Sharing Love: Is My Husband Yours?
Tear

I can't believe what I just heard. Alya could be a snake-mouthed woman. If indeed he was the first wife and love of death Mas Darwin, why did Mas Darwin remarry me? And, why would he let Mas Darwin remarry?

I can't take common sense. All of Alya's statements are hard to accept. I can't just believe it. I have to make sure.

I called Mas Darwin. As I called many times, Mas Darwin did not pick him up. It was hard to contact my husband.

I sent him a voice message too. "Mas, hurry home now! We need to talk. It matters!"

"If you don't come in half an hour, I'll follow you to college. We need to talk." My voice on the message sounded full of emotion.

"If you're a man, face me now! Don't dodge!" My voice mail is getting messy.

"Meet me now!" My yelling. Many times I sent a voicemail to Mas Darwin.

He should go home now. I want to talk to him. I can't hold back my emotions anymore. I want to know everything clearly. Does he really have two wives?

I also tried to contact Mas Darwin's father. He used to give me his cell phone number. "Tuutts... Tuuu... Tuuut...." My call was not answered. I called him up to four times, but it went unanswered.

Suddenly my brain came to Aunt Ros, my neighbor in Palembang first. He set me up with Mas Darwin. He must know something. I'll call him right away.

"Assalamualaikum, Rania!" Aunt Ros greeted me kindly. "How are you?"

I can't mince words anymore. I immediately asked, "Tante, does Mas Darwin really have a wife?"

"What the hell are you talking about? Yes, you are his wife" replied Aunt Ros in a silly tone.

"No, Aunt. I mean another wife." Without feeling I shed tears. "Did you marry me before you got married, did you have a wife?"

"You crying, Rania?" ask Aunt Ros.

"Jawab, Auntie! Answer it! Did Mas Darwin have a wife other than me before?"

"Yes, I don't have one yet" replied Aunt Ros. "Darwin is still a virgin. Why are you suddenly asking like that?"

"So morning I met Alya, she said she was Mas Darwin's first wife" I said.

"Alya," muttered Aunt Ros. "Alya who?"

It turns out Aunt Ros doesn't seem to know anything. It's just free that I ask him.

"You don't get emotional easily, Rania. Maybe that Alya was just confessing to me. Aunt Darwin has never been married. Once he once brought a wife to a family wedding, but it was a long time ago. And, at that time it seemed like Aunt Marina, Mas Darwin's mother, seemed to disagree. After that, Darwin never came close to women again, let alone married." Speech after speech Aunty Ros seemed to justify the statement of the mother about Mas Darwin and Alya.

Mother once said that Mas Darwin had introduced Alya as his future wife to his mother. However, the mother did not approve of their relationship. 'Could they have married secretly without the knowledge of Mas Darwin's mother and family?' my thinking.

"Rania, you have to believe in your husband" said Aunty Ros. "Patience is the test of marriage to make you stronger."

"Tante, what's the woman's name? The woman Mas Darwin introduced as his future wife?" my question is still accompanied by tears.

'Astaghfirullah.' I muttered in my heart. 'That must be Alya, ' I thought. Mother once said Alya was a college friend of Mas Darwin. All of the mother's statements, Aunt Ros's words, and the reality that was before me at this moment were connected into one piece.

'Could Alya really be Mas Darwin's wife? Could it be that I am only his second wife? Could I be the third person in their marriage?' My heart is getting rumbled. I hung up with Aunt Ros.

I cried sobbing in the room. I really don't want to believe all the facts that are getting wide open in front of me. My wish to have a whole household with Mas Darwin was gone. It turns out I'm nobody in Darwin's life. I'm just a 'helper role'. I'm just a doll in this wedding.

How foolish I was to expect too much from this marriage. I adore Mas Darwin as my husband, wanting to age with him. Mas Darwin probably never expected me to be in his life.

I'm disappointed. I can no longer express the disappointment I experienced. Only the tears that continued to linger were proof of the magnitude of the disappointment. 'What should I do? Am I really just a second wife?'

I need to see Mas Darwin right now. 'Should.' I need to know the truth. I don't want to guess like this. Although, all the facts lead as if justifying Alya's words, yet deep in my heart I still very much hope all this is just Alya's lie. I don't want everything to come true.

'Mas Darwin did not meet me, so I will meet him, ' my inner self.

I rushed out of the room to the door. I put my feet out of the house. I want to lock the door from the outside. However, I haven't been able to lock it yet, the familiar sound of a car in my ear sounded so close. I looked over and Mas Darwin got out of the car.

He walked to the terrace. I looked at him so pushy. Tears still fill the corners of my eyes. He looked at me as if astonished. For a long time we looked at each other's thoughts.

Then he put his foot into the house and I followed him. "What are you talking about?" the question seems to challenge me.

"So morning I met Alya" I said. "She said she was your first wife, Mas. Is that true, Mommy?"

Mas Darwin's face suddenly changed. It speaks a thousand languages.

"Jawab, Mommy!" my insistence. "Java!"

"Am I just a second wife? Why did you marry me if your love was only for Alya?" My tears are divorced again.

"Jawab, Mom! Answer it! Why are you quiet?" I was so emotional. Meanwhile, Mas Darwin rubbed his face and threw away his face.

"Why don't you answer? Is that true? You can't answer because it's true, huh?" my many.

"Have you really married her seven years ago?" I kept pushing him. "Jawab, Mommy!" my yelling.

"Rania...." Darwin tried to calm me down.

"Not to talk!" loud say. "I just want to hear your answer. Is it true or not?"

"True or not, Mommy?" I shook his body hard.

"Yes" said Mas Darwin. "That's right. I've been married to her for seven years."

"Haaaaaaakhh...." I took a long breath. All the hopes I held about my marriage fell in an instant. Mas Darwin's speech was like a tsunami that came to hit and swept away all the buildings of my hopes and dreams. All were crushed to pieces unceremoniously.

I was silent, limp .. with tears still streaming down my eyes. Then, I collapsed instantly, helpless.