LOVER MONSTER!
34. Rational.
Jessica's heart was racing. He was sitting in a taxi driving towards Elixir when the time was still showing at three in the morning. Jessica, in other words, ran away. Jessica runs away from Demian who is sleeping next to her.
Jessica was immersed in a puzzling feeling. Unlike Demian who lightly slept, after being immersed in euphoria, Jessica discovered her rationality. Rationality that says what he and Demian did was a mistake.
Not that Jessica hates what's happened. Honestly, Jessica enjoyed every touch of Demian on her body. Every swipe of his fingers, his breath, his lips. It's all like a mirage. It is so beautiful to be a reality.
Back again, Jessica did not regret anything.
Only, though he had no regrets, he found himself in a million questions.
Why would Demian do that with her? When did the guy end up dating Angela? Demian doesn't love her, it's impossible. Jessica knew that fact, but Demian kissed her. The man gave the move first. He's the one who pulled Jessica into his arms first.
"What's because of adrenaline?" Jessica wondered. Adrenaline-controlled people often do crazy things. Demian last night had been chased by a group of gangsters, did not rule out the possibility of his adrenaline will explode.
But, is adrenaline enough to make you strip off your own sanity?
'Then me? What the hell happened to me?' Jessica bit her lips.
He recalled how he welcomed Demian's pagutan, how he hung his arm around the man's neck as if his life was at the end of a ravine. He-so-overnight-so wants Demian. Maybe that's why Jessica felt she had made a mistake.
How could he want a man who doesn't love him?
'I must be crazy!' Jessica took a deep breath again and again.
When she finally arrived at Elixir, Jessica got off and paid the old driver who had heard her breathing all the way.
Jessica arrived in her room, her body feeling unusually tired. He headed to the bathroom and immediately washed the dry sweat and saliva on his body, traces of a touch of Demian there.
Just then, Jessica stared at the faded tattoo on her wrist. He remembered how Demian bit his wrist. It was a very eye-opening sight.
The heat crept back on Jessica's face, no matter if she was now under a shower that flushed her cold and wet.
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Jessica is not the type of girl who still puts her trust in things that are fairly old-fashioned and ideal. Jessica does not believe that having sex should only be done to a partner who is loved wholeheartedly.
Without feeling, one can sleep with any man or woman. As long as passion is involved there.
Feelings of love and romance need not be involved at all.
Aye, right.
What had already happened between him and Demian was not something he needed to think about excessively!
Supposedly, he did not overanalyze a one night stand!
Alright, alright. Jessica admitted, Jessica is just looking for justification for the chaos that is creeping on her chest right now. Jessica still has a hard time believing that she has struggled with Demian, the Demian of all humans on this earth. Why Demian?
"I thought I'd do that with the person I love..." Jessica scratched her head in a huff. "Jessica, oh, Jessica. Realize yourself, motherfucker! Don't get carried away! It was just a one night stand. Nothing special. You don't have to think about everything excessively. Stop overthinking!"
While nagging herself, Jessica checked the clock on the wall. It's 12 noon now. Jessica hasn't been down to Elixir at all by reason of the flu. Dania delivered food for him this morning, and Jessica was forced to act like an idiot like a real sick girl.
"The one who's sick is my mental, right?" Jessica is bored.
"Uufft, I envy others who are able to change partners lightly." Jessica let out a long breath, again and again.
During this time, when Jessica watched a romance drama, the one night stand relationship was always described as a casual relationship that would be forgotten overnight. Partners who do this will not put long thoughts there, as if it has no meaning.
No, maybe it has no meaning at all.
"The one busy looking for meaning is me" whispered Jessica again. This time it was getting depressed. "Jessicaaa.., please, back to normal! He doesn't like you or anything! She just.., she..."
Demian was always teasing her, rubbing her with a witty look and a lowly seductive voice. Jessica had thought the prank that the man was pointing at her was because Demian had taken an interest in her, but Angela's existence shattered the theory instantly.
Demian...., why is Demian swaying his feelings?
"I have to find a solution." whispered Jessica again. He grabbed his cell phone on the table and typed in a foolproof thing he had never done before.
'How to move on from a guy I like?'
That question he typed in a split second. He read it and felt ashamed of himself. "Since when have I liked, Demian? Jessica, you idiot! I don't like it, no. NO!"
The inner war lasted for some time until Jessica's cell phone ringing interjected and eased the noise in her brain. An anonymous number landed on his phone screen, calling him.
"Hello?" Jessica answered.
"Someone's missing."
"Eh, huh?" Jessica frowned.
