned, after three hours of letting Jessica bang on the door full of force.

Different from the way Jessica looked at him with hatred, Demian's gaze implied warmth and a hint of fondness. As if he was the injured side.

Damn it, don't make Jessica laugh!

"You ask what kind of woman Lisa was?" Demian stepped inside Jessica's room, her eyes glaring at Jessica with a hint of pity. "She was the woman who dedicated her life to me, Jessica. It's not about morals at all."

"Yes, I forgot." Jessica sauntered away from Demian who was still standing by the door. "How can I talk about moral issues with psychopaths."

"Jesse," Demian let out a tired sigh. "Are you okay? I heard you screaming nonstop. You could hurt your esophagus."

"You hear me yelling and all you think about is my esophagus can hurt, not why am I yelling?"

"I can't free you, Jessica. No. I don't want to listen to that shit."

"Don't make me hate you, Demian." Jessica-just a little-softened right there. The request was sincere from his heart. "This is your last chance. I will forgive all the madness that you have done, I will not question you, for God's sake

Do what you want, I'm serious. It's just.., don't involve me. Don't-"

Jessica's words hung in the air as soon as she looked at Demian who was clearly not reacting. It was as if the man was a mannequin.

"Why are you doing this to me?!" jessica's soft voice disappeared completely. It becomes aggressive. "What have I done until I deserve this kind of unfair treatment?"

"Jessica, I love you. I just want you to understand me."

"You don't want me to understand you, Demian. You want me to obey you. I'm so sorry to you, I'm not your family slave and I will never be a part of this silliness. If you think keeping me here will make me submissive and obey your will, you can lock me to death. I.., I will never obey you, Demian. Not in this."

"Why are you so against my decision?! What's wrong?!"

Demian took two steps forward. However, the distance he cut was not enough to make him able to reach Jessica who was standing across the room, keeping a distance as far as Demian. "I said I'm doing this for you. I want to give you the peace you want. Why can't you.., can't you understand?"

"What's peaceful here, Demian?" Jessica ruffled her waist, she looked at Demian once more, full of precision. Maybe there is something he missed. Maybe it's not fair to Demian.

Jessica was trying-for God's sake, she was trying-as hard as possible to understand Demian.

"You can get whatever you want. You can relax, you can be with me without worrying about anything. Jessica.., I have supreme power here, I can protect you with that power. Not even Erthian can hurt you right now!"

"Oh?" Jessica was a little confused, but she seemed to find one answer from a million questions that clogged her mind. Jessica blinked her eyes a few times there, a stupefied expression clearly implied on her face. He questioned Demian's words and at the same time cursed the man through his gaze.

"What is this..." Jessica forced her voice out despite her lips shaking. "What is this..., because of Erthian?"

"..."

"You said you wanted to protect me, you said that over and over again.., so..., this is because..., Erthian?"

"Jesse.., this isn't just about Erthian."

"Don't deny me!" Jessica retraced before Demian and looked at the man right at his pair of black beads, she looked for the truth there. Honesty that completes the puzzle in his head. "Is this because of what happened that night?"

"..."

"You think he touched me?"

"Jessica.y...,"

"You must have thought so, you ignored my words and trusted your brother more. You don't trust me."

"Jessica, just listen to me for a second..."

"Yes? Tell me what you honestly think, Demian. I'll listen to you." Jessica felt a drop of water running down her cheeks, rolling coldly without a cue. Jessica didn't even realize tears were gushing out from her pair of emeralds. He had no attention at all if he had cried.

"I trust you" Demian said, his voice full of supplication. However, the sky had turned gray. Jessica's sky had turned gray, sad.

For Jessica, no more Demian voices could reach her. He understood that Demian had other reasons, but he did not expect that Demian had done this to him because.

Demian did not believe his words, and all this time, did that mean he was just pretending to believe? Pretending to entertain him? Did Demian feel concerned for him?

Jessica blinked her eyes and once again, more water dripped out and soaked her cheeks.

"Jessica, please."

"And it's true, you're fine, Jessica. You..," Demian put his palm on Jessica's cheek, gently stroking his fingers to wipe away the tears that fell on the girl's cheek.

The sight that Demian wanted the least was now presented before him. The scene he hated the most was the scene when the pair of emerald was flooded by tears, full of wounds. He tried to calm Jessica down, but he felt the girl's presence deepened in his eyes.

"Jesse, i..." Demian swallowed a stone. The voice that was trying to get out of his throat, was firmly blocked. It's hard to get him out.

"It would be better if you were honest with me from the beginning, Demian." As she finds control of herself disappearing, Jessica pulls herself out of Demian's reach and wipes away her tears quietly.

