Sharing Love: Is My Husband Yours?
Sop Ayam Kampung

Darwin has been with me for two days in Kayuagung. I can't deny there's a little bit of comfort when he's with me. But I had to throw that feeling away.

I felt nauseous early in the morning and went to the bathroom to vomit. He immediately chased me into the bathroom and I immediately said, "Go! I can do it myself." I tried to get rid of her help.

After that I went back to the room and sat half-lying on the bed. It turned out that Mas Darwin had entered the room with a glass of warm orange water for me. He also took wind oil and wanted to rub it around my neck, but I refused. "I can do it myself" I said.

"Mas, there's no need to bother taking care of me. I can do it myself" I said.

"I'm just trying to do my part as your husband, Rania."

"No need, Mom. I have to get used to being independent" I replied.

Darwin was silent to my words. I saw his facial expression change. I didn't mean to hurt her with my words. But that's the truth. I have to get used to living independently and taking care of my own child.

"What do you want for lunch?" He was still kind to me even though I refused his treatment.

"I don't want to eat anything" I said breaking his question.

"You should eat. Our son needs food" he said, never giving up and I didn't comment.

Then, unexpectedly this afternoon, Mas Darwin did something I had never seen before. He cooked chicken soup for me. The aroma is as fragrant as filled the air of the entire house. Then, he served her at the dinner table that was surrounded by me and my mother.

We are ready for lunch together. Darwin deftly took rice for me without asking. Then, he wanted to pour the soup into the plate in front of me. I immediately pulled my plate and said, "No need."

Mom and Mas Darwin's eyes immediately fell on me. I said, "Today I want to eat tempeh." I put two pieces of tempeh and a spoonful of sambal into my plate.

"Hey, Rania!" Mother's voice surprised me. "Don't you see your husband's been struggling to make this soup?"

"Mom saw with his own eyes Darwin had been struggling to catch the chicken, cut it, pluck the feathers, clean it, then cook it into soup. You feel good to be asked to eat just do not want. Outrageous of you, Rania!" Mom seemed emotional.

"Mom, already!" say to Darwin immediately. "Maybe it's baby-congenital, not chicken appetites today."

"It doesn't make sense" said the mother immediately. "If you don't want to eat Darwin's food, I'm sure the boy in your womb wants to eat his father's cooking."

"You must eat!" mother's toilet.

Darwin glanced at me. I just kept quiet. Then, Mas Darwin poured that chicken soup into my plate.

"Eat!" Mom forced me to eat. "This chicken soup is good for your pregnancy."

I was forced to eat Mas Darwin's cooking and I didn't think it turned out that Mas Darwin's chicken soup was really good. It was delicious, but fresh. I just found out this time that Mas Darwin is really good at cooking.

"Darwin has been living independently since childhood. Darwin had always cooked by himself at his boarding house since college. So, do not doubt the cuisine, it must be delicious," said the mother while eating her lunch.

Meanwhile, at the same time Alya arrived at one of the village-style restaurants in Indralaya. He walked to one of the cottages and met Aldi there.

"Not seen each other in a long time" Aldi said.

"Yes." Yeah." Alya smiled. "Doctor Aldi, this is Renata, my assistant." Alya did not alone meet Aldi, he was accompanied by his assistant.

"I deliberately invite you to meet here, not at the office so that we chat better, more relaxed, informal," said Aldi.

Alya smiled and nodded. Then a waiter came to deliver a drink. Two glasses of avocado juice.

"Oh, sorry.I just ordered two glasses because I thought you came not both" said Aldi. "Renata, what do you want to drink? Please order! We order food too."

"Hmmh, yes, thank you" said Alya. And then their conversation continued.

A few days ago Aldi called because he needed building design services. He wants to build a private clinic and entrust Alya as the architect. Therefore, Alya kept the promise of meeting him today. He wanted to discuss what kind of design Aldi wanted.

***

Without feeling the days go by so quickly. Today is the last day Mas Darwin accompanied me in Kayuagung. "Is there anything you want to buy?" tanyakanya.

I shook my head. He asked again, "What do you need right now?"

"Nothing" I answered briefly. "Go home!"

"Ro." Darwin held both of my arms. "Tell me honestly! Do you really not like me being here?"

"Let go, Mas!" my spoken.

"Jawab first!" her door.

"Yes" I replied. "I don't like you being here."

Darwin let go of both his hands. He took a few steps back. "Well, I'm going home this morning" he said, taking a bag from his closet and putting his clothes in.

"Take care of our son!" he said before leaving the room and I just kept quiet.

"Mom, I want to go back to Indralaya." I heard Darwin's voice in the room.

"Loh, he said he'd come home later in the afternoon," my mother's voice heard in the distance. "Why is it so sudden this morning?"

"Yes, there's work I need to get done. I'm taking Rania, ma'am."

I don't know why my heart felt so bitter when Mas Darwin would leave me. Is it because I'm pregnant? So, my feelings became very sensitive, easily touched. I don't understand what's really going on with me. But, to be honest, I lied when I said that I didn't like Mas Darwin being here.

There was actually a happy feeling in my heart when Mas Darwin accompanied me here. Every time he paid attention to me I was honestly happy. But, I do not want to include my feelings in enjoying Mas Darwin's treatment of me. I had to keep my distance from him so as not to get stuck deeper.

Suddenly my phone rang. A message came in from Nelly. I caught a glimpse of it, but did not open it. It says, "Rania, are you still angry?"

Ever since Mas Darwin found me back then, I never again opened a message from Nelly and answered her phone. I was very angry at him for leaking my existence to Mas Darwin. However, as time passed my anger began to subside.

I also decided to open the message. There were a lot of messages sent to me. One of his messages read, "Rania, please believe it or not! But, I saw clearly Mas Darwin's expression of worry while looking for you. I'm pretty sure Mas Darwin was actually in love with you."

The other message read, "You are, after all, his legal wife, Rania. Moreover, you are now pregnant with her child. Your son needs his father. You should get your husband, Rania. You'd be happy to be with Mas Darwin."

"Heffhhhh...." I took a long breath.

If Mas Darwin had really been my husband all by myself, I would have been very happy. I remember the first time I met him. Although he was not too young anymore, but in an instant his aura was able to hypnotize me. It's too perfect for me.

Moreover, after getting special attention and treatment from him like these few days, I would definitely be very happy if Mas Darwin was really my whole husband. But the truth is he's not mine. My husband belongs to someone else.

There are three choices I can make. First, snatch it from Alya. Second, let it go double. That means I have to share Mas Darwin's love with Alya forever. Third, release.

The first choice I could not have taken because obviously with my own ears Mas Darwin said that I was the woman he married just to make his mother happy. "You shouldn't have expected more." Those words still ring clearly in my ears. She will never leave Alya, the woman she loved so much.

The second choice I could not take because I could not see him making out with other women. It hurts me too much. And, third choice. I'm gonna let go. I'm going to get divorced from Mas Darwin, get out of his life, and forget about it. That's what I'm doing right now.