"Someone disappeared from beside me last night."
Oh, ooh!
With just that expression, Jessica immediately realized who was contacting her now. That voice...., oh, so like this is Demian's voice on the phone? Nah! That's not important! Why did Demian contact him? Wh-was he angry?
"Demians?" Jessica recited Demian's name with a red hue creeping across her face. Without being able to control it, all the memories of last night's events twisted in his mind. Humiliate him for the umpteenth time.
"I remember telling you not to go home. Why did you leave me alone?" Demian's voice implied a complaint. "Are you the type of cold girl who would dump a man after you wear it with satisfaction..."
"W-what are you saying?!" jessica's voice rose in panic.
Demian's speech was based on a fact he found in his bed last night. Jessica is not a girl who will change partners as she pleases, better, she is a girl with purity like a nun.
Demian in other words, was a first for Jessica.
Easing his coolness, Demian continued asking. "So, how are you? Are you all right?"
"Why with me? Of course I'm good."
"Oooh, it's good that it's like that. I'm worried about you, considering I drained your energy and energy last night."
"Shut it up?" Jessica gave Demian a warning. His voice was full of aggravation. Seriously, vulgar discussion is very taboo for Jessica. He felt uncomfortable, amazing.
"Wait, wait.." hold Demian. "Why are you in such a hurry?"
"Because you're just talking nonsense, I don't have time to hear your babble."
"You're so adorable, I want to see you now."
Although Demian's words made Jessica's stomach like tickled a thousand hands, Jessica maintained her intonation to remain fierce. It was for whatever sake, not wanting to appear weak in front of Demian. What he feels cannot be discovered.
"Demian," called Jessica in a calm voice. "One.." and he started counting.
"Eh?"
"Two..., if you don't talk until the count of five, I'll disconnect this call immediately."
"Hey, I was just having fun.."
"Three" continued Jessica.
"All right, all right." Demian surrender. "I just want to tell you not to worry about me."
"Why should I worry about you?" Jessica frowned, wondering. Is Demian going to do anything extreme out there?
"You know.." Demian's words hung. "Look, you're a girl who worries about anyone easily."
"I'm not like that" said Jessica.
"I'm serious, Jesse. You remember what happened last night, right? I mean.., before we do that..."
"Demians!"
"Ahahahaha, ouch. Ii'm sorry. I mean, you do realize I was chased by a lot of people last night, right?"
Jessica remembered. He recalled how the sight of Demian being chased by dozens of people made Jessica panic and be flooded with worries. Jessica was just breathing a sigh of relief when she managed to secure Demian by her side.
"Are they still after you?" jessica asked, a little curious.
"That's how it is" Demian said. "For now, I will stay at this hotel for some time. Until the situation calms down, I can't see you yet."
"O-oh." That's a reasonable reason, but Jessica wasn't feeling enthusiastic. "Is that a good place to hide? Hotel, I mean?"
"As I said last night, that hotel is the best place to hide in plain sight."
"Oh.., that's. I don't understand what you mean at all."
"Eh, then why did you respond to her with Oh?"
"Yeah," Jessica sniffed her shoulders.
The reason Demian hid in Emperor was Oscar's order. Since the ones chasing Demian right now are a bunch of motorcycle genks, they won't have access to the Emperor's hotel.
Especially if it is Presidential Suite which is only for exclusive guests. Unlike the situation if the one chasing Demian is a police officer, Jessica's place will be the safest place in the world.
"I hope you're okay" Jessica said, meaning to be sincere. "Take care of your health."
"Are you my mother?"
"Do you want to die?"
"Ahahahaha," For the umpteenth time, Demian laughed in Jessica's ear. Her voice was so light and comfortable, Jessica felt a sense of relief. At least, despite being terrorized to and fro, Demian did not feel depressed.
"Demian, I know it's none of my business, but I'm kind of curious..." Jessica bit her lips before asking. "Why don't you put up a fight with the people chasing you?"
"Ah, that..." Demian. Different from Jessica who relaxes in her bed, Demian who sits on the balcony terrace of her hotel room looks at Jessica's questions and tries to find a simple answer that can satisfy her.
"If you don't want to answer don't lie" Jessica said.
"Eh, what the fuck?" Demian hasn't even said anything.
"I have to work now, see you." Deciding on her phone call, Jessica slid her back on the bed.
For some time to come, Demian would not come to see him.
Rationally, it was good news. However, rather than feeling any excitement, Jessica closed her eyes with a new question bursting into her mind.
'How long ahead is that.., how long?'
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