One Night With Your Wife
Welcome home

“ Today Zavian came home,” said Mama Widya. His outstretched hand cleared the corners of Fabian's lips using a tissue.” She'll take Nayara home and her two children.”

“ Mama's happy she's home?” ask Fabian slowly. He stared at the two eyes of Mama Widya who radiated a happy light full of enthusiasm. The woman even decorated and used red lipstick to smooth her lips. Her tired and pale face was now hidden behind makeup that managed to cover up all her pain and sadness. 

“ Yes, Bian. Mama is happy to finally get Zavian home,” said Mama Widya. Stared Fabian with both eyes that emit sadness.” My mom also asked me to go home. Nothing ,’kan?”

Fabian released a slightly rough sigh. For some reason, the question of Mama Widya who asked her permission to bring Zavian back home was a little disturbing. Especially after that Mama Widya again said, “ Mama does not know how long Zavian will stay here. Now what matters is that Zavian goes home first. After that it is up to him, whether later to rent an apartment or hotel,” said Mama Widya. 

“ Ma, I never forbid Zavian to return home,” Fabian said. 

Mama Widya stared with a bit of astonishment.

” Ba-good then.” 

Fabian closed his eyes while breathing out . Lately Fabian has succumbed a lot to his own feelings. The selfish side that had always occupied the biggest role in his head was suddenly weak. He cannot be angry but is also not automatically happy. His feelings were empty without any accompanying passions.

Then a few minutes later Fabian saw Mama Widya calling and almost soared in excitement. The news about Zavian who has now arrived at the airport really makes the woman happy. Actually Mama Widya was eager to welcome Zavian back to the airport, but she did not have the heart to leave Fabian in the hospital. 

“ Zavian has arrived at the airport. He really went home, Bian.” said Mama Widya. 

“ If Mama wants to go home to welcome the return of Zavian is okay, kok,” said Fabian later.

“ Gak. Let Zavian just come here,” said Mama Widya.

Fabian only muttered faintly. He resigned and felt unable to participate in the happiness that is now surrounding his mother. Fabian's feeling is bland and tasteless.

Meanwhile at the airport, Zavian walks while holding his daughter. On his side was Nayara holding Zeano's tiny hand. 

“ Welcome home,” whispered Nayara. 

Zavian turned his head with a smile.” My real home is where you are, darling.”

Two years ago, there was a wound that Zavian had brought when he decided to leave his homeland . Many times he wished for his inner wounds to be healed and he could breathe calmly. But eventually Zavian realized that distance and time were only as an intermediary for the healing of his pain. Behind it all, he himself must heal all the pain in his chest, not time, not distance, not anyone. 

Then now, while setting foot back in the homeland, Zavian felt his chest filled with relief. After two years of leaving, this time he came back with a slightly different situation. His chest felt much more airy and his feelings became light. Perhaps because he had decided to apologize to everything that hurt him, then make peace with the sad past. 

One of the American states that he lived in for two years is indeed amazing. Quiet, comfortable and beautiful. But for Zavian, Jakarta is still the place to go home. All the noise and claustrophobia that is here always makes it much more lively. Zavian found again that some of him was still left behind in Jakarta with all his fanfare. Maybe because in this city there is still Mama Widya, a mother figure who became the destination for Zavian's return. 

“ Mama asks us to go straight home,” said Zavian after Nayara and her two children sat comfortably in the car.” But now Mama is still in the hospital.”

“ Then, we go directly to the hospital?” ask Nayara. 

“ Yes, it's best. We meet Mama first,” replied Zavian. 

After that the car rolled down the road to the hospital where Mama Widya was. It would be very strange to go home but the figure of Mama who should welcome their arrival is not there. That's why Zavian and Nayara decided to go straight to the hospital. 

Mama Widya was a little surprised when Fabian's outpatient door was knocked from the outside and Zavian's figure with Nayara appeared there. He immediately hugged Zavian and cried from the shock. Finally his son actually came home after punishing himself with such a long distance. 

Fabian watched all of it from the bed where he lay. His gaze was bitter. Especially when looking at Nayara who now looks more beautiful with a motherly aura that is so strong. 

Fabian felt his eyes warm, then his tears fell leaving a wet trace on the side of his face. Fabian hastily wiped away his tears with the tip of his sleeve. He is not crying at the moment. 

“ Mas.....” Zavian is now sitting on the side of the bed and Fabian tries to look at his sister. Mama Widya and Nayara chose to pull over as if they wanted to make room for two brothers who had always been apart. 

“ Inget came home too, Lo,” Fabian said with a sarcastic tone in his voice. 

“ Remember,” Zavian replied casually. Fabian could not capture the feeling of anger or resentment from the look on Zavian's face. 

Or maybe , the only person who holds a grudge here is just Fabian ? 

After what happened to him, Zavian should be angry. But now, the man looked relaxed as if without any burden bothering him. Zavian also created a calm atmosphere so that Fabian could talk without any feelings left behind. 

“ Lo must be healed dong, I have promised to celebrate Zean's birthday at home,” said Zavian. 

“ Lo know I will not be able to recover,” Fabian said with a bitter holding voice. 

“ As if you have to get out of this hospital,” said Zavian again.

“ I can't promise ,” said Fabian lirih. There was nothing Fabian could promise about his recovery, as his body was so weak and could be knocked down unpredictably. 

Zavian then held the hand of Fabian who is now very thin. He watched the fragile fingers for a moment and said,” One of the reasons I came home is I want to accompany lo.” 

“ Vian, you do not need to make me as the reason for your decision to go home.” refuted Fabian. He shook his head and looked fed up .

Zavian sighed and looked at his brother who was now lying weakly.

“ I want a long time ago Papa always said that I should take care of you, I have to help you lo, and the cave must exist as a life support lo. All this time I really hate every time Papa asked to take care of you, as if I had to be responsible for your life. Whereas as a brother, you should take care of me.” 

“ Lo no need to pity me.” refute Fabian quickly.

He was clearly aware that Zavian was a special shadow that Papa Adrian had created for him. Zavian was the one who would help and take responsibility for solving Fabian's whole mess. 

“ I no longer pity you, but I am trying to be your little sister,” said Zavian. 

Fabian suddenly froze at Zavian's words. He seemed to be aware that Zavian had been giving up too much on his selfish self. He also realized that Zavian had done a lot for him. While Fabian actually considers Zavian as a stranger and as an opponent that must be eliminated.

“ Lo not only have Mama who will take care of you, but you also still have me, lo's sister,” said Zavian. 

At the moment Fabian was unable to endure something tightness inside his chest. Her tears spilled again along with all the regrets that rolled in her heart. If time could be turned to the past, Fabian wanted to repeat his entire life to correct every mistake he had made. 

“ Now I understand why Papa always nitipin lo to me. This is not about who among us is a brother or who is a sister, but because Papa views me as the only brother lo,” said Zavian. His hand was still holding Fabian's hand so tightly. 

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