LOVER MONSTER!
78. Crumbed.

"Where are you taking me, Demian?"

Tanya finally came out of Jessica's lips after she broke herself dragged away by an angry Demian. The man's hand was still tightly gripping his wrist, unwilling to let go. Although they had sauntered away from the crowd and from Jake, Demian did not indicate that he would stop stepping.

"Demians!!!"

"Shut up and come!" sahut Demian's.

The pressure was still evident in Demian's voice, but Jessica had already felt enough. Jessica doesn't want to be dragged around anymore. Jessica lets herself in this situation because she doesn't want Jake to get hit by Demian's punch, but now Jake's gone. Jessica already had no intention of letting herself be treated like an item that the man could treat at will.

"Take me off now!" jessica said, this time holding back her steps. "Demians!!!"

"I'm not letting you go. I said we'd talk, and we'd talk. Don't provoke me more than this, Jessica!"

"Your anger, huh? You think I care about your anger?"

"Jessica!!!" Demian would not stop stepping. He stood right in front of Jessica, eyes met eyes. His voice was filled with frustration. Furies-filled. "Follow me now!" press it.

"I don't want to, Demian. How many times do I have to say it? I said I don't want to! Enough's enough! Stop doing this to me!"

"Jessica!!!"

"Stop saying my name with that threatening tone!" Jessica hit Demian on the shoulder with her free hand. He pushed Demian with enough force to make Demian take two steps back. "I said I didn't want to! Are you gonna hit me too?"

Demian.

For God's sake, if it wasn't for her fear that Erthian's people would lurk her interactions with Jessica, Demian wouldn't have needed to drag the girl all the way out of the crowd. He would happily shout at the girl regarding the contents of his head that was ready to explode. He would not hold back his emotions so far just to talk.

"Don't talk nonsense, Jess. Do you think I can hit you? Are you crazy?"

"Nothing is impossible in my eyes now, Demian. You hit Jake so easily, you'll do the same with me." Jessica jerked her hand from Demian's wrist and fortunately for him, Demian's grip slipped off just like that.

"Jessica? Jake deserved the blow just now!"

"Why? Because he made you angry? I'm pissing you off too, hit me, damn it!"

"Do you think I am, Jesse?"

"You're a crazy psychopath, you fucking asshole, who's been showing up in my life! I don't want to have any business with you anymore, Demian Bellamy! I'VE, I'VE said this before, which part of my speech don't you understand, huh?!"

"Haa..., since you have Jake now you think you can just get rid of me? You think I'm gonna let you in with that son of a bitch?"

"Let it, Demian, Let it go! What's the problem with you?! YOU'RE. NO. NOPE. OWNS. ENTITLEMENT. ANYTHING!"

Jessica got out of control there, no matter the few pairs of eyes staring at them, she shouted at Demian furiously. Let him be a spectacle today. Fuck, Jessica doesn't want to be Demian's toy anymore! He won't budge.

"..."

"I don't want anything from you, Demian. Had enough. Enough's enough! I've been your toy, you've got me, whatever challenge is in your head it's been met so stop! STOP meddling with my business again-"

"challenged? Do you think the reason I approached you was that low, Jessica? I cared about you all this time, I approached you and treated you sincerely! Did you look at me that low until you didn't see my sincerity at all?"

"Who looks down on who? What sincerity do you mean, Demian? Everything that happens between us starts with coercion. You only care about yourself. Don't give me that crap you care about! You, DEMIAN.., are the last person who cares about me in this world."

"Jessica..." Demian took one step forward, "If I don't care about you, I won't.." Won't hide your existence from Erthian. Not covering my own feelings and hiding. I wouldn't care if you were exposed to greater danger.

"You're not going to what, Demian?" Jessica challenged. "What have you done to me, purely for my own good? Everything you've done all this time, it's all for yourself! For your own good and whatever it is that suits your wishes!"

"Jessica..."

"I told you, stop my Jessica-Jessica-Jessica, Demian."

Demian let out a hard breath.

"What do I have to say so you'll listen to me? I don't understand at all? I'm giving you some time to relax, I'm letting you fire Angela.., I didn't even come to the cafe because you ordered your friends to kick me out."

"What?" That information is new. Jessica didn't know at all about the involvement of her friends Demian was referring to.

"So you don't know either, huh? Your friends conspired and kicked me out of the cafe. I've been to you a few times to talk, Jessica. I've been trying.., I even visited your room, but hey.., bravo, you changed your room key too. There is security there too. Nice job." - Nice job."

"And?" Jessica looked at Demian as if the man's confession meant nothing.

"Jessica, I'm trying so hard to make up with you. But you, who constantly rejected me, you were even happy at the cafe, saying my absence was reassuring, you also went on dates several times. You think I don't know? You think I don't know what you and your friends are saying behind my back?"

"..."

"Rather than blaming me and accusing me of being selfish, admit it, Jessica. You're the one who's bothered about this relationship, right? Stop making like I'm the one who bears all the blame! Wh why? Are you happy to experiment with me now you want to try Jake too, want to compare which guy is better for you, huh?"

