Sharing Love: Is My Husband Yours?
Sand Palace

We finally arrived in Bali. I'm so happy that I never thought in my whole life I'd be on this island. A smile from my face I can't hide. Meanwhile, Mas Darwin's face I saw was flat, ordinary. I could not summarize with words whether he was happy or not because his expression was ordinary.

By booking a taxi online we finally arrived at the hotel. I was busy paying attention to the hotel decorations so beautiful, making me so amazed. Then, we headed to the room and when the door opened I was even more amazed. The room has a large glass window with a view that leads directly to the beach. "That's so good," I murmured.

However, then I realized that I had just seen the awkwardness in this room. The beds in this room are two, separate. I gawked and started hunting down Mas Darwin to ask.

"Mas, why is this room a separate bed?" I asked as soon as Darwin came out of the bathroom.

"All that's left is this room. Because, many seminar participants from out of town and have to stay here, this hotel is full. I couldn't get a double room because the booking wasn't from far away. Suddenly, Mom told you to come along. So, yeah all that's left is this room, twin room."

'Hopefully so, ' I thought. Because, I had thought Mas Darwin deliberately ordered a room like this so as not to be close to me. I'm not sure what the reason is, but it's probably because he's actually a same-sex person.

Therefore, before leaving here I was determined to find out what exactly Mas Darwin had kept secret from me? Is he a normal guy or not? From the outside he looked like a man in general, he was masculine and dashing. Not as flabby and gaunt as a woman.

He was like a real man, but did not want to get married until this age. Even after marriage, she showed absolutely no signs of attraction to me, the woman who was halal and legitimate became hers. Meanwhile, her mother kept urging her to have a child as soon as possible as there were concerns in her that I could not understand. I really wonder if Mas Darwin is a normal guy or not? I have to test it myself.

But, how? It was so cold to me. Just at the airport and the plane earlier I could feel the attention from him. After that, the relationship back rigid, no closeness.

I looked at the beautiful beach in front of me through the glass. "Mas, let's go to that beach!" take me. I'm trying to build a close relationship with Mas Darwin.

"No, Rania. I have to prepare a presentation for tomorrow carefully" said Mas Darwin while taking out his laptop.

I kept quiet and looked at Darwin for quite a while. Then, he said, "You go to the beach, please Rania! You can go to the beach alone. You stay the way there, the beach in the back yard of this hotel."

"I want to go to the beach with you, Mas" I said.

"Can't, Rania. I'm busy."

I do not know what makes Mas Darwin so do not want to be close to me, even just to go to the beach together. Everything is still vague.

I decided to go to the beach alone. It's a shame for me to just spend time in the room and miss the moment to enjoy this beautiful scenery.

I walked along the sand beach alone. Breathing in the air and the smell of the waves running around. Look at the wide sky. Then I saw people around me. They walk with a couple. Some laugh with their children, take pictures with friends. They're all very happy. Maybe it's just me on this beach who feels lonely on my own.

Everyone is happy with the people closest to them, except me. There was a sad feeling in my heart. Because, I felt neglected, unloved by my own husband. He doesn't even worry about me here alone, in a foreign place I've never been before.

My steps then came to a halt near an abandoned sand castle. I don't know who built the palace, maybe the kids. I looked at the palace as if I felt my fate was the same as that palace. Then I sat down near him.

Long enough I sat on the sand of the beach watching the rolling waves. Until I see the sun is going down. However, I still did not get out of my seat. I don't intend to go back, I feel sad because I don't care.

It was obvious to me that it was Darwin. "Rania!" his screams again made the people around the beach immediately turn their eyes on him. He looked to the right and to the left, trying to find me.

"Mas Darwin," call me then. He immediately looked at me.

"Rania," he said with a breath.

"What's wrong?" tanyaku.

"I'm worried about you" he replied immediately. I don't know why that sentence sounded so beautiful in my ears and managed to spit out all my sadness and annoyance at him.

"What?" I said it as if I didn't believe the sentence he just said.

"Why don't you hurry home before dark?" ask her a little annoyed. "I'm afraid things aren't good for you."

I fell silent, trying to digest the sentence after sentence he threw out. 'Why is he suddenly worried about me?'

"You make me anxious" he said again. "You're not going home either. I thought you were lost or something bad happened to you. I tried to call you, but I couldn't."

"My phone's battery is running out" I said.

"Why not go back to the room?" tanyakanya.

"I just wanted to go home. I was enjoying the sunset" I replied trying to cover up the sadness I actually felt earlier.

I don't know why all the sadness I felt was gone in a matter of seconds when I saw him running looking for me and worrying about me. There was a happy feeling tucked in my heart. Then, I took his hand. Without a chance he refused I immediately withdrew his hand, forcing his body to walk after me.

"Where are you going?" tanyakanya.

I pointed to a cafe on the beach. "I'm thirsty and hungry" I said. I let go of his hand.

"All right, let's go get some food!" he said then while walking to the cafe.

I finally got to have dinner with Mas Darwin. It's the first time, at the table it's just the two of us. This is a really precious time for me. I feel so happy and keep smiling. Meanwhile, Mas Darwin seemed so focused on his food. Maybe he didn't realize the happiness I was feeling.

After satisfied eating Mas Darwin immediately invited me back to the room. I still want to enjoy this romantic evening with her. I wanted to look at the stars with him, hear the roar of the waves on the beach. But, all of that I have to get rid of from my wishful thinking. Because, he said, "I'm tired, want to rest. I have to get up early tomorrow. The seminar will start in the morning."