"I should have realized this. How can I follow you here? Haaa.., what a stupid decision."

Back then, rather than talking to Demian, Jessica spoke to herself more. It was as if his rational side had risen and scorned his emotional side. Scorned his heart for what it could be, went to Italy out of love. Because of blind faith!

"I deserve this" Jessica murmured. "This is my stupidity."

Jessica sauntered towards the sofa and sat curled up there. Although she is possessed by logic, Jessica's heart still throbbed with excruciating pain. He put his hand on his chest, trying to ease the pain that creeps there.

Demian who was staring at Jessica's reaction felt a searing heat rising on her face, burning her eyelids. Demian didn't want this, but thanks to himself, he had pushed Jessica too far.

Demian felt that the girl was very out of her reach right now. Even if he locked it up for a thousand years, that pair of clear emerald that showed pure wrath would not soften. He can never be tamed.

Honestly speaking, Jessica being like that was the reason why Demian fell for her. He who always put his sanity first, always rational and full of logic. How fascinating. Demian admired her wise Jessica.

When the girl's rational side appears in their relationship now, appearing and becoming a hindrance in their current relationship, Demian hates what he now sees.

Demian hates Jessica who sees her like a germ.

Demian did not want Jessica to point that cold gaze at him, as if they were two enemies meeting on the battlefield.

Demian doesn't want a showdown.

"Jessica..," Demian spoke again, forcing herself to make a sound. "I love you. I love you so much. I just want you to know that. Everything I've done, I've done it because I love you."

Jessica looked up while smiling wryly. "I love you too, Demian. Unlike me who doubted everything you said, I'm honest now."

"You can doubt anything, Jessica. Not with my feelings."

"Why? Because you really love me? When you don't trust me? When you're more on your brother's side than I am...?"

"I never took his side-"

"But you believe it."

Cornered by Jessica's argument, Demian rubbed her face red. His patience is exhausted.

"Fuck, Jessica. Why are you doing this to me? After everything I fought for you? You..., you don't know how much I suffered after what happened that night? You.., I'd rather die than see you go through the same thing. I'd rather die than see you hurt! Why can't you understand me just a little bit?!"

Shocked by Demian's voice, Jessica again found tears piling up in her eyes. Without giving those tears a chance to spill as well, Jessica immediately wiped her tears with the tip of the blouse she was wearing.

"I failed to protect you, I failed.., and because of me! I just wanted to protect you. I made my decision because I wanted to protect you! I don't want you to have the same bad luck because for God's sake, I'd rather die than put you in that position again!"

"..."

"For fkkk sake, I just want you to understand me a little!!!"

"..."

Under Demian's furious gaze, Jessica nodded slowly. He was silent for quite a while after he listened to Demian speak. At least, Jessica understood where Demian's decision came from. However, that did not make him capable of accepting the man. Not after Demian put that anxiety in his own head, with no intention of trusting him at all.

"You think Erthian touched me and you're pretty sure about that." Jessica's voice came out stiff. "I thought, because of that, I agree with you."

"Huh?"

"You're right. I can't understand you, not one bit." Jessica's smile then flashed faintly. "Ironically, I understand why I can't understand you at all."

"..."

"Maybe Hestia has a point, since she's a woman who outlived me, I should have listened to her words." Jessica looked up at Demian, "You and me. How long have we been together? A month? Two months? If it counts...., then can it be said all summer? Oh, then that's a four-month range. Think of it like that."

"What are you going to say?"

"Just tell the truth." Jessica leaned her back on the sofa, she felt a little relieved after knowing Demian's honesty there.

"Our relationship is still too young. To put your trust in each other, I don't think that's easy. Not in three months.-

You don't trust me, and thanks to that, I've come to know why you've been acting this far, until you feel you've got to protect me."

"..."

"You didn't do anything wrong, I guess. Even though you missed a more crucial stage, which is to trust me."

"..."

"I'm grateful for whatever this is.., what you're about to do, Demian. I thank you for protecting me. It's just, I don't need anything. I don't need a man who doesn't trust me."

This relationship is already unstable, Jessica thought. From the beginning, the relationship was unstable.

He recalled Hestia's words and felt like he had found the truth there. The painful truth. His relationship and Demian is no doubt a new relationship for a lifetime, the relationship does not have a strong foundation or anything.

How could he brag about the trust issue in front of Hestia? How could he be so arrogant?

In the end, he was disappointed.

In the end he and Demian will not find a deal.

"Can you leave me now?" Jessica peeked at her forehead, "I need a break."

"..."

"Also.., I think I need some food..."

Closing her words, Jessica did not even look at Demian as the man walked out leaving her.

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