"Demian-"

"Listen to me, I'm not done yet, Jessica! You were very curious about the three of us before, weren't you? Me and Jake and Angela, you're probably wondering what it's like to be between us so you do this, you get Jake, you play me and you even destroy Angela.

I don't know what I did wrong until you did this to me! You keep pushing me out of your life. But no. You won't be able to do that, not me. You can't use me for your pleasure and just dump me!"

"There again?"

"I'll never let you be with Jake."

"Are you aware of what you just said, Demian?"

"..."

"Now, look at every word you have just said and tell me, is it pure in your head? Is that what you think of me?" Jessica's voice turned quieter did not indicate that the atmosphere there was changing for the better. On the contrary, that pair of gleaming emeralds was like an eternal flame that would burn you to death.

"Demians!" press Jessica back. "I gave you a chance..., are you very aware of what you just said?"

"..." - ".Shut up, Demian could only shut up.

Demian knows he's gone too far. Demian knew he had said anything just to win the debate. He just wanted Jessica to listen to him, obey him. He did not expect he would say things that ended up as a boomerang for him.

Perfect, Demian, perfect!

"Good.., since you're silent, I'll take it as the truth." Jessica decides.

"Jess-"

"Shuush, Demian, shuussh. Since you've spoken, let me say a few words as well."

The smile that was painted on Jessica's face at that moment was like terror in the eyes. Demian felt he would rather die than be stared at hatefully by Jessica. The girl - without raising her voice - clapped Demian's shoulders and gave the man a stabbing honesty.

"Demian Bellamy.., you want to know what I regret the most right now, among the many mistakes I've made in my entire life," Jessica stared at a pair of Demian dark beads with her calm emerald iris. "I'm so sorry I loved you."

"..."

"You want to know the answer to why I always push you away from me, Demian? Now I give you a truthful answer so you don't have to bother building all the conclusions and spectacular stories just like you had in mind. I just love you, and like I said, it's my fault."

"Jessica..." Demian's intonation was weakly low.

"Look, I'm not done yet..." Jessica turned Demian's words to her. "You, Demian, are a man with a lover and I - even though I like you - still hold my pride in high regard. You can't expect me to stay in my room and let you have access to my body as you please."

"..."

"I won't let you humiliate me like that, Demian. I won't let myself be treated that low." Jessica's eyes were slowly inundated by tears, her emerald wet.

"Me and Angela don't have the kind of relationship you think, Jessica. I didn't even touch it."

"And..., what exactly is it like?" Jessica was ready to listen at that moment.

But...

"..."

How did Demian say it? Demian does not want to expose his family's problems to Jessica, he does not want the girl to be afraid of him, disgusted at him. His family background was already too black and dull.

"I'm waiting for Demian, what, like?"

Demian let out his breath. "Jess, I just want you to wait for me. I don't want you to be with anyone but me."

"Oh, oh..., so you can't give any explanation, right? Let me try to conclude. Are you dating Angela but you're just having sex with me, so, you mean?"

"Jess..."

"Nonsensely, he definitely hasn't been able to move on from Jake. Letting another man touch her, I understand how uncomfortable it is." Jessica took a step back when Demian was about to touch her arm.

"Whatever it is..," Jessica said. "I told you what I wanted to say, Demian. I was serious when I said I regretted loving you. Thanks for the talk today, I came to understand how low I was in your eyes."

"I didn't mean it that way, Jessica. Jessica..."

"You said it very smoothly, Demian. Admit your words with confidence. What you've said is what you've been thinking. I gave you a chance, but you didn't say anything.., you were pretty sure the reason I approached you was to experiment with the three of you..."

"..."

"But you wanna know what you're missing, Demian?" Jessica smiled wryly. "You were the one who broke into my room forcibly that night. You decided to come into my life! I didn't do anything to get close to you!"

"You're right, okay, you're right.., I told you a mistake, Jesse. She didn't know how to stop the tears from flowing out of Jessica's eyes. He did not know how to repair the heart he had broken because of his actions.

"Don't touch me!" Jessica brushed off Demian's hand that had touched her shoulder. "I'm very aware of what I'm saying right now, Demian, and let you understand, I'll say it again. I'm. Abhorred. You!"

"Jesse, you're angry.., I understand you're angry, you have every right to be angry. Do what you want to me. You can hit me or whatever, but don't avoid me Jessica."

"Why? Have you held yourself back for too long, your passion almost explodes if you don't have sex with me? Aren't women in Vegas, Demian?"

"..."

"You want to know something.." Jessica pulled the wallet out of her handbag. At that time, he took out a few dollars from there. "There's a lot of women night in Vegas, Demian! Buy one for you and stay away from me!"

Closing her words, Jessica threw the many dollars into Demian's face which could now only swallow bitterness. Even when Jessica sauntered away, Demian was unable to catch up to her. Unable to open steps to prevent it.

Jessica loved him, that fact should have made him flowery. However, thanks to the brutality of his words, thanks to his insensitivity and rude attitude, he had managed to crush the heart that loved him.

The heart he craved, he crushed